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Mirror

(Verse 1)

I used to dream about you
Before I knew your name
You felt like something holy
I was too afraid to claim

I saw you in the distance
Like a light behind the rain
Every time I came closer
You would vanish once again

I kept a place beside me
For someone I had never known
A hand I wanted reaching
For the parts I couldn’t show

And maybe that’s the cruelest part
Of everything I never knew
I spent my life imagining
What it would feel like to be you

(Pre-Chorus)

When I remember how you used to be
You're what i have always dreamed,
Feels like I've never been you
Do i ever see you? Do i know who you are?
Or how do we look now?

(Chorus)

You want to be my mirror
You want me
You want to be my mirror
You want me

(Verse 2)

I gave my best to strangers
Hoping they would see your face
I let them hold my body
While my heart stayed out of place

I thought love meant being chosen
So I learned to disappear
I became easier to love
But never felt more near

I wore a thousand versions
Of the woman they could keep
While the one I couldn’t stand to be
Was waiting underneath

And every time somebody left me
I blamed the empty sky
Never asking why I couldn’t
Let the real me shine

(Pre-Chorus)

Talk and tell you so much, Beautiful soul
Oh you're gonna listen to me, please
All the dark's too big, can't get out of my games
Oh tell me you want me like this, please

(Chorus)

You want to be my mirror
You want all of me
You want to be my mirror
You want all of me

(Bridge)

Tonight I saw you clearly
No dream, no distant light

You were standing in the mirror
And I almost said goodbye

Then something broke inside me
Something softer than regret

I realized I’ve missed you
Every day I’ve hated myself

(Final Chorus)

You want to be my mirror
You want all of me
You want to be my mirror
You want all of me

(Outro)

I spent my whole life
waiting for you to love me.

I never knew
you were waiting too.

You were me.

Mirror

( Verse 1)

You didn’t come into my life like lightning,
Didn’t tear the sky in two.
You moved closer slow and careful,
Like you were afraid to bruise.

I was sleeping with one eye open,
Breathing like the world might leave,
Holding all my weight alone
Like I didn’t need to breathe.

But you stayed when it was awkward,
Stayed when I went quiet too long,
Stayed when my past came knocking
Like it still belonged.

And something in me softened,
Something in me gave
Not because you tried to save me,
But because you chose to stay.

(Pre-Chorus)

I don’t need a perfect promise,
Don’t need fireworks in the sky.
I just need your voice beside me
When I’m fighting my own mind.

Say you will stay for me…


(Chorus)

Stay for me
When the silence starts to scream,
When I’m barely holding pieces
Of who I used to be.

Stay for me
When the night won’t let me sleep,
Be the pulse inside my chaos,
Be the calm inside the deep.

Promise me forever
Just don’t walk away from me.


(Verse 2)

I used to pour my heart in glasses,
Shot glass tears down the sink,
Thought love was just a bright illusion
Gone before you blink.

But you feel different in my bloodstream,
Not a rush but something slow,
Like warmth that spreads beneath the skin
And doesn’t let me go.

You trace my flaws like they’re poetry,
Like they’re lines you want to read,
Not something you tolerate
But something you believe.

And when my thoughts get darker,
When I start pulling away,
You don’t chase me with drama 

You just quietly stay.

(Pre-Chorus)

You don’t have to fix my broken,
You don’t have to heal my past.
Just don’t disappear when loving me
Stops being easy, stops being fast.

Say you will stay for me…


(Chorus)

Stay for me
When the silence starts to scream,
When I’m barely holding pieces
Of who I used to be.

Stay for me
When the night won’t let me sleep,
Be the pulse inside my chaos,
Be the calm inside the deep.

Promise me forever
Just don’t walk away from me.


(Bridge )

Hold me like the morning light
Holds the edge of night,
Not forcing it to disappear
Just making it feel right.

Say it soft, say it slowly,
Say it like you mean it deeply —
If love is choosing every day,
Then choose me completely.


(Final Chorus)

Stay for me
When my confidence runs thin,
When old fears start whispering
That I’m too much to let in.

Stay for me
When I don’t feel strong enough,
When loving me feels heavier
Than just calling it love.

Promise me forever
Just don’t walk away from me.

