Nobody

I designed my own protective shell
And it doubles as my coffin
It’s dangerous to stay, in, here
I do not come out often

You wanna break the ice
But you know my pond is frozen deep
I’m cautious with my every word
And with the secrets that I keep

You know the more that I reach out
The more alone I feel
I am truly terrified
Of what I might reveal
The truth is in here somewhere
But I am keepin’ it concealed
Emotionally wound me
And I may never, ever heal

I feel you peelin’ off, my, skin
And then I start to feel salted
I struggle with your verbal cues
And so I feel insulted
Romance, and, love
Is all I’ve ever really wanted
But my experience
Leaves me forever haunted

You wanna hold me
And save me from my deep despair
You try to talk, to, me
But I don’t wanna share
You try to love me
You want to show me that you really care
You try to save me
But I’m not really in there

It’s just rejection!
That is my one and only game
Rejection!
I will never ever feel the same
Rejection!
I can never really let you in
Rejection!
The game that hurts each time I win

Your concern, for, me
I just see it as inspection
You desire me
But I’m dishin’ out rejection
You ask for help
But I will not give direction
You wanna talk, it, out
But I am lacking introspection

My sadness, is becoming magnified
Each time I hurt you
My damage is intensified
I cannot open up
I like the safety of my coffin
You’re tryin’ every angle
But you know that I am all in

You wanna hold me
And save me from my deep despair
You try to talk, to, me
But I don’t wanna share
You try to love me
You want to show me that you really care
You try to save me
But I’m not really in there

It’s just rejection!
That is my one and only game
Rejection!
I will never ever feel the same
Rejection!
I can never really let you in
Rejection!
The game that hurts each time I win

And I will, be, like, this
Until the very end

Give me a drink!
I'm thirsty for some normalcy
Not talkin’ bout conformity
I wanna feel the norm in me

Gotta brain without a warranty
My logic is ignorin’ me
My senses not informin’ me
I just want some normalcy

I'm cut off from society
And driven by malignancy
Failure is ingrained in me
I’m never who I want to be

I’m so distracted
(leave me be)
I’m so confused
(got mental bleed)
I’m headed for
(catastrophe)
Not fittin’ in
(society)

I’m mentally incinerated
Socially, I’m suffocated
Sexually, I am castrated
I wonder why I was created?

Life is fxxxin' boring me
It’s broken, no restorin’ me
I’m dead inside
I’m bleeding out
I fxxxed around
And I found out

I’m paralyzed, I’m never free
My thoughts
Are always haunting me
Release me from captivity
Save me from insanity

To my sickness, is fidelity
It’s stories are compelling me
My misery, it speaks to me
Normalcy's ignorin' me

I'm a puppet
I'm performing me
I'll never feel that normalcy
I'm cast away
I am alone
I'm just a zombie
Made of stone
Don't mourn me
I was never known
I am a pile
Of desert bones

[Verse]
Are you drunk?
Are you bored?
Wanna even up the score?
I see you’ve got a taste for this
Go get a little more

[Verse 2]
Are you taking all your pills?
Are you feeling kinda ill?
What’s your favorite kinda thrill?
Do you wanna maim and kill?

[Verse 3]
Are you good at gettin’ off?
Is there cancer in that cough?
These thoughts they will not stop
Is your brain about to pop?

[Verse 4]
Why don’t you just escape?
Are you worried it’s too late?
Are you real or just a fake?
You asleep or you awake?

[Verse 5]
Do you wanna slice your wrist?
Do you wanna not exist?
Can you tolerate the pain?
And go dancin’ in the rain

[Verse 6]
Got a violent fantasy?
The one where you are stabbin’ me
Wish that you could push rewind?
And leave your sorry life behind

[Verse 7]
Do you keep on hearing sounds?
And you're just about to drown
Can you turn this thing around?
Or do you wanna burn it down?

[Verse 8]
Are you there but yet unseen?
Are you King or you a Queen?
Did you lose the master key?
Is this your final plea?

[Verse 9]
Do you hide?
Do you stare?
Is it really dark in there?
I can't get through to you
You are never ever there

[Verse 10]
There’s no need to be evolved
No more riddles left to solve
Are you in that astral plane?
Have you finally gone insane?

[Verse 11]
Did I intrude upon your life?
Did this cut you like a knife?
Are you dead now, or alive?
I’ll give you till the count of
5…
4…
3…

[Verse 12]
Wake Up!...
Take back your thoughts
Are you watchin’ while you rot?
Have you figured out the plot?
Are you hopin’ you'll get caught?

[Verse 13]
Are you leaning on your Christ?
Are you taking bad advice?
Do you succeed or do you fail?
Does your illness tip the scale?

[Verse 14]
Start dancin’ naked to this song
This is your music, you belong
You figured out the secret code
And your story has been told

[Verse]
Hey, pardon me
Could I interest you in some misery?
It’s been lingering in my closet
You can take it now, it’s free

[Verse 2]
Would you like for me to throw in
All my sadness and some doubt
I never had a use for them
Perhaps you try them out

[Verse 3]
My loneliness is somewhere
Up there in my dusty attic
If you haul it all away today
I’ll toss in some bonus panic

[Chorus]
It is a liquidation sale
Emotion hunting holy grail
You can clean out all my coffers
Just make me a fair offer
If it’s bad it’s got to go
In with the new
out with the old
I’ll bag it up right now
Cause I won’t be seein’ you around

[Instrumental]

[Verse 4]
Come on now madam
Check out all these low, low prices
I’ve got paranoia
Bitterness
Bad habits and some vices

[Verse 5]
Now here’s a real steal
Some genuine self loathing
Could you haul away this grief and rage
I Hope I’m not imposing

