Confession
By SlyDeal Music
What I did was shameful, unintentional – regrettable, but nonetheless, not with total disregard of emotion – yours or mine.
For what I did I’m sorry and maybe, while you have heard it all, I hope you can find in your heart, a way to forgive me. To assume that I could
just waltz into your life and be accepted on face value without giving you the time or opportunity to get to know me was not being fair
or considerate of you.
It was foolish of me to believe that magic could appear, not slight of hand, and transform a heart with a heavy burden such as mine,
into a glorious field of happiness and wonderment. And although my burdens were becoming lighter, maybe yours were becoming heavier
with me there. In other words, maybe the thought of my presence, token at best, was something you felt was too much for you to contend with.
Whatever the reason, I can’t fault your decision – no matter how hard I try.
There’s no doubt I put the horse before the cart. Had the wrong thoughts about a true relationship between us. Maybe, just maybe, it was too good.
In letting nature take its course, I forgot about your feelings, your wants, your desires. But, even to take something for granted, to relax, can be detrimental,
painful and even shocking. I can’t blame you for looking elsewhere. I can’t fault you for knowing what you desire. I can only confess and blame myself for
floundering any chance or opportunity that presented itself. Though I have only known you for a short time, I will miss you very much as you push me aside.
I will remember every detail about you and will forever cherish the fact that you are a special kind. Someone who not only have a mind of your own, but a
person that can smile, laugh and bring out the best in me. It takes someone of your nature to put me in my place. It takes a good woman – a mindful woman
not confused about her desires – to break my heart. But you did. And I confess, this hurt, while painful at worst, maybe the catalyst to make me look at my life
and try to comprehend the confusion in which I exist.
To say you are the last woman in my life, would, on the surface, sound unrealistic. But trust me – hibernation might just do me a world of good. I will save my
love for you. Foolish, yes I know – because you will probably never want to see me again. That is, unless it is on your terms and your terms only. I will wait for you.
But if I never see you again I only hope you will enrich some other man’s life the way, for a while, you did mine. And maybe while you are, you will find the resounding
satisfaction you seek. Experiences – only a few, but none as pleasing, as enchanting as you. I just wish I could have made you happier thanI did. I will forever have a place in
my heart for you. A place reserved for someone I had an opportunity to wish as my own, if only for a few days and nights.
This is my confession.
Love you!!!!!!!!!!!
