Ceciliya

I
Travel through time,
To pick up every piece
Of your love,
Lost in deep corners
Of my life.

So, I
Can remember
From time to time,
How it feels
To be alive.

I
Dive into my mind,
To search for
Reasons why,
You are no longer
By my side.

I’m ready to give it all,
I’m ready to take the fall,
In your play I lost my role,
I’ll end up all alone.

But,

I’m ready to live a lie,
I’m ready to kill my pride,
And pretend that you are mine
One more day and night.

When the love is gone,
It is nobodies will,
Leaves an abyss inside,
You don’t know how to fill.

When the love is gone,
Laughter turns to a smile,
Try to recall how it was,
But it’s been a while.

When the love is gone
Even sunny day is gray,
Even small victories are
Just another pain.

We are fools,
Trying to put in place
Pieces of puzzle,
We are fools,
Believing it’s normal life
Not a struggle.
We know that words said
Cannot be erased,
And we know things done
Cannot be reversed.

Falling apart,
Distance deep and wide,
There is no bridge
To reach side to side.
Falling apart,
All dreams crushed by lies,
Love is not a phoenix
To die and then arise.

I can feel your presence,
Drags the earth under my feet,
Trying to freeze my senses,
To control my heartbeat.

The way you look at me,
Gives tingles down my spine,
I’m naked to the bone,
But feels so damn fine.

It’s so divine when
Our bodies touch,
But I’m afraid
To expect too much.
It’s so insane
To be close to you,
I can’t believe
That is all true.

Dance with me,
I want to feel warmth of your breath
On my neck.
Dance with me,
Just smile and put your gentle hands
On my back.
Stay with me,
The world will never be the same
As long as your heart is spelling my name.


Dance with me,
With every note of this song
Closer we get.
Dance with me,
We’re sharing this moment
We’ll never forget.
Stay with me,
The world will never be the same
As long as my heart is spelling your name.

It’s never easy to let go,
Even the number is high,
To watch you fade away,
Going slowly back in time.

Your mind is playing tricks,
Dragging memories from the past,
For a second they are alive,
Then turn to shadow and dust.

I still recognize you
In deep lines of your face,
I remember the strength
In pale resting hands.
I see my reflection
In your dreamy eyes,
And for a moment
Corner of your mouth smiles.

I’ll miss your love,
I’ll miss your hug,
And the way you used to laugh.
I’ll miss our talks,
Way things were done,
And being called “my little one”.

I’ll miss your advice
When days are bad,
I’ll miss your comfort
When I’m sad.
I’ll miss the past
And all future days,
I’m really missing you dad.

What do you do when not happy with yourself?
When nothing new waits you in the morning...
Do you give up and put your life on a shelf,
So wasted dreams can’t jump out without a warning?

How can you face a mirror and hide disappointment?
How to return lightness in your daily step?
How to believe you’ve achieved everything that meant,
But still not enough to make a final recap?

Have I spent all of my happy days?
Have I used all the variety of ways?
Is there nothing more to wait for,
Is it selfish to want something more?

I need a spark to light the fire,
To start my day with desire.
I need a purpose to fill this void,
So I don’t feel too destroyed.

I need love to keep me burning,
One to whom I’ll be returning,
Special one worth living for
And never wanting anything more.

Tell me, tell me sweet,
What do you wish for
When falling asleep?
What is your desire
You hide down deep?

Tell me, tell me please,
What do you crave for?
Fate, glory or peace?
Or one and only,
True love it is?

Tell me, whisper in my ear,
Who do you search for
In your wildest dream,
To take you places
You have never been?

Tell me, tell without disgrace,
Who is so special to
Blow you out of space?
Who is the one to leave
Inerasable trace?

Do you keep inside for me a special place?
Is your desire in the shape of my face?
Please, dream about me as I dream of you
I just want to be your wish that came true.

I could take you far, far, far…
I could be your falling star…
I could give you glory and love…
I could be your peaceful dove…

Please wish for me as I’m wishing you
I will be your wish that came true.

I used to touch you,
I wanted you to know,
That I’m burning up for you,
But it’s not easy to show.

You used to hold me
When I’m falling asleep,
Now my fears are awake,
Pulling me down deep.

So I look at you
Pretending that I’m not aware,
That you are shutting down,
You no longer care.

And then I reach for you,
But there is only a deserted place,
Just scattered memories
That I’ll have to face.

You are a missing part of me,
It’s hard to explain
Even it’s not there
It still hurts,
Still gives a pain

Inside…

There was a beat and now is gone,
Only an echo fading away,
True sign of dying
Without you
Living the last day.

You are a missing part in me
Impossible to replace,
No other smile or face
Could ever
Fill that space

Inside…

My heart was filled with love and joy
Once but not anymore,
By losing you
I have lost
Everything I’ve lived for.

We all ask ourselves in time,
What is the purpose of being alive?
What is the reason good enough,
To go on and ramble through life?

We all had our ups and downs,
Yes, we tasted bitter and sweet.
We all made pledges and vows,
A lot of them we couldn’t keep.

But then you get that moment in life,
To hold them in your arms
For the first time.
Overwhelmed with joy
You recognize,
It has mommy’s nose and daddy’s eyes.
That’s the moment you realize…

They are the purpose
Of being alive,
They are the reason
We ramble through life,
They are the hope,
They are the light,
Changing our grey
Into flamboyant art.

With every smile
Each hug they make,
They give us love,
Kind you can never fake.
Then we surrender
And we’re ready to take,
Pledges and vows
We will never break.

You are our flamboyant art…

You may feel you’re useless and weak,
Think that you’ll never reach so far.
Be sure you’ve missed all your chances
Of becoming a superstar.


But then you get that moment in life,
To hold them in your arms
For the first time.
Overwhelmed with joy
You recognize,
It has mommy’s nose and daddy’s eyes.
That’s the moment you realize…

They are the purpose
Of being alive,
They are the reason
We ramble through life,
They are the hope,
They are the light,
Changing our grey
Into flamboyant art.

With every smile
Each hug they make,
They give us love,
Kind you can never fake.
Then we surrender
And we’re ready to take,
Pledges and vows
We will never break.

You are our flamboyant art…
You are our flamboyant art…