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Matt Barcelona

Wrap your blazing fingers around my neck.
Burn my skin and melt my willingness.
Take my fears away and kiss me naked
that I won't even fight against this chaos.

And I'm left scared and defeated.
Like a child sobs himself to sleep.
if I'm this weak, I'll give up.

Don't be afraid, there's no need to worry.
I hear that menacing voice mocking my loss.
And in this hall of mirrors I am in
there's the defeaning silence to let me hear the sorrow.
And if I stare at the mirrors I will see the cracks
and I will hate every line of that reflection.
And I know I'm at rock bottom,
but somehow I don't want it to be over.

At night the darkness presses against my chest,
it takes over my soul, my senses of living
but somehow I embrace this state of decay
as it empties my body, drains the will left to fight.

And I'm left shaken and disturbed.
And I'm weightless as the light and I am
gone as those years when I smiled.

Don't be afraid, there's no need to worry.
I hear that menacing voice mocking my loss.
And in this hall of mirrors I am in
there's the defeaning silence to let me hear the sorrow.
And if I stare at the mirrors I will see the cracks
and I will hate every line of that reflection.
And I know I'm at rock bottom,
but somehow I don't want it to be over.

As I'm walking through this hall of mirrors
I wonder when I'm to get to the end.
This is the most deadly penance of all.

Hall of mirrors

She reminded him of a nightingale
so easily drifted into the wind.
He was the strongest Summer storm
so scared of she used to be.
Childish and reckless,
meant to forget each other
and when they fell in love
they never pictured it'd hurt so deep.
That she was so fragile he couldn't see.

Don't raise a smile, I'll pretend I haven't seen.
This is the saddest ending and we're both hurt.
When she sang she would bring about
a different meaning to all those words
that have never existed and never will.

All the purity she embodied
was destroyed by his lips,
and all the tears her eyes cried
were the light drizzle when he was leaving.
If you see a motion in the sky
make a wish before it fades away
for it isn't the first time
that music stops playing
but this time her melody will.

Don't raise a smile, I'll pretend I haven't seen.
This is the saddest ending and we're both hurt.
When she sang she would bring about
a different meaning to all those words
that have never existed and never will.

If you pretend you don't feel it
it may come to an end, she won't suffer.
If it doesn't touch your nerves, it won't exist.
If you sob in silence, it will be over.

The saddest song ever

God and I never got along
we couldn't even stand each other,
when the devil grants me a wish
God takes it away from me.
That goes from the very beginning.
I was born the prettiest dark angel
but Suicide became my best friend.
I was kicked out of la-la-land
I started losing sleep.
That's only the first chapter.

Always thought I was meant to be a star
if only I hadn't chosen suicide
I'd have run the world, best of them all
I wouldn't be asking for more.

Look, I've screwed it all up again
I'm trying to breathe but it's too late
it's 3 a.m. and I'm still up.
Sleeping pills and cigarettes.
Look, it's the same walk of shame
looking pretty, feeling lonely
and when there's no obvious way to go,
sleeping pills and cigarretes.

My skin is getting drier,
can't recall when I ate last.
Yeah, I'm a complete mess.
No, I don't intend to break the habit.
All that's left is forlorn hope.
I used to be a dreamer
till Suicide sweet talked to my ears.
We laughed along and watched Netflix
then we got physically involved
and it sucked then I was left alone.

Always thought I was meant to be happy
but that shit wasn't never planned for me.
If only I had noticed it when I was young
I wouldn't have screwed around that much.

Sleeping pills & cigarretes


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Wrap your blazing fingers around my neck.
Burn my skin and melt my willingness.
Take my fears away and kiss me naked
that I won't even fight against this chaos.

And I'm left scared and defeated.
Like a child sobs himself to sleep.
if I'm this weak, I'll give up.

Don't be afraid, there's no need to worry.
I hear that menacing voice mocking my loss.
And in this hall of mirrors I am in
there's the defeaning silence to let me hear the sorrow.
And if I stare at the mirrors I will see the cracks
and I will hate every line of that reflection.
And I know I'm at rock bottom,
but somehow I don't want it to be over.

