TheHumblePencil

I thought I would be strong
I was mentally prepared
But when I saw you lying there
Lifeless, no longer with me,
That’s when I knew you had prepared me for this moment
For a while now


Little did we know my last visit
was our last meeting?
Little did we know my last caress on your head
Was the last few moments with you?
Little did I know, no matter how much I coaxed and
Prepared myself to let you go,
I still cried uncontrollably,
hoping you would come back to me again.


I was told life and death were a circle
I know everything happens for a reason
I kept telling you to go
And live a better next life
But you know what?
I miss you


Little did we know my last visit
was our last meeting?
Little did we know my last caress on your head
Was the last few moments with you?
Little did I know, no matter how much I coaxed and
Prepared myself to let you go,
I still cried uncontrollably,
hoping you would come back to me again.


I may still look for you where you were
When I got back, though I know you are no longer there
I still call your name to tease you
Though I know there will be no more response
But that’s alright

That’s alright…


Little did we know my last visit
was our last meeting?
Little did we know my last caress on your head
Was the last few moments with you?
Little did I know, no matter how much I coaxed and
Prepared myself for you to leave,
I still cried uncontrollably,
hoping you would come back to me again.

But that’s alright
That’s alright…
We shall meet again someday.

I used to think
I have goals in life I want to achieve.
This became the motivation
To keep moving forward
Whether it rains or shines, just keep carrying on.

Why do I cry now? Why? Why do the tears keep coming?
That’s when I learned how much I laughed at the enthusiastic self I had,
Was also how many tears I cried at rejections and failures.

I learned to be tougher from these failures and crashes.
I made myself promise not to ever tear up again unnecessarily.
I made myself think I was made of steel,
As I journey on to my goals.
Little did I know, we are only human.
And we all have feelings.
It was only right to feel sad or angry sometimes,
And not everything is a bed of roses always.

Why do I cry now? Why? Why do the tears keep coming?
That’s when I learned these tears were comforting during my toughest days.


My perseverance, which brought me to my goals,
Ah, finally!
Made me celebrate,
Made me smile and accept the recognition.
But when you felt everything was going smoothly,
Trouble never stayed far away.
How was it that what I deserved could end up tarnished in the blink of an eye?
Betrayed by the closest to me?
Discriminated, accused, taken advantage of…
Worse of all, I was thrown back to square one.

Why do I cry now? Why? Why do the tears keep coming?
That’s when I learned the tears this time were of betrayal and injustice.

By now, I have gotten used to trouble and disappointments.
What do I have to do if I’m back at square one?
Restart again like a game!
Grind it up and give my best shot, except being more vigilant than before.
Experienced but still remembering my values and principles,
Success prevails triumphantly to me in bliss.
It felt strange.
As if it were borrowed. As if it were all a dream. As if the dark history could repeat itself again.

Why do I cry now? Why? Why do the tears keep coming?
That’s when I learned the tears this time were of fear.
It wasn’t only fear of losing it all but the fear of losing myself in it all.

I kept doing what I do best all my life,
Slowly searching back for my roots,
Losing some part of the success was fine
‘Cause finding my way back into myself was crucial.

That’s when I thought to myself, when the time comes for me to leave this world,
I hope the tears I cry will be because I am proud of myself, and I could only wish for a better life next.

Chorus:
I thought I wouldn’t like this place
Who knew I fell in love with it effortlessly
From the slow living pace
To the free flow of creativity growing in me
Looks like I have found my temporary living space

Verse 1:
What’s so special about the place?
Little drizzles while cruising down the streets,
Soft breeze of eleven degrees
Accompanying me while I have a rose petal cookie,
A chilly afternoon
Enjoying a warm teapot of freshly brewed tea,
Nibbling on some snacks and sweet fruits,
Sharing experiences through genuine conversations with the locals.

Chorus:
I thought I wouldn’t like this place
Who knew I fell in love with it effortlessly
From the slow living pace
To the free flow of creativity growing in me
Looks like I have found my temporary living space

Verse 2:
Just when I thought I had seen it all
The city has more to provide!
It wasn’t just flat land but also
Blue lake and snow mountain at higher altitudes.
A couple of hours of driving would bring you to even higher altitudes,
Where one is greeted by the green meadows, clear blue skies whole day,
Enjoying a horse ride while herding the sheep and yaks.

Chorus:
I thought I wouldn’t like this place
Who knew I fell in love with it effortlessly
From the slow living pace
To the free flow of creativity growing in me
Looks like I have found my temporary living space

Not moving… Just wanna stay for good.