Stay For Me


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Mirror

(Verse 1)

I used to dream about you
Before I knew your name
You felt like something holy
I was too afraid to claim

I saw you in the distance
Like a light behind the rain
Every time I came closer
You would vanish once again

I kept a place beside me
For someone I had never known
A hand I wanted reaching
For the parts I couldn’t show

And maybe that’s the cruelest part
Of everything I never knew
I spent my life imagining
What it would feel like to be you

(Pre-Chorus)

When I remember how you used to be
You're what i have always dreamed,
Feels like I've never been you
Do i ever see you? Do i know who you are?
Or how do we look now?

(Chorus)

You want to be my mirror
You want me
You want to be my mirror
You want me

(Verse 2)

I gave my best to strangers
Hoping they would see your face
I let them hold my body
While my heart stayed out of place

I thought love meant being chosen
So I learned to disappear
I became easier to love
But never felt more near

I wore a thousand versions
Of the woman they could keep
While the one I couldn’t stand to be
Was waiting underneath

And every time somebody left me
I blamed the empty sky
Never asking why I couldn’t
Let the real me shine

(Pre-Chorus)

Talk and tell you so much, Beautiful soul
Oh you're gonna listen to me, please
All the dark's too big, can't get out of my games
Oh tell me you want me like this, please

(Chorus)

You want to be my mirror
You want all of me
You want to be my mirror
You want all of me

(Bridge)

Tonight I saw you clearly
No dream, no distant light

You were standing in the mirror
And I almost said goodbye

Then something broke inside me
Something softer than regret

I realized I’ve missed you
Every day I’ve hated myself

(Final Chorus)

You want to be my mirror
You want all of me
You want to be my mirror
You want all of me

(Outro)

I spent my whole life
waiting for you to love me.

I never knew
you were waiting too.

You were me.

Mirror

( Verse 1)

You didn’t come into my life like lightning,
Didn’t tear the sky in two.
You moved closer slow and careful,
Like you were afraid to bruise.

I was sleeping with one eye open,
Breathing like the world might leave,
Holding all my weight alone
Like I didn’t need to breathe.

But you stayed when it was awkward,
Stayed when I went quiet too long,
Stayed when my past came knocking
Like it still belonged.

And something in me softened,
Something in me gave
Not because you tried to save me,
But because you chose to stay.

(Pre-Chorus)

I don’t need a perfect promise,
Don’t need fireworks in the sky.
I just need your voice beside me
When I’m fighting my own mind.

Say you will stay for me…


(Chorus)

Stay for me
When the silence starts to scream,
When I’m barely holding pieces
Of who I used to be.

Stay for me
When the night won’t let me sleep,
Be the pulse inside my chaos,
Be the calm inside the deep.

Promise me forever
Just don’t walk away from me.


(Verse 2)

I used to pour my heart in glasses,
Shot glass tears down the sink,
Thought love was just a bright illusion
Gone before you blink.

But you feel different in my bloodstream,
Not a rush but something slow,
Like warmth that spreads beneath the skin
And doesn’t let me go.

You trace my flaws like they’re poetry,
Like they’re lines you want to read,
Not something you tolerate
But something you believe.

And when my thoughts get darker,
When I start pulling away,
You don’t chase me with drama 

You just quietly stay.

(Pre-Chorus)

You don’t have to fix my broken,
You don’t have to heal my past.
Just don’t disappear when loving me
Stops being easy, stops being fast.

Say you will stay for me…


(Chorus)

Stay for me
When the silence starts to scream,
When I’m barely holding pieces
Of who I used to be.

Stay for me
When the night won’t let me sleep,
Be the pulse inside my chaos,
Be the calm inside the deep.

Promise me forever
Just don’t walk away from me.


(Bridge )

Hold me like the morning light
Holds the edge of night,
Not forcing it to disappear
Just making it feel right.

Say it soft, say it slowly,
Say it like you mean it deeply —
If love is choosing every day,
Then choose me completely.


(Final Chorus)

Stay for me
When my confidence runs thin,
When old fears start whispering
That I’m too much to let in.

Stay for me
When I don’t feel strong enough,
When loving me feels heavier
Than just calling it love.

Promise me forever
Just don’t walk away from me.

Stay For Me

(Verse 1)

I built my heart in quiet pieces,

Brick by brick, no windows wide.

Learned to lock it, learned to guard it,

Learned to let the soft parts hide.


I used to love like it was reckless,

Now I love like it’s a war.

Keep my feelings on a leash

With my back against the door.


They call me cold, I call it careful.

Call it balance, call it art.

