LYRIC FOR SALE

By Raven Lovette

I was happy and then I got anxiety -

I don't know why and now I cannot fly -

My stomach is queezing and I don't feel alive -

My breathing goes fast and thoughts are taking a deep dive -

So many thoughts, just piling high with the weight on my shoulders it's no wonder why -

I thought I was doing good I thought I was doing fine -

So why am I feeling this now, so sudden and out of my control -

It's like a Rollercoaster, but everytime I go upside down, the vile rises but won't come out -

It's like everything has turned a panic and anxious gray -

The shadows cave from the corners of my eye -

I wish I were a ghost, but even in afterlife, could I even cope -

And it feels like I've gone back in time -

The heaviness in my chest and tears streaming down my face, the urges I haven't felt since I was 12 -

The desperate attempt to distract -
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I wish I were you...

so good at life's game and keeping afloat...

why can't I cope?...

tell me, is the grass as green as it looks...
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if only I wasn't drowning in the depth of my debt -

or the feeling of not being as good as everyone tells me I am -

I wish I felt like I had the power to exist without suffocating and -

I see my skeletons of self deprication -

I smell the rot of someone who has never felt real -

I taste the coppery sobs as i try to breath -

I hear the echoes of my thoughts that I'll never be good enough for myself;