Chorus:
I used to think
I have seen it all
I have heard it all
But I have forgotten that things change

Verse:
The cruelty I have gotten used to
Grows its exposure quicker than goodness could save the world
The goodness in the world
Keeps getting taken advantage of and suppressed

Given a chance
Everyone would choose the betterment
However, in reality, due to the circumstances
Often, we are forced to make drastic choices
Not because we want to
But that’s the only way of survival

Chorus:
I used to think
I have seen it all
I have heard it all
But I have forgotten that things change

Bridge:
Using sincerity
Using the lessons taught
Using these gruesome nightmare experiences
I hope the goodness will be preserved a little longer
I hope the innocence would remain to inspire those lost back to the right path
I hope the world can still let the positivity spread and survive for its betterment

Chorus:
I used to think
I have seen it all
I have heard it all
But I have forgotten that things change

May the world always change to be a better place.

It started out as an entertainment,
Didn’t expect us to last.
Thought you would be like puppy love,
But you ended up being my baby.

Chorus:
I kept hesitating about moving further,
I thought I was going to give up soon,
I had never in this life thought I would make it this far with you,
To the ends of the earth.

I often had low self-esteem,
But you push me out of my boundaries.
Even if it meant days of not talking to each other,
Hours of living in misery, not seeing each other.

Chorus:
I kept hesitating about moving further,
I thought I was going to give up soon,
I had never in this life thought I would make it this far with you,
To the ends of the earth.

Bridge:
Given the chance, I would like to express my gratitude to you through this song.
I hope you will be able to feel my unspoken warm embrace,
Finally understand how deeply you had made me fall for you.

Chorus:
I kept hesitating about moving further,
I thought I was going to give up soon,
I had never in this life thought I would make it this far with you,
With you, oh yes… You and it’s you alone…

To the ends of the earth.

Wandering into someone’s path
And walk along by their side for a while
Eventually, it became a comfort and companion
Which I don’t want to lose selfishly

Oh, no one had a clue how to live this life
We were all just striving to live at our very best, oh, oh, oh
But why is the world becoming meaner as time passes?

No one taught us how to say goodbye
The bleak emptiness, stirring uncertainty and fear
The loneliness, though being surrounded by millions of others
Was deafening
I wouldn’t know how much it hurts,
Till I went through it

Oh, no one had a clue how to live this life
We were all just striving to live at our very best, oh, oh, oh
But why is the world becoming meaner as time passes?

There were times I tried screaming in my mind for help
For someone to teach me,
How to deal with being lost in life,
How do I find my way back to peace,
How to learn the vast lessons of life
To be able to live as a better person…

Oh, no one had a clue how to live this life
We were all just striving to live at our very best, oh, oh, oh
But why is the world becoming meaner as time passes?

Just how…
Oh, how…
How do I find my way back to peace,
How to learn the vast lessons of life,
To be able to live as a better person…

V1:
I walked past the alley today
I saw the time we stopped for a kiss
Holding your hand after a hectic day
Just enjoying your company
By my side

Chorus:
I thought over time
Time would make me think less of you
But,
You were always lingering in every second of my life
As though you were always by my side

V2:
I slept in your bed that night
It still smells like you
I imagined your strong arms around me
Gently coaxing me to sleep
By my side

Chorus:
I thought over time
Time would make me think less of you
But,
You were always lingering in every second of my life
As though you were always by my side

V3:
I saw you in my dreams
Bringing my favorite marigolds
Strumming some soft melody over a harp
Overseeing an illuminating sunset
By my side

Chorus:
I thought over time
Time would make me think less of you
But,
You were always lingering in every second of my life
As though you were always by my side

Bridge:
Thinking of you constantly
Wondering how you have been
Longing for you to be…
By my side, always
Yeah, just the way we both always wanted

Chorus:
I thought over time
Time would make me think less of you
But,
You were always lingering in every second of my life
As though you were always by my side
By my side (side)
Oh, side…
Yes, by my side baby…
Always

I sat by here where once it was a downhill slope
Thinking about the time we spent trimming the lawn together
Watching you cleaning and maintaining your beloved motorcycles
And you, watching over me while I ride my tricycle

It reminded me that
Time came and went
The century has changed and evolved
But there's one thing that still remains
And that's our memory together

Today Mum made our favourite dish
To me, the taste has changed over time
Perhaps I'm healthier now
And I wondered what you would say about her cooking if you were still here

It reminded me that
Time came and went
The century has changed and evolved
But there's one thing that still remains
And that's our memory together

Though you have left us for many years
Mum still talks about you like it was just yesterday
When you brought her on a joy ride
Like you just celebrated our birthdays
Watched a horror story together and knew it was always a sad ending

It reminded me that
Time came and went
The century has changed and evolved
But there's one thing that still remains
And that's our memory together

So how are you doing on the other side?
Dad, I could only wish you would have a better life
And if we would ever have a chance
I would give you the best life I could as your daughter again