At night the darkness presses against my chest,
it takes over my soul, my senses of living
but somehow I embrace this state of decay
as it empties my body, drains the will left to fight.

And I'm left shaken and disturbed.
And I'm weightless as the light and I am
gone as those years when I smiled.

Don't be afraid, there's no need to worry.
I hear that menacing voice mocking my loss.
And in this hall of mirrors I am in
there's the defeaning silence to let me hear the sorrow.
And if I stare at the mirrors I will see the cracks
and I will hate every line of that reflection.
And I know I'm at rock bottom,
but somehow I don't want it to be over.

As I'm walking through this hall of mirrors
I wonder when I'm to get to the end.
This is the most deadly penance of all.

Hall of mirrors

She reminded him of a nightingale
so easily drifted into the wind.
He was the strongest Summer storm
so scared of she used to be.
Childish and reckless,
meant to forget each other
and when they fell in love
they never pictured it'd hurt so deep.
That she was so fragile he couldn't see.

Don't raise a smile, I'll pretend I haven't seen.
This is the saddest ending and we're both hurt.
When she sang she would bring about
a different meaning to all those words
that have never existed and never will.

All the purity she embodied
was destroyed by his lips,
and all the tears her eyes cried
were the light drizzle when he was leaving.
If you see a motion in the sky
make a wish before it fades away
for it isn't the first time
that music stops playing
but this time her melody will.

Don't raise a smile, I'll pretend I haven't seen.
This is the saddest ending and we're both hurt.
When she sang she would bring about
a different meaning to all those words
that have never existed and never will.

If you pretend you don't feel it
it may come to an end, she won't suffer.
If it doesn't touch your nerves, it won't exist.
If you sob in silence, it will be over.

The saddest song ever

God and I never got along
we couldn't even stand each other,
when the devil grants me a wish
God takes it away from me.
That goes from the very beginning.
I was born the prettiest dark angel
but Suicide became my best friend.
I was kicked out of la-la-land
I started losing sleep.
That's only the first chapter.

Always thought I was meant to be a star
if only I hadn't chosen suicide
I'd have run the world, best of them all
I wouldn't be asking for more.

Look, I've screwed it all up again
I'm trying to breathe but it's too late
it's 3 a.m. and I'm still up.
Sleeping pills and cigarettes.
Look, it's the same walk of shame
looking pretty, feeling lonely
and when there's no obvious way to go,
sleeping pills and cigarretes.

My skin is getting drier,
can't recall when I ate last.
Yeah, I'm a complete mess.
No, I don't intend to break the habit.
All that's left is forlorn hope.
I used to be a dreamer
till Suicide sweet talked to my ears.
We laughed along and watched Netflix
then we got physically involved
and it sucked then I was left alone.

Always thought I was meant to be happy
but that shit wasn't never planned for me.
If only I had noticed it when I was young
I wouldn't have screwed around that much.

Sleeping pills & cigarretes

My heart gets weak so easily,
can't be trusted when it comes to love.
I wish I could rip it out and
stop going backwards, stop going backwards.
And it hurts losing all of my senses,
it breaks at the slightest suggestion.
I wish I'd put it back in place and
stop going batshit, stop going batshit.

It neither breaks
nor fails to beat when it's to explode
and if it cuts me deeper
like a razorblade
I don't know why my heart holds into it.
If only I could
I'd get rid of what I'm holding to
'cause it burns my skin
it's ablaze with pain and anger
and it's reducing my senses to ashes.

Don't know why I spent so many years
learning those rules by heart if they're pointless
for my heart follows its own set of rules
and it's so hard to translate into this language.
Just one word would be enough to tear it apart
to break it and demolish it memories
so I'd erase every trace of what once was there
as if never existed, as phoney as it sounds.

Get rid of what I'm holding to

Honey, don't tell me you don't feel my vibe
it's some kind of freaky vibration,
wet as syrup, hot as Hades.
Bae, you're aware of this obsession
I just wanna toy with some ideas,
raise your pulses till your brain drops
and then twist you inside out.