I don’t give what I can’t survive

If you decide to tear it apart.


(Pre-Chorus)


You look at me like I don’t tremble,

Like I don’t bruise beneath your touch.

But I just learned to hold my breath

When I start feeling too much.


(Chorus)

Maybe I look heartless

When I don’t say what I feel.

But silence is the only way

I know what’s safe and what is real.


Maybe I look heartless

When I don’t fall at your feet.

But I’ve learned desire can taste like heaven

And still leave you incomplete.


(Verse 2)


You move closer, slow and patient,

Like you’re studying my skin.

Like you’re trying to read the story

Of the places I’ve been.

Your fingers trace the quiet tension

That I pretend is gone.

You kiss me like you understand

I’ve been alone too long.

Under your hands I almost soften,

Almost let the armor slip.

But vulnerability is a language

That still trembles on my lips.

You say I’m distant when I’m thinking,

Say I’m colder than I seem.

But you don’t know how loud it gets

Inside of me when I let you in.


(Pre-Chorus)


I don’t run because I’m careless.

I don’t freeze because I’m numb.

I just learned that when you love too deep

You forget how to come back from it.


(Chorus)


Maybe I look heartless

When I don’t reach for your hand.

But I’m scared of how your touch

Feels like something I can’t command.


Maybe I look heartless

When I don’t say “don’t go.”

But the truth is I want you closer

More than I let you know.


(Bridge)

If you ever saw me unguarded,

No steel, no steady tone

You’d see I’m not heartless.

I just learned to survive alone.


I don’t need dramatic devotion,

I don’t need a loud display.

I just need someone who stays close

When I start pulling away.


(Final Chorus)

Maybe I look heartless…

But my pulse still moves for you.

And the coldest parts of me

Melt when you come through.

Maybe I look heartless

But that’s just what I show.

If you stay long enough beside me,

You’ll feel what I don’t let go.

Skin & Steel

(Verse 1)

Let me tell you something I don’t usually say,
I didn’t wake up one morning craving this way.
It didn’t start loud, didn’t start with a plan,
Just a weight in my chest I couldn’t outrun.
People think ambition screams, shines, makes noise,
But mine whispered late nights, restless and void.
Lying awake wondering why my days felt small
When my mind kept climbing invisible walls.
I tried to fit in, I swear I tried hard,
Tried to want their dreams, tried playing my part.
But every time I settled, something cracked inside,
Like I was slowly killing the me I hadn’t met in my life.

(Pre-Chorus)

And maybe it sounds wild when I frame it this way,
But you don’t imagine futures just to throw them away.
Dreams don’t knock softly on doors meant to stay closed,
They come where something deeper already grows.

(Chorus)

So if I speak of places I’ve never been,
It’s not ego — it’s instinct kicking in.
If I reach for more than what I hold now,
It’s ‘cause standing still feels like breaking down.
I’m not chasing freedom for power or fame,
I’m chasing air, trying to breathe in my own name.
No one else should get to define
What fulfillment means inside my mind .

(Verse 2)

I’ve been told “be realistic” more times than I can say,
Like realism wasn’t fear dressed up as faith.
Like surviving was winning, like comfort was gold,
Like growing too far meant losing control.
But no one warns you how heavy it gets
Ignoring the voice that says you’re built for more than that.
No one tells you playing safe has a cost,
That slowly fading hurts worse than being lost.
I lost sleep to these thoughts, lost time to doubt,
Lost people who couldn’t recognize my route.
Lost versions of me I had to shed
Just to stay honest with the life in my head.

And yeah, I questioned myself more than once,
Felt fear in my bones, felt stuck in the mud.
But doubt never said “stop, turn around,”
It just kept asking, “How deep you going now?”

(Pre-Chorus)

‘Cause you don’t carry a vision this long in your chest
If it’s not meant to become something real, something next.
You don’t feel this pull, this weight, this flame
If you weren’t built to answer your own name.

(Chorus)

So if I speak of places I’ve never been,
It’s not ego — it’s instinct kicking in.
If I refuse a life that feels too tight,
It’s ‘cause I know what it’s costing me inside.
I don’t want permission, I don’t want praise,
I don’t want claps for the risks I take.
I just want the right to stand and say
“This life is mine — I’ll build it my way.”