[Verse 6]
This right here is vintage
And I’ve stored it for many years
A massive stash of jealousy
And a crippling sense of fear

[Chorus]
It is a liquidation sale
Emotion hunting holy grail
You can clean out all my coffers
Just make me a fair offer
If it’s bad it’s got to go
In with the new
out with the old
I’ll bag it up right now
I won’t be seeing you around

[Bridge]
Thank you all for coming out
To my liquidation sale
My mental house is clean now
I can finally set sail

[Verse]
I am winning, now I’m losing
I’m in the lead for last place
I am the Queen of my own world
And now I have just been erased

[Verse 2]
My life you know
It’s not exactly what I had planned
But even that’s a lie you see
For I never had a plan

[Verse 3]
These constant highs and lows
Leave me exhausted and exposed
I am my fortune teller
What was revealed
Already known

[Chorus]
It is a mental Tug o’ war
Both a thriller and a bore
Sometimes I cry
I hide away
But in the end
I will rise up
And I will fight this Tug o’ war

[Instrumental]

[Verse 4]
As I struggle for acceptance
And try to mentally evolve
I plunge the knife deep into my back
Bleeding weakens my resolve

[Verse 5]
And at times I start to think
You know, I finally got ahead
But here I come to take me for
That walk behind the shed

[Verse 6]
I know you have supported me
In all the ways you think you can
But I love to cheat at cards, you see
When dealing my own hand

[Chorus]
It is a mental Tug o’ war
Both a thriller and a bore
Sometimes I cry
I hide away
But in the end
I will rise up
And I will fight this Tug o’ war

[Bridge]
I believe that I have learned
All of the lessons
I know the score
And that is why
It won’t be long
Before I sabotage
Myself once more

[Chorus]
It is a mental Tug o’ war
Both a thriller and a bore
Sometimes I cry
I hide away
But in the end
I will rise up
And I will fight this Tug o’ war

[Verse]
You’re all consumer guinea pigs
Slave to all the latest things
Manufacturing reality
Vacating personality

[Verse 2]
A talking head, a shameless shill
Sell your soul, it pays the bills
Hawking all these useless wears
And smiling like your unaware

[Verse 3]
Take our survey, spill your guts
Give us data we can crunch
We’ll drain you of what we desire
Until the day that you expire

[Pre-chorus]
Taste it
Try it
Like it
Buy it
Wear it
Share it
You must compare it…
Brag about it in your post
Be the least who owns the most

[Chorus]
Consume!
Consume!
Consume!
Consume!
Humanity has left the room
Spread our logo feces
Cause we control what you see…
You will do as we see fit
And you will keep on buyin’ shit…
A sea of post consumer waste
Is conquering the human race

[Verse 4]
We’ll digitally track you
And we’ll visually attack you
You’re target demographic
For all our molded plastic

[Verse 5]
Obsessive social media
Your dignity is leavin’ ya
You’ll sell your soul before you're through
And we will sell it back to you

[Verse 6]
Manipulating influencers
Scrolling till it’s all a blur
Which talking head do you prefer
Pimpin’ products will endure

[Pre-chorus]
Taste it
Try it
Like it
Buy it
Wear it
Share it
You must compare it…
Brag about it in your post
Be the least who owns the most

[Chorus]
Consume!
Consume!
Consume!
Consume!
Humanity has left the room
Spread our logo feces
Cause we control what you see…
A sea of post consumer waste
Is conquering the human race
You will do as we see fit
And you will keep on buyin’ shit

[Bridge]
Soon the robots take your place
You were the master, now the slave
Eradicate the human race
You are about to be replaced

[Bridge]
Soon the robots take your place
You were the master, now the slave
Eradicate the human race
You are about to be replaced

[Verse]
You’re laughin’ at my darkest joke
Cause it cannot be the truth
It’s confessionary humor
And I’m tryin’ to breakthrough

[Verse 2]
It’s unlikely you’ll befriend me
I’m sarcastic and bizarre
And I will not place my trust in you
No matter who you are

[Verse 3]
The truth is what I say it is
My deceptions hit the mark
You see a ray of light in me
While I’m standing in the dark

[Verse 4]
Your intentions are all suspect
In my twisted storyline
I question what is factual
And perceive you as unkind

[Verse 5]
I appear to have a broken
Cranial synapse
But my brain’s just overloaded
And I have mentally collapsed

[Pre-chorus]
This agonizing boredom
Has left me critically impaired
I’ve forgotten what I once was
And how I used to care…
My mental coma lingers on
And I keep hiding out in there, in there
Fighting off reality
With my hypnotic glare…
You’re desperate for details
But I have nothing to declare
It’s time for me to power down
And undergo repairs

[Chorus]
I stare…and stare, and stare
Leave me to my private darkness
You are not invited there
My life has reached a turning point
And it’s more than I can bare
I must retreat to nothingness
And surrender to the stare

[Verse 7]
I’ve created my own paywall
But still desire to be free
From dissociation
And my burning effigy

[Verse 8]
You’re in some real danger
If you interact with me
I can lash out like an animal
With nowhere left to flee

[Verse 9]
I’ve given up on myself
But not on all of you
I want you to be free of me
But I still depend on you

[Pre-chorus]
My cause forever marked as lost
My wires are forever crossed
I’m crippled and I’m feelin’ shame
And I’m the one that you all blame…
My static demons rule the day
I simply want to float away
Please let me end this, and be spared…
Don’t look now, here comes the stare

[Chorus]
I stare…and stare, and stare
Leave me to my private darkness
You are not invited there
My life has reached a turning point
And it’s more than I can bare
I must retreat to nothingness
And surrender to…the stare
the stare, the stare