Teased me, mesmed me
now you say you wanna leave me.

Kiss me, smash me to pieces
be the prince this king makes bow,
compel me to make you the only one.
My energy leaving you breathless,
take a ride and marvel at this nuclear power,
let its force bang you up.

Honey, if you have already turned me on
there's no need to play these games,
no need to offer what you then deny.
Bae, let me keep all your dirty secrets
I haven't misbehaved in a very long time
don't you think I deserve some mercy?

Teased me, mesmed me
now you say you wanna leave me,
are you afraid of not being able to handle this?

Kiss me, smash me to pieces
be the prince this king makes bow,
compel me to make you the only one.
My energy leaving you breathless,
take a ride and marvel at this nuclear power,
let its force bang you up.

When you and I collide
the outcome is unpredictable,
it's a mixture of black and white,
uncontrolled blast of power.

Nuclear power

Smash my mouth down to pieces,
kiss me and tell me I'm the one.
And if you promise you won't tell a soul,
then I'll let you taste it once or twice,
don't you love the smell of wet grass?
It's a secret we both promise to hold back
before any of them grows aware of our sins,
and if no one sees the way our eyes sparkle
then I'll come and stay for a while,
isn't it warm here under the stars?

A simple motion can tell this much,
it's the slightest caress,
it's the meaning of words
that have never needed to be spoken.
Just keep moving over and under
and breath your lust deep into my pores.

A drop of sweat is meaningless on its own
but it carries plenty of memories,
where it starts and where it goes,
if you close your eyes and press your lips
I'll let you sweat throughtout the night.

A simple motion can tell this much,
it's the slightest caress,
it's the meaning of words
that have never needed to be spoken.
wrap your arms around my back,
hold your breath once again
don't release it till the end,
then you'll see how wonderful it feels.
Just keep moving over and under
and breath your lust deep into my pores.

Now morning is about to come,
let me drop my kisses where they hurt,
and if you swear it'll taste like ice cream
then I'll dust some sugar on top,
some magic borrowed from your breath.

Deep breath

Some friends are already gone.
Flames turn to ashes, love decays sooner or later.
You wake up to find everything's dust,
that's the way life's meant to be, everything's ephemeral.

Meeting someone, saying goodbye.
You cannot change it.

Once you've been taught to hurt
you can't stop yourself from inflicting pain.
It's the shield you put upon yourself,
before somebody else hurts you.
Once you've learn to mistrust
you won't let your guard down.
You can't break the circle,
hurting turns out to be addictive.

Your soul runs rampant to and fro,
you only want to put an end to suffering
but it seems as if the only way of doing so
is getting others hurt, someone else must suffer.

I'd give everything I have or will ever have
to feel somehow alive.

Once you've been taught to hurt
you can't stop yourself from inflicting pain.
It's the shield you put upon yourself,
before somebody else hurts you.
Once you've learn to mistrust
you won't let your guard down.
You can't break the circle,
hurting turns out to be addictive.

I know it's sad when someone pities you,
that's why some of us never let our guards down
and many a time we hurt just in case,
we defend ourselves before somebody else...

You've been hurt so many times you can't tell,
inflicting pain seems to be the only way...

Hurt

We're just at the starting point
of something that could be really cool,
so there's no need to name it yet.
When something's done in a rush,
it's doomed to failure 'cause it's a mess
so let's no spoil whatever it is.

You, you'd kiss me in the dark
you'd hold my hand tight
you'd turn my world upside down.

And now I hear our song
see the leaves touching the ground
and I'm back to our perfect fall.
And I smell the shirts I no longer wear
the cigarretes and the perfume
and the cherry bubble gum you'd chew.
Sweet fall memories.

It was a secret everybody knew about
when you kissed me out in the parking lot
then they saw me wearing your shirt.
I was delighted by the sweet taste
of your lips on mine every now and then,
they tasted like a shooting star across heaven.

You, you'd love me like no one did
you'd make me feel like a kid
you'd be the best morning kiss.

