BRIX

As I lay here I strain to hear your voice in my ear.
I long to feel the rhythm of your breath.
My hand falls on the pillow yearning to feel the beating of your heart .
My head falls on the pillow that I imagine to be your shoulder.
My leg entangles the blanket longing to be entangled with your legs.
I roll over seeking your warmth.

Your voice is engrained into my memory.
Every breath I breathe is to give me life until it can be in sync with yours.
My hands long to caress your body and rest upon your chest.
I can feel your arm it fits perfectly between my head and shoulder.
I feel the warmth that grows between us as our legs become one entangled body.
I ache to feel your chest against my back as we lay as only one body.

Your breath in my ear.
Your heart against mine in perfect time.
I want to feel your body curve to mine as we lay together.
I draw warmth, strength, comfort and love from each other.

We will no longer feel the need to dream of what could be.
We both know that we have all we have ever dreamed of as we lay together because truest dreams have come true.
Until I am able to roll over and kiss you good night. I will seek you in my dreams and feel you if only in my heart.

As I sit here waiting for the sun to rise. I look around me. I see mountains, the ocean the birds and the magnificence of the sky and all the colors it holds. I am in awe of the beauty and what God has created. I am so grateful for the beauty I see. I feel more connected connected to him and you now. I am not sitting far from where you are now lying in bed and getting ready to start your day. Is it my location or because my heart is with you.

Right now, it’s hard to distinguish which of God’s creation I am more in awe of the beauty that surrounds us. I look toward the sun my eyes are drawn to one mountain peak. Nothing else holds my gaze like that peak does.

Just like yesterday when I walked down the aisle at the store. You caught my eye and I couldn’t look away. As I walked toward you everything and everyone ceases to exist. I felt my heart jump and I couldn’t look away. Your beauty held my gaze you and your smile. You have no idea how beautiful you are. Will you ever really know how much I feel for you? I try to articulate all of my emotions but the words always fall short of what I am trying to convey.
I look away from the paper and my mind begins to drift.

In my daydream you and I are all alone where I sit now. Lying together in the bed of a truck beneath the sheets on a feather bed. Looking down the channel at the beautiful sunrise made for us to share nothing exists beyond you and me and the sunrise. The flowing breeze blowing across the sheets covering our naked bodies. We don’t say a word. There are none needed. We just lay in each other’s arms appreciating what God had given us. Each other and the beauty that surrounds us. As the sun becomes whole over the mountains and our day begins. You kiss me and we make love. The beauty of the vision in my minds eye is just as beautiful as the rising sun.

Again, I wonder whict of God’s creations I admire the most. The choice is obvious. Only you can make this happy, content and so in Love that I am able to see and truly appreciate the beauty of the sunrise. Before loving you nothing was as beautiful, nothing so awesome, nothing to be so cherished.

Not until you loved me could I appreciate the beauty that God has given to me. Your smile and the beauty of the sunrise.

Baby as sure as the sun rises everyday my love for you will shine just as bright as the sun does. There may be clouds in our future but I promise everyday you will know my love for you will shine through.

Nothing lasts forever
Real life never ends happily ever after.
Love me right now give me all you have to give.
Right here right now this is the time to live.
Love me right now give me all you have to give.
Right here right now this is the time to live.
Today is the day I love you.
Dreams of our future may never come true.
Yesterday is over and can never be again.
This may be the day the day before the end.
Give it all to me don’t hold back.
Fill m heart so full until you feel it crack.
Cause tomorrow you’ll hear my heart break.
Don’t hold back there’s too much at stake.

Nothin lasts forever
Real life never ends in happily ever after.
Love me right now give me all you have to give.
Right here right now is the time to live.
Love me right now tomorrow might never come.
Give me all you have to give tomorrow we might be done.
Don’t make me promises that you won’t keep.
The pain it causes goes way too deep.
Love me right now like there’s no tomorrow.
Give me this moment then I can deal with the sorrow.
Love me today, tell me all you have to say.
We might not have another day.