(Bridge)

I’m not saying it’s easy, I’m not selling dreams,
I know the fall hurts worse than it seems.
But I’d rather fall chasing something true
Than stay comfortable hating what I didn’t do.
And if this scares me late at night,
That’s how I know I’m aiming right.

(Final Chorus)

Because if the idea was born in me,
Then the strength lives there quietly.
Dreams don’t visit people randomly —
They choose the ones who’ll carry them patiently.
So this is me choosing myself out loud,
Not above anyone else — just proud.
My freedom isn’t rebellion or fight,
It’s alignment... finally living right.

(Outro)

I’m not trying to be more than anyone else.
I’m just done being less than myself.

Unsaid

(Verse 1)

I grew up feeling like a warning sign wearing human skin,
Like every room I walked into already knew I wouldn’t fit in.
People look at me like I’m a problem they don’t want to solve,
like I’m a story written wrong — too broken to evolve.
Shadows whisper sins I never meant to keep,
And somehow they echo louder every time I try to sleep.
They say mistakes don’t shape you, but mine molded every part.
Now even love feels dangerous when it starts.
My parents used my heart as something they could criticize,
Told me I’d never be enough — I learned to shrink to survive.
And if the ones who made me couldn’t love me from the start,
Who else could ever choose someone with a fracture for a heart?
Around good people I feel guilty just for breathing in,
like they pretend I'm welcome while they talk behind a grin.
I say I don’t care — but the truth hits hard and fast,
Every word they throw at me turns present into past.

(Pre-Chorus)

And when I finally feel safe, all I think about is fear,
Trust breaks first — it disappears.
Being left behind feels softer than pretending to belong,
Abandonment became my lullaby, twisted into song.

(Chorus)

I feel trapped in a cage made of things I can’t undo,
Broken wings that never fly, but still want to.
If I’m the wrong kind of angel they refuse to see,
Tell me… is there space in this world for someone like me?

(Verse 2)

I stayed too long in cold rooms where kindness couldn’t grow,
Where violence moved like weather and affection felt like snow.
Now freedom feels like fear, like something that won’t last,
‘Cause every time I try to heal, my mind replays the past.
I learned pain like a language no one taught me to speak,
I learned sadness like a muscle that grows stronger every week.
Do I feel anything else? I honestly don’t know —
Except when he’s around, when the world softens slow.
But the fears in my lungs don’t want to let me breathe.
They say “he’ll leave first — you better learn how to leave.”
How do I turn this hurt into something I can keep?
How do I build a future when my past runs too deep?
Thoughts crash like waves dragging me underneath,
stealing every breath before I even get to breathe.
I see a future full of stars, but I’m stuck in a black hole,
trying to save the light inside me before the darkness takes control.


(Pre-Chorus)

I keep reaching out with hands that shake,
Trying to rebuild the parts they tried to break.
I want to be the version of me they’ve never seen —
But my history fights back like it's stuck in between.

(Chorus)

I feel trapped in a cage made of things I can’t undo,
Broken wings that never fly, but still want to.
If I’m the wrong kind of angel they refuse to see,
Tell me… is there space in this world for someone like me?

(Bridge)

If I’m too different to be loved, then tell me why I still crave touch,
Why someone “so wrong” can still feel this much.
Maybe the darkness in me isn’t evil — just misunderstood,
Maybe I’m not broken… just badly carved from childhood.

(Verse 3)

I’m trying to make peace with the echo inside my chest,
with the parts of me that fear love, and the parts that love best.
Some days I feel human, some days I feel erased,
like I’m a poem unfinished, missing lines they misplaced.
But somewhere in the silence, something small survives —
A tired hope whispering through the cracks of my life.
And maybe — just maybe — I’m not the villain in this tale,
Maybe I’m a damaged angel learning how not to fail.

(Chorus Final)

I feel trapped in a cage made of things I can’t undo,
Broken wings that never fly, but still want to.
If I’m the wrong kind of angel they refuse to see,
Tell me… is there space in this world for someone like me?


(Outro)

I’m bruised,
I’m strange,
I’m heavier than most hearts can hold —
But maybe the wrong kind of angel
Still deserves a place to unfold.

Wrong kind of Angel

“Echo of Silence” is a soulful R&B song written by Alija — an emotional journey...
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Echo of Silence

(Verse 1)

She wakes up to the same sound every morning — the crying of her child,
A life built from routine, a world where dreams go to hide.
Coffee burns, dishes pile, she stares out through the blinds,
Wondering if her life slipped away, or if she just stopped trying.
She used to paint skies on her ceiling, now it’s cracks she counts,
Used to believe in love, now she just doubts.
Her reflection looks older than her years would allow,
Another night with no one asking “How are you now?”

