John Fortine

Still Holdin' On For The Heart
John Fortine

[Verse 1]
You said your schedule was a wildfire
Burnin' up your every day
Answered texts between appointments
Tryna squeeze me in the breaks
I kept comin' over nightly
Wouldn't let you breathe alone
You were askin' for a moment
I was there cause you’re my home.

[Pre-Chorus]
You kept sayin' you were tired
But you smiled and let me stay
I mistook your need for quiet
For a chance to talk all day

[Chorus]
I'm still holdin on for the heart
That's still holdin onto mine
Even with this space between us
Even after all this time
You still love me, I can feel it
I still love you, that's no lie
I'm still holdin on for the heart
That's still holdin onto mine

[Verse 2]
You said, "Baby, I got no time
For the life you tried to plan
I keep losin' all my hours
Tryin' to fit inside your hands"
I was showin' up on Mondays
Fridays, Sundays, every night
You were beggin' for a weekend
Just to sit alone in quiet.

[Pre-Chorus]
If I could rewind that summer
I would listen when you'd say
"I ain't leavin' 'cause I want to
I just need my own damn space"

[Chorus]
I'm still holdin on for the heart
That's still holdin onto mine
Even with this space between us
Even after all this time
You still love me, I can feel it
I still love you, that's no lie
I'm still holdin on for the heart
That's still holdin onto mine

[Bridge]
Maybe love ain't always leanin' in
Maybe it's a porch with room
You were runnin' outta daylight
Under all my afternoons
If you ever find a free day
And my name still cross your mind
I'll be here but I won't crowd you
You can take your sweet, slow time

[Final Chorus]
I'm still holdin on for the heart
That's still holdin onto mine
With a little space between us
Maybe we can get it right
You still love me, I can feel it
I still love you, that's no lie
I'm still holdin on for the heart
That's still holdin onto mine

[Outro]
I'm still holdin on for the heart
That's still holdin onto mine

[Verse 1]
Your phone lit up beside the kitchen sink
You said it was nothing, wouldn't let me think
But I saw the names you forgot to hide
Three missed calls from the man on the side
There were texts in the thread from a Tuesday night
Little inside jokes that you swore weren't right
And a note in your room with his name on the fold
While you held my hand like I wouldn't know

[Pre-Chorus]
I kept asking, Is there something I should hear?
You kept saying, Baby, why you acting weird?
I had every answer, still I stayed near
Hoping the truth would make you change gears

[Chorus]
I knew you were lying, I stayed anyway
Asked you the same thing every single day
Showed you the proof, you looked me in the face
Said I was the reason you gave your love away
Calls, texts, messages, notes in your name
A whole other man living inside your game
I kept hoping you'd come back honest to me
You ended it and blamed what you did on me

[Verse 2]
I found your Facebook under a fake name
Messages filled up like a windowpane
You though they were hid, but the screen still showed
Enough of the words for my heart to know
I asked for the truth, not a perfect excuse
You cried in the doorway, said I gave you no room
But I made room for every promise you broke
You made me the villain so you wouldn't choke

[Pre-Chorus]
I kept asking, Is there something I should hear?
You kept saying, Baby, why you acting weird?
I had every answer, still I stayed near
Hoping the truth would make you change gears

[Chorus]
I knew you were lying, I stayed anyway
Asked you the same thing every single day
Showed you the proof, you looked me in the face
Said I was the reason you gave your love away
Calls, texts, messages, notes in your name
A whole other man living inside your game
I kept hoping you'd come back honest to me
You ended it and blamed what you did on me

[Bridge]
I wasn't hard to love, you were hard to believe
I wasn't holding you back, you were splitting the seams
Every question I asked was a door left unlocked
You could've told me the truth, but you chose what you got
Now you call it my fault that you wanted him close
Like the lies in your mouth were the ones I wrote
I stayed for the woman you promised you'd be
But she never showed up, and that finally set me free

[Final Chorus]
I knew you were lying, I stayed anyway
Asked you the same thing, hoping you'd change
Had all of the proof, still I called you my home
While you gave another man what you owed me alone
Calls, texts, messages, notes in your name
You ended our love, then you handed me blame
I kept hoping you'd come back honest to me
But the truth is, you left long before you left me