Nothing lasts forever
Real life never ends in happily ever after.
Love me right now give me all you have to give
Right here right now is the time to live.
The moment we began we were headed towards the end.
Be my lover I don’t want another friend.
You may be the love of my life or just the one who makes me smile.
Today’s another step on the journey it’s just one more mile.
Love me right now give me all you have to give.
Let me love you right now this is the time to live.
Don’t promise me tomorrow.
Moments like this we need to steal not borrow.
Nothing lasts forever
Real life never ends happily ever after
Love me right now give me all you have to give.
Right here right now is the time to live.

I see you and wonder if you see me.
I try to catch your eye. Is there still a glimmer?
Are we where we are meant to be?
The choices we have made – our hopes a little dimmer.

My heart jumps and my breath held.
When I see your familiar silhouette.
To open the door to where my thoughts of you have dwelled.
How I wish I could change things since we met.

I see you smile and wonder if you are happy and content.
It appears you have your family again.
Are you getting all you deserve or do you need to vent?
Do you get what I want for you or do you abstain.

Am I crazy for still hoping?
Do you have all you have ever wanted?
Day to day I feel as if I am just coping.
My thoughts and dreams are still haunted.

Our smiles are seen on the outside.
Days come and go
But only you and I know what is inside.
What is felt can never show.

Even after months with no contact.
I see you and I begin to think.
How much longer can I continue this act.
Do we still have that undeniable link?

Will anything ever evolve from what we are now?
Will it continue to be just “hi how are you?”
Or someday what we want to feel and need be allowed.
Until I know what is real and you give me a clue.

My arms are not empty, but my heart doesn’t feel
I too am tired of being alone.
But what I have now it isn’t real.
The one who has my heart has known.

I wish I could feel you reach for me to know you are still there.
Until then I will continue to live this life not alone but still lonely.
I wish we were able to see each other be what we both need. This is my prayer.
No one knows what God has instore. Until then I am my one and only

Was Loving Me Really A Sin
I felt like loving you.
Was what I was put on Earth to do?
Everything in my heart has been spoken.
My heart is now empty and my spirit broken.

I will pretend day to day.
That you weren’t here and I am okay.
Now I see you walk away.
There’s nothing I left that I can say.

To make you stop and turn around.
To another you are bound.
When I received your 1-4-3.
I didn’t think you would ever flee.

We’ll have what if’s and what might have been.
Try not to remember how I caressed your skin.
We both knew it felt so right.
That was to be our last night.

I wanted to love you in so many ways.
My desire for you a burning hot blaze.
Wanting to give you everything and more.
I should have known what was in store.

Is loving you or losing you harder.
Has losing mad me any smarter?
A handsome man so full of charm.
Could never fall for a girl off the farm.

If it feels too good to be true.
Before forever started it was through.

Loving you
Was something I had to dof
It was so much more than friends.
Either way beginnings lead to ends.

I had so much love to give.
In my heart I wanted you to live.
How can I stop loving you?
You know it’s not an easy thing to do.

How can something that felt so right.
Be locked away and put out of sight.
When the day comes and you find yourself free.
Please remember the bond you had with me.

I know in your heart that I have a place.
If only we could’ve had a lifelong embrace.
I’ll say goodbye.
With tears in my eyes.

Remember my smile, my scent, my hand on your face.
In your heart save me a place.
Now is just not our time.
Life has no reason or no rhyme.

You were guided by a hand from above.
He thought you needed to feel my love.
With my heart and all of my soul.
Loving you was a gift not a toll.

I won’t say goodbye not ever not now.
As you would to me “love you baby. Ciao.”
Always remember what we thought we knew.
The end of 2009 in room number 302.

Was loving me really a sin?
If so why did God let it begin?
All I wanted was to be his forever.
You got what you wanted. You’re very clever.

I See You
I see you and wonder if you see me.
I try to catch your eye to see if there is still a glimmer.
Are we where we are meant to be?
The choices we have made – our hopes a little dimmer.

My heart jumps and my breath is held.
When I see your familiar silhouette.
To open the door to where my thoughts of you have dwelled.
How I wish I could change things since we met.

I see you smile and wonder if you are happy and content.
It appears you have your family again.
Are you getting all you deserve or do you need to vent.
Do you get what I want for you, or do you abstain?