And now I hear our song
see the leaves touching the ground
and I'm back to our perfect fall.
And I smell the shirts I no longer wear
the cigarretes and the perfume
and the cherry bubble gum you'd chew.
Sweet fall memories.

In the morning I would wake up
and you'd be playing our song on the couch,
you'd be wearing my underwear
and you would look so pretty.


And now I hear our song
see the leaves touching the ground
and I'm back to our perfect fall.
And I smell the shirts I no longer wear
the cigarretes and the perfume
and the cherry bubble gum you'd chew.
And now I remember the days
when we lived like teenagers
making love and having hearts tattooed.
And now I think of those nights
when you'd wrap your arms around my neck
and say I was much better than your ex.
It's been the bestest...

Cherry bubble gum

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Wrap your blazing fingers around my neck.
Burn my skin and melt my willingness.
Take my fears away and kiss me naked
that I won't even fight against this chaos.

And I'm left scared and defeated.
Like a child sobs himself to sleep.
if I'm this weak, I'll give up.

Don't be afraid, there's no need to worry.
I hear that menacing voice mocking my loss.
And in this hall of mirrors I am in
there's the defeaning silence to let me hear the sorrow.
And if I stare at the mirrors I will see the cracks
and I will hate every line of that reflection.
And I know I'm at rock bottom,
but somehow I don't want it to be over.

At night the darkness presses against my chest,
it takes over my soul, my senses of living
but somehow I embrace this state of decay
as it empties my body, drains the will left to fight.

And I'm left shaken and disturbed.
And I'm weightless as the light and I am
gone as those years when I smiled.

Don't be afraid, there's no need to worry.
I hear that menacing voice mocking my loss.
And in this hall of mirrors I am in
there's the defeaning silence to let me hear the sorrow.
And if I stare at the mirrors I will see the cracks
and I will hate every line of that reflection.
And I know I'm at rock bottom,
but somehow I don't want it to be over.

As I'm walking through this hall of mirrors
I wonder when I'm to get to the end.
This is the most deadly penance of all.

Hall of mirrors

She reminded him of a nightingale
so easily drifted into the wind.
He was the strongest Summer storm
so scared of she used to be.
Childish and reckless,
meant to forget each other
and when they fell in love
they never pictured it'd hurt so deep.
That she was so fragile he couldn't see.

Don't raise a smile, I'll pretend I haven't seen.
This is the saddest ending and we're both hurt.
When she sang she would bring about
a different meaning to all those words
that have never existed and never will.

All the purity she embodied
was destroyed by his lips,
and all the tears her eyes cried
were the light drizzle when he was leaving.
If you see a motion in the sky
make a wish before it fades away
for it isn't the first time
that music stops playing
but this time her melody will.

Don't raise a smile, I'll pretend I haven't seen.
This is the saddest ending and we're both hurt.
When she sang she would bring about
a different meaning to all those words
that have never existed and never will.

If you pretend you don't feel it
it may come to an end, she won't suffer.
If it doesn't touch your nerves, it won't exist.
If you sob in silence, it will be over.

The saddest song ever

God and I never got along
we couldn't even stand each other,
when the devil grants me a wish
God takes it away from me.
That goes from the very beginning.
I was born the prettiest dark angel
but Suicide became my best friend.
I was kicked out of la-la-land
I started losing sleep.
That's only the first chapter.

Always thought I was meant to be a star
if only I hadn't chosen suicide
I'd have run the world, best of them all
I wouldn't be asking for more.

Look, I've screwed it all up again
I'm trying to breathe but it's too late
it's 3 a.m. and I'm still up.
Sleeping pills and cigarettes.
Look, it's the same walk of shame
looking pretty, feeling lonely
and when there's no obvious way to go,
sleeping pills and cigarretes.

My skin is getting drier,
can't recall when I ate last.
Yeah, I'm a complete mess.
No, I don't intend to break the habit.
All that's left is forlorn hope.
I used to be a dreamer
till Suicide sweet talked to my ears.
We laughed along and watched Netflix
then we got physically involved
and it sucked then I was left alone.

Always thought I was meant to be happy
but that shit wasn't never planned for me.
If only I had noticed it when I was young
I wouldn't have screwed around that much.