Bills on the table, past on replay,
He left with a note, and not much to say.
Her mother stopped calling, her friends moved away,
She’s the ghost of herself in yesterday’s grey.
Toys on the floor, tears she hides in the sound,
She whispers “I’m okay” when no one’s around.
Keeps telling herself this is just a phase,
But the mirror never lies — it just decays.

(Pre-Chorus)

Still she sings her son to sleep,
Still she smiles when her voice starts to break.
Still she dreams of what she’ll never reach,
Still she hopes — ‘cause what else can she fake?

(Chorus)

Trapped inside these walls,
Where the echoes never die at all.
Every day bleeds into the same gray view,
She’s fighting ghosts that the light can’t get through.
They say time heals, but what if it lies?
What if the pain just learns to disguise?
She whispers hope into the empty air,
But no one answers, no one’s there.

(Verse 2)

She once wrote stories in notebooks under her bed,
Now it’s grocery lists and words left unsaid.
She wanted to build empires, she ended up small,
Cleaning up dreams from the hallway wall.
The world moves fast, she’s stuck in pause,
No medals for the tears, no applause.
But still she laughs for her child’s sake,
Still she cooks, still she prays, still she breaks.
Midnight comes — she scrolls her phone,
Everyone living, she dies alone.
Every post feels like another scar,
Everyone shining, she’s where they aren’t.
But she hides her pain behind cheap perfume,

Pretends the silence doesn’t fill the room.
Her worth feels like a fading sound,
In a life that never turned around.

(Chorus)

Trapped inside these walls,
Where the echoes never die at all.
Every day bleeds into the same gray view,
She’s fighting ghosts that the light can’t get through.
They say time heals, but what if it lies?
What if the pain just learns to disguise?
She whispers hope into the empty air,
But no one answers, no one’s there.

(Verse 3 —)

She met someone once — kind eyes, quiet tone,
But every smile felt like stepping on unknown stone.
She’s afraid of love, afraid of the fall,
Afraid that history’s waiting behind each wall.
She builds her boundaries with trembling hands,
Every gesture feels like sinking sand.
How can you trust when you’ve drowned before?
When forever sounds like a closing door?

He says he understands, but she doesn’t believe,
Because promises sound like ghosts that deceive.
She wants to feel, but fear won’t let go,
So she stays halfway between yes and no.
She whispers “maybe someday” into her scars,
But someday feels galaxies apart.

(Bridge)

But deep inside, a fire still burns,
A quiet voice that whispers, “It’s your turn.”
To rise from the dust, to start again,
To rebuild from the cracks, not the pain.
Maybe one day her son will see,
That strength was her silent legacy.
That love didn’t die — it just changed its face,
And she wore it like armor, full of grace.

(Chorus —)

Trapped inside these walls,
Where the echoes never die at all.
Every day bleeds into the same gray view,
She’s fighting ghosts that the light can’t get through.
They say time heals, but what if it lies?
What if the pain just learns to disguise?
She whispers hope into the empty air,
But no one answers, no one’s there.

(Outro — Spoken)

She smiles in the dark,
Not because it’s better,
But because she finally learned —
Even alone, she matters.

House of Echoes

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Mirror

(Verse 1)

I used to dream about you
Before I knew your name
You felt like something holy
I was too afraid to claim

I saw you in the distance
Like a light behind the rain
Every time I came closer
You would vanish once again

I kept a place beside me
For someone I had never known
A hand I wanted reaching
For the parts I couldn’t show

And maybe that’s the cruelest part
Of everything I never knew
I spent my life imagining
What it would feel like to be you

(Pre-Chorus)

When I remember how you used to be
You're what i have always dreamed,
Feels like I've never been you
Do i ever see you? Do i know who you are?
Or how do we look now?