Am I crazy for still hoping?
Do you have all you’ve ever wanted?
Day to day I feel as I am just coping.
My thoughts and dreams are still haunted.

Our smiles seen on the outside.
Days come and days go.
But only you and I know what’s felt inside.
What is felt can never show.

Even after months with no contact.
I see you and begin to think.
How much longer can I continue this act.
Do we still have that undeniable link?

Will anything ever evolve from what we are now?
Will it continue to be just “hi, how are you.”
Or someday, what we want, feel and need be allowed.
Until I know what is real and you give me a clue.

My arms are not empty, but my heart doesn’t feel.
I too am tired of being alone.
But what I have now isn’t real
The one who has my heart has known.

I wish I could feel you reach for me to know you are still there.
Until then, I will continue to live this life not alone but still lonely and wanting more.
I wish we were able to be to each other what we both need. This is my prayer.
No one knows what God has instore.

Another Friday Night
It’s Friday night and I missed your call.
I hit the button to hear your voice.
You Say Baby
I gotta have you.
I want to kiss your lips.
You want to hold me close.
You want to touch every inch of my body.
You want to make love.

I’ve heard it before same as last week. Yeah, I know.
You gotta have me right now.
You want to kiss my lips.
You want to hold me close.
You want to touch every inch of my body.
You want to make love.
Do you want me forever? (Please say Yes).
Do you want to make love to me every day? (Please say Yes)
Do you want to grow old with me? (Please say Yes).
Will we be happily ever after? (please say Yes).

It’s the same as last Friday night.
I know you want me.
I know you need it.
I know it’s more than you can handle.
I know it feels right.
You say you need to be with me tonight.

The Game
You walked into my life with a mission on your mind.
You said I was the kind of woman you wanted to find.
I looked into your eyes and saw the smile on your lips.
Every time I saw you my heart did flips.
Every call every text made my day.
I was fallin’ I was on my way.
Gonna get a piece & and move to the next level.

I believed each and every line.
I wanted you to always be mine.
I knew every word you said was sincere.
You said all the words I needed to hear.
Each word so genuine and free straight from the heart.
The game was set I played my part.
Gonna get a piece & move to the next level.

The deck was stacked as you dealt each card.
I was falling I let down my guard.
You could see it. It was part of the plan.
You looked into my eyes and held my heart in your hand.
Gonna get a piece & move to the next level.

I wanted to be with you every day.
I wanted to be with you in every way.
I didn’t know there were more girls that you were playin’.
I thought I was the one you loved every night I kept prayin’.
Gonna get a piece & move to the next level.

I shared my heart. I bared my soul.
I didn’t know your heart was dead and cold.
The words you said the thoughts you shared.
You said you’d been hurt, and you were scared.
Gonna get a piece & move to the next level.

I was the girl of your dreams.
I didn’t know it was one of your schemes.
I wanted you whenever, wherever and forever.
I thought it was love but it was you being clever.
People told me about the others and about your wife.
No, not him, he’s the love of my life.
Your calls were fewer I didn’t see you as much.
I cried leaving messages I needed your touch.

Got my piece. I won the game. She took me to the highest level.
You proved to God and got played by the devil.
Gonna let you know let you off the hook.
Gonna find her number in my little black book.
“Hey baby, it’s me. Yeah, I’m a player and it was a game.
“You’re nothin’ special like all the others you’re all the same.”
I just need a minute this won’t take long.
This is what I do I ain’t doin’ nothing wrong.
Yeah. You thought you found love found a good man.
Girl that was all part of the plan.
Just another piece of ass on the board.
My life is this game and with you I really scored.
It’s been a game from beginning and now it’s the end.
I found out how far you’d bend.
You’re just another of my toys, life well. It’s all a game.
I need to find another bitch so I can play her just the same.
Now that you know it’s not any fun.
Life is a game baby, nobody matters but number one.
Get over it baby, everyone’s gonna get played.
Theres only one winner.
I am a pro and your just a beginner.
Don’t be embarrassed or feel shame.
I’m not just a player – I invented the game.