MUSIC FOR SALE

Why I Don’t Write, Why I Don’t Call

[Verse 1]
You only call me
when someone is dying.
Or already gone.
Not when a child is born.
Not when you celebrate.
Not when joy fills the house and
laughter could have filled my heart, too.
You only call me
when the lights go out
and you need someone
to sit in the dark with.

[Verse 2]
The last time I saw your face
or your number come up
was to tell me about a funeral.
The time before that—
another death.
Weddings pass me by
like postcards sent to the wrong address.
No one ever wonders
why I don’t RSVP.
I was never invited to begin with.
They just assume I’m too far away
to care, or I wouldn’t come.

[Bridge]
If I am not good enough
to be part of your happiness,
then why should I sit
with you in your sorrow?

[CHORUS]
This is why I don’t write.
This is why I don’t call.
Because I am more than
You let me be.
I am more than
Just a name you remember
when someone is dead or dying.
You didn’t want me in the sunlight,
now you won’t have me in the dark.

[Verse 3]
You’re the reason I know
what bitterness tastes like.
You don’t think of me.
I’m not remembered.
This is me ending your indecision.
This is the silence that comes
when a door gets shut permanently.
I’ve been ignored enough.
I’m angry, but
I finally realized
you only knock when there’s grief
and I only answer out of habit.

[Verse 4]
I built a life outside your walls.
Found faces who know my name
without a coffin in the room.
People who reach for me
when the light is still on.
They are my family now.
Not a duty. Not a list.
But a home
where my voice is welcome
not just an afterthought.

[Bridge]
If I am not good enough
to be part of your happiness,
then why should I sit
with you in your sorrow?

[CHORUS]
This is why I don’t write.
This is why I don’t call.
Because I am more than
You let me be.
I am more than
Just a name you remember
when someone is dead or dying.
You didn’t want me in the sunlight,
now you won’t have me in the dark.

[OUTRO]
I don’t write
because my words aren’t wanted.
I don’t call
because you never answered
when you were happy.
I learned to make a family elsewhere
and leave the darkness for you.
Forget my name.
Forget that I was ever part of something.
That never welcomed me
I am gone by choice and happier now
Without you.