(Chorus)

You want to be my mirror
You want me
You want to be my mirror
You want me

(Verse 2)

I gave my best to strangers
Hoping they would see your face
I let them hold my body
While my heart stayed out of place

I thought love meant being chosen
So I learned to disappear
I became easier to love
But never felt more near

I wore a thousand versions
Of the woman they could keep
While the one I couldn’t stand to be
Was waiting underneath

And every time somebody left me
I blamed the empty sky
Never asking why I couldn’t
Let the real me shine

(Pre-Chorus)

Talk and tell you so much, Beautiful soul
Oh you're gonna listen to me, please
All the dark's too big, can't get out of my games
Oh tell me you want me like this, please

(Chorus)

You want to be my mirror
You want all of me
You want to be my mirror
You want all of me

(Bridge)

Tonight I saw you clearly
No dream, no distant light

You were standing in the mirror
And I almost said goodbye

Then something broke inside me
Something softer than regret

I realized I’ve missed you
Every day I’ve hated myself

(Final Chorus)

You want to be my mirror
You want all of me
You want to be my mirror
You want all of me

(Outro)

I spent my whole life
waiting for you to love me.

I never knew
you were waiting too.

You were me.

Mirror

( Verse 1)

You didn’t come into my life like lightning,
Didn’t tear the sky in two.
You moved closer slow and careful,
Like you were afraid to bruise.

I was sleeping with one eye open,
Breathing like the world might leave,
Holding all my weight alone
Like I didn’t need to breathe.

But you stayed when it was awkward,
Stayed when I went quiet too long,
Stayed when my past came knocking
Like it still belonged.

And something in me softened,
Something in me gave
Not because you tried to save me,
But because you chose to stay.

(Pre-Chorus)

I don’t need a perfect promise,
Don’t need fireworks in the sky.
I just need your voice beside me
When I’m fighting my own mind.

Say you will stay for me…


(Chorus)

Stay for me
When the silence starts to scream,
When I’m barely holding pieces
Of who I used to be.

Stay for me
When the night won’t let me sleep,
Be the pulse inside my chaos,
Be the calm inside the deep.

Promise me forever
Just don’t walk away from me.


(Verse 2)

I used to pour my heart in glasses,
Shot glass tears down the sink,
Thought love was just a bright illusion
Gone before you blink.

But you feel different in my bloodstream,
Not a rush but something slow,
Like warmth that spreads beneath the skin
And doesn’t let me go.

You trace my flaws like they’re poetry,
Like they’re lines you want to read,
Not something you tolerate
But something you believe.

And when my thoughts get darker,
When I start pulling away,
You don’t chase me with drama 

You just quietly stay.

(Pre-Chorus)

You don’t have to fix my broken,
You don’t have to heal my past.
Just don’t disappear when loving me
Stops being easy, stops being fast.

Say you will stay for me…


(Chorus)

Stay for me
When the silence starts to scream,
When I’m barely holding pieces
Of who I used to be.

Stay for me
When the night won’t let me sleep,
Be the pulse inside my chaos,
Be the calm inside the deep.

Promise me forever
Just don’t walk away from me.


(Bridge )

Hold me like the morning light
Holds the edge of night,
Not forcing it to disappear
Just making it feel right.

Say it soft, say it slowly,
Say it like you mean it deeply —
If love is choosing every day,
Then choose me completely.


(Final Chorus)

Stay for me
When my confidence runs thin,
When old fears start whispering
That I’m too much to let in.

Stay for me
When I don’t feel strong enough,
When loving me feels heavier
Than just calling it love.

Promise me forever
Just don’t walk away from me.

Stay For Me

(Verse 1)

I built my heart in quiet pieces,

Brick by brick, no windows wide.

Learned to lock it, learned to guard it,

Learned to let the soft parts hide.


I used to love like it was reckless,

Now I love like it’s a war.

Keep my feelings on a leash

With my back against the door.


They call me cold, I call it careful.

Call it balance, call it art.

I don’t give what I can’t survive

If you decide to tear it apart.


(Pre-Chorus)


You look at me like I don’t tremble,

Like I don’t bruise beneath your touch.

But I just learned to hold my breath

When I start feeling too much.


(Chorus)

Maybe I look heartless

When I don’t say what I feel.

But silence is the only way

I know what’s safe and what is real.


Maybe I look heartless

When I don’t fall at your feet.

But I’ve learned desire can taste like heaven

And still leave you incomplete.


(Verse 2)


You move closer, slow and patient,

Like you’re studying my skin.

Like you’re trying to read the story

Of the places I’ve been.

Your fingers trace the quiet tension

That I pretend is gone.

You kiss me like you understand

I’ve been alone too long.

Under your hands I almost soften,

Almost let the armor slip.

But vulnerability is a language

That still trembles on my lips.

