All Heart
By AllHeart
I always had my Father in my life, but my Mom I never knew,
her gentle touch, it must have meant so much,
since our days together were so few...
So very young that day, when they parted ways, as people sometimes do,
Yet I felt a pain inside me, and along with me it grew...
There was hope he could replace her, but hope can be a dangerous thing,
I was called a name, I'd never be the same,
lacked the shelter of her "wing"...
They should've understood my innocence, in my ears their harsh words ring,
I often wonder if they knew, the damage it would bring...
Never knowing why, why they made me cry,
I know I was just feelin' scared,
Life already rough, now not good enough, the sudden change I'm not prepared,
Didn't recognize, so long ago, some thing got torn apart,
The quiver of my pain
and the damage was all heart...
We moved around, so many towns, unfamiliar streets were all I'd see,
So young to hold, such a heavy load, the burden became familiar to me,
I'd overhear the unkind words, wish my senses weren't that keen,
The past and present left, little hope in future unforeseen...
Tried to let go, of the past, and cast my fears aside,
I thought we had a future, you'd be my comfort and my bride,
Wish I didn't see so clearly, I can't forget the day you lied,
Gave my best to you, thought you were all heart too, felt that pain again inside...
Forgivin' easily, amidst all the pain you see, I never seemed to know the way,
And I'm so unsure, when I look at her, and the reminder of that day,
I had my doubts, I'm certain, and I told her from the start,
She knew everything about me,
She knew I was all heart...
The time's gone by, I try to learn, from mistakes that weren't my own,
Have ones that care, know I'm always there, taking care of seeds I've sewn,
Never leave 'em cryin' in the night, never feelin' all alone,
Give them everything I never had, never hurt them, as they've grown,
Finally found the one, I thought would miss her son, share my hopes and fears,
My picture perfect memory, held onto so tightly, throughout the years,
I never thought that you, didn't want me too, you left me standing in my tears,
And as you walked away forever, that pain inside me reappears...
Don't put the blame on me, the truth is plain to see, on this I won't abide,
Some things will never do, never done the same to you, the feelin' won't subside,
Been learnin' lessons slowly, almost from the very start,
Guess it was meant to be, you and others, unlike me,
You would never be all heart...
Can't believe I wasted precious time on you, not knowing what you'd do, it tears me up inside,
Holding out with hopes for you, and the others too, until the day I died,
I wouldn't know the damage done, since my Mom and I did part,