Dad this is for you, a look back on the times that we've been through.
Tears stream from my eyes when I think of you, especially when thinking of the things we won't do.
I try to live my life each day for you, I just need your strength and guidance, I adore you.

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You were always there for me, even when I just wanted money.
You were the strength and the protector for our family. With you in my life I didn't have a single worry.
You taught me life skills and you accepted me, although I have my faults and floors, you loved me unconditionally.

When you left us both we were so hurt, we couldn't eat or sleep. Now the only time we meet is in my dreams.
I know right now you will be looking down from up there upon us. I hope I'm doing you proud, but I dont think I am if I am honest.
The way you were taken from us was so cruel and so mean, even though we had time, a year, we saw it coming.

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I dont want to be scared or afraid to say it, the monster's name that took you away, I hope no other family has to relate to it.
For you dad I will stand tall and proclaim it, I fxxxing hate cancer and what it did to you.
You buried your father too because of it, the monster that separated you back then, joined you two together. I wish we saw the warning signs, I wish we were clever with it.

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It's not fair what happened to you, its not justified. I could have spent more hours with you, if I would have just tried.
In the hospice I felt so sick when I saw you die, so weak and frail even the thought makes me cry.
I dont really do emotions and you know that side, but after the letter you left, please know I've tried.

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I will keep this candle burning for you.
I'm my mind you will always be, may your love always surround me.

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It's okay to feel lost,
It's okay to feel tired.
Standing on your own two feet,
You should be fxxxing proud.
Life isn't meant to be easy,
Everything I've gone through, it's made me.

It's hard, I don't know where to begin,
I wake up alone, its not a great feeling.
This house isn't a home and I'm just here, existing and not living.
Why do I need to rely on others to make me happy?
Walking in my shoes is sole destroying.
I wish I could turn this gravel into clouds, or am I too controlling?

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We all go to work to get paid, my work gives me a break, a chance to escape.
I've got responsibilities now, I am a City leader, they don't know I've contemplated not being here.
I choose to stand up and continue to work hard, I give thanks to my father for that part. Although world's apart he will remain in my heart.

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My friends stand by me, although from a distance, I can count my real friends on one hand, but I still feel a resistance.
You've got to learn who's true and who's fake, I use the test of time to see who will break.
This isn't about them now, again it's all about me.
Trust yourself and love yourself, its the true way to be happy.

I'm lost and tired, I don't know how to be me. These lyrics, these words are my therapy

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This part of my life has been hard,
Fake but happy time together was the start,
Now we've spent more than a year apart,
Seeing you happy is making and breaking my heart,
But this is just the start.

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Where do I go now I can't be alone,
I'm the king of my castle,
But I'm alone on my throne,
2 steps back and 1 step forward,
I dont know what I want from you,
I know I'm just bored.

When we first met I knew what I needed to say,
I wanted a girlfriend, I had read the game.
You were brought up by a quality family, I knew you wanted a man,
I was in the top 3%, I had a manual, a plan.
Thats how it started, you were a puppet in my hand,
With this knowledge and power a relationship was sure to land.

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When I was dating you, you made my life easy,
There were no games on your part, I wish I could say the same about me.
I was building attraction for you and it was all to benefit me.
I found taking love from you made me feel great, I was being greedy.
Maybe I was wrong and I was really playing me, why didn't I take our potential seriously?

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When we broke up my smile only lasted a few hours, the pain in experiencing now could rock the strongest of towers.
The following months and years, I took my body on a journey.
Going to the gym and starving myself to show progression. Telling you I'm doing great when I'm not, this song is my confession.

Looking to my future without you puts me into depression, you have been my greatest lesson. I can't live or be alone, will I leave you alone or put you through another session?