You say I’m distant when I’m thinking,

Say I’m colder than I seem.

But you don’t know how loud it gets

Inside of me when I let you in.


(Pre-Chorus)


I don’t run because I’m careless.

I don’t freeze because I’m numb.

I just learned that when you love too deep

You forget how to come back from it.


(Chorus)


Maybe I look heartless

When I don’t reach for your hand.

But I’m scared of how your touch

Feels like something I can’t command.


Maybe I look heartless

When I don’t say “don’t go.”

But the truth is I want you closer

More than I let you know.


(Bridge)

If you ever saw me unguarded,

No steel, no steady tone

You’d see I’m not heartless.

I just learned to survive alone.


I don’t need dramatic devotion,

I don’t need a loud display.

I just need someone who stays close

When I start pulling away.


(Final Chorus)

Maybe I look heartless…

But my pulse still moves for you.

And the coldest parts of me

Melt when you come through.

Maybe I look heartless

But that’s just what I show.

If you stay long enough beside me,

You’ll feel what I don’t let go.

Skin & Steel

(Verse 1)

Let me tell you something I don’t usually say,
I didn’t wake up one morning craving this way.
It didn’t start loud, didn’t start with a plan,
Just a weight in my chest I couldn’t outrun.
People think ambition screams, shines, makes noise,
But mine whispered late nights, restless and void.
Lying awake wondering why my days felt small
When my mind kept climbing invisible walls.
I tried to fit in, I swear I tried hard,
Tried to want their dreams, tried playing my part.
But every time I settled, something cracked inside,
Like I was slowly killing the me I hadn’t met in my life.

(Pre-Chorus)

And maybe it sounds wild when I frame it this way,
But you don’t imagine futures just to throw them away.
Dreams don’t knock softly on doors meant to stay closed,
They come where something deeper already grows.

(Chorus)

So if I speak of places I’ve never been,
It’s not ego — it’s instinct kicking in.
If I reach for more than what I hold now,
It’s ‘cause standing still feels like breaking down.
I’m not chasing freedom for power or fame,
I’m chasing air, trying to breathe in my own name.
No one else should get to define
What fulfillment means inside my mind .

(Verse 2)

I’ve been told “be realistic” more times than I can say,
Like realism wasn’t fear dressed up as faith.
Like surviving was winning, like comfort was gold,
Like growing too far meant losing control.
But no one warns you how heavy it gets
Ignoring the voice that says you’re built for more than that.
No one tells you playing safe has a cost,
That slowly fading hurts worse than being lost.
I lost sleep to these thoughts, lost time to doubt,
Lost people who couldn’t recognize my route.
Lost versions of me I had to shed
Just to stay honest with the life in my head.

And yeah, I questioned myself more than once,
Felt fear in my bones, felt stuck in the mud.
But doubt never said “stop, turn around,”
It just kept asking, “How deep you going now?”

(Pre-Chorus)

‘Cause you don’t carry a vision this long in your chest
If it’s not meant to become something real, something next.
You don’t feel this pull, this weight, this flame
If you weren’t built to answer your own name.

(Chorus)

So if I speak of places I’ve never been,
It’s not ego — it’s instinct kicking in.
If I refuse a life that feels too tight,
It’s ‘cause I know what it’s costing me inside.
I don’t want permission, I don’t want praise,
I don’t want claps for the risks I take.
I just want the right to stand and say
“This life is mine — I’ll build it my way.”

(Bridge)

I’m not saying it’s easy, I’m not selling dreams,
I know the fall hurts worse than it seems.
But I’d rather fall chasing something true
Than stay comfortable hating what I didn’t do.
And if this scares me late at night,
That’s how I know I’m aiming right.

(Final Chorus)

Because if the idea was born in me,
Then the strength lives there quietly.
Dreams don’t visit people randomly —
They choose the ones who’ll carry them patiently.
So this is me choosing myself out loud,
Not above anyone else — just proud.
My freedom isn’t rebellion or fight,
It’s alignment... finally living right.

(Outro)

I’m not trying to be more than anyone else.
I’m just done being less than myself.