Sleeping pills & cigarretes

My heart gets weak so easily,
can't be trusted when it comes to love.
I wish I could rip it out and
stop going backwards, stop going backwards.
And it hurts losing all of my senses,
it breaks at the slightest suggestion.
I wish I'd put it back in place and
stop going batshit, stop going batshit.

It neither breaks
nor fails to beat when it's to explode
and if it cuts me deeper
like a razorblade
I don't know why my heart holds into it.
If only I could
I'd get rid of what I'm holding to
'cause it burns my skin
it's ablaze with pain and anger
and it's reducing my senses to ashes.

Don't know why I spent so many years
learning those rules by heart if they're pointless
for my heart follows its own set of rules
and it's so hard to translate into this language.
Just one word would be enough to tear it apart
to break it and demolish it memories
so I'd erase every trace of what once was there
as if never existed, as phoney as it sounds.

Get rid of what I'm holding to

Honey, don't tell me you don't feel my vibe
it's some kind of freaky vibration,
wet as syrup, hot as Hades.
Bae, you're aware of this obsession
I just wanna toy with some ideas,
raise your pulses till your brain drops
and then twist you inside out.

Teased me, mesmed me
now you say you wanna leave me.

Kiss me, smash me to pieces
be the prince this king makes bow,
compel me to make you the only one.
My energy leaving you breathless,
take a ride and marvel at this nuclear power,
let its force bang you up.

Honey, if you have already turned me on
there's no need to play these games,
no need to offer what you then deny.
Bae, let me keep all your dirty secrets
I haven't misbehaved in a very long time
don't you think I deserve some mercy?

Teased me, mesmed me
now you say you wanna leave me,
are you afraid of not being able to handle this?

Kiss me, smash me to pieces
be the prince this king makes bow,
compel me to make you the only one.
My energy leaving you breathless,
take a ride and marvel at this nuclear power,
let its force bang you up.

When you and I collide
the outcome is unpredictable,
it's a mixture of black and white,
uncontrolled blast of power.

Nuclear power

Smash my mouth down to pieces,
kiss me and tell me I'm the one.
And if you promise you won't tell a soul,
then I'll let you taste it once or twice,
don't you love the smell of wet grass?
It's a secret we both promise to hold back
before any of them grows aware of our sins,
and if no one sees the way our eyes sparkle
then I'll come and stay for a while,
isn't it warm here under the stars?

A simple motion can tell this much,
it's the slightest caress,
it's the meaning of words
that have never needed to be spoken.
Just keep moving over and under
and breath your lust deep into my pores.

A drop of sweat is meaningless on its own
but it carries plenty of memories,
where it starts and where it goes,
if you close your eyes and press your lips
I'll let you sweat throughtout the night.

A simple motion can tell this much,
it's the slightest caress,
it's the meaning of words
that have never needed to be spoken.
wrap your arms around my back,
hold your breath once again
don't release it till the end,
then you'll see how wonderful it feels.
Just keep moving over and under
and breath your lust deep into my pores.

Now morning is about to come,
let me drop my kisses where they hurt,
and if you swear it'll taste like ice cream
then I'll dust some sugar on top,
some magic borrowed from your breath.

Deep breath


About Me

Bio

I am an English-Spanish sworn and freelance translator, interpreter, convo teacher, academic researcher and lyricist. Although I have not been granted with a talented voice to sing, I was born with an amazing gift to write lyrics. Ever since I was a little kid I started writing my own songs, poems, short stories... That was my way to connect with my inner world and self, my way to express and to show how unique I was. All of my lyrics are quite personal and they are about my experiences, viewpoints, feelings, but somehow I think they need to be known for many people would connect and share the same feelings and emotions.

CV/History

2019- currently (Freelance translator at Sri Sai Translations)
2019- currently (Freelance writer at Livingston Research)
2018- currently (Freelance writer at Booksie)
2017- 2019 (Convo teacher at Oxford English Institute)
2016- currently (Convo teacher at Rawson English Institute)
2015- currently (Academic researcher at Comahue University)

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