Unsaid

(Verse 1)

I grew up feeling like a warning sign wearing human skin,
Like every room I walked into already knew I wouldn’t fit in.
People look at me like I’m a problem they don’t want to solve,
like I’m a story written wrong — too broken to evolve.
Shadows whisper sins I never meant to keep,
And somehow they echo louder every time I try to sleep.
They say mistakes don’t shape you, but mine molded every part.
Now even love feels dangerous when it starts.
My parents used my heart as something they could criticize,
Told me I’d never be enough — I learned to shrink to survive.
And if the ones who made me couldn’t love me from the start,
Who else could ever choose someone with a fracture for a heart?
Around good people I feel guilty just for breathing in,
like they pretend I'm welcome while they talk behind a grin.
I say I don’t care — but the truth hits hard and fast,
Every word they throw at me turns present into past.

(Pre-Chorus)

And when I finally feel safe, all I think about is fear,
Trust breaks first — it disappears.
Being left behind feels softer than pretending to belong,
Abandonment became my lullaby, twisted into song.

(Chorus)

I feel trapped in a cage made of things I can’t undo,
Broken wings that never fly, but still want to.
If I’m the wrong kind of angel they refuse to see,
Tell me… is there space in this world for someone like me?

(Verse 2)

I stayed too long in cold rooms where kindness couldn’t grow,
Where violence moved like weather and affection felt like snow.
Now freedom feels like fear, like something that won’t last,
‘Cause every time I try to heal, my mind replays the past.
I learned pain like a language no one taught me to speak,
I learned sadness like a muscle that grows stronger every week.
Do I feel anything else? I honestly don’t know —
Except when he’s around, when the world softens slow.
But the fears in my lungs don’t want to let me breathe.
They say “he’ll leave first — you better learn how to leave.”
How do I turn this hurt into something I can keep?
How do I build a future when my past runs too deep?
Thoughts crash like waves dragging me underneath,
stealing every breath before I even get to breathe.
I see a future full of stars, but I’m stuck in a black hole,
trying to save the light inside me before the darkness takes control.


(Pre-Chorus)

I keep reaching out with hands that shake,
Trying to rebuild the parts they tried to break.
I want to be the version of me they’ve never seen —
But my history fights back like it's stuck in between.

(Chorus)

I feel trapped in a cage made of things I can’t undo,
Broken wings that never fly, but still want to.
If I’m the wrong kind of angel they refuse to see,
Tell me… is there space in this world for someone like me?

(Bridge)

If I’m too different to be loved, then tell me why I still crave touch,
Why someone “so wrong” can still feel this much.
Maybe the darkness in me isn’t evil — just misunderstood,
Maybe I’m not broken… just badly carved from childhood.

(Verse 3)

I’m trying to make peace with the echo inside my chest,
with the parts of me that fear love, and the parts that love best.
Some days I feel human, some days I feel erased,
like I’m a poem unfinished, missing lines they misplaced.
But somewhere in the silence, something small survives —
A tired hope whispering through the cracks of my life.
And maybe — just maybe — I’m not the villain in this tale,
Maybe I’m a damaged angel learning how not to fail.

(Chorus Final)

I feel trapped in a cage made of things I can’t undo,
Broken wings that never fly, but still want to.
If I’m the wrong kind of angel they refuse to see,
Tell me… is there space in this world for someone like me?


(Outro)

I’m bruised,
I’m strange,
I’m heavier than most hearts can hold —
But maybe the wrong kind of angel
Still deserves a place to unfold.

Wrong kind of Angel


About Me

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Alija is a professional songwriter and lyricist, working across composition and song development for independent artists.

With a background rooted in writing and emotional storytelling, she focuses on crafting lyrics with depth, structure, and intention. Her work prioritizes clarity of emotion, strong narrative direction, and coherence between words and sound.

Alongside her songwriting activity, Alija is the Founder, CEO & Lead Songwriter of UNSAID RECORDS, an independent music label dedicated to composition, songwriting, and long-term artistic development.

Through both her personal work and UNSAID RECORDS, she collaborates with artists and producers seeking meaningful projects built on trust, creative independence, and professional standards.

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Alija is a professional songwriter and lyricist specializing in composition and song development for independent artists. She has written over 300 original lyrics in two years and has collaborated with multiple artists across various projects, providing lyrics, toplines, and creative direction.

Her work is focused on emotional depth, clear narrative structure, and intentional songwriting, primarily in English. One of her written songs is currently released on major streaming platforms, performed by an independent artist.

Alongside her songwriting activity, Alija is the Founder, CEO & Lead Songwriter of UNSAID RECORDS, an independent music label dedicated to composition, songwriting, and long-term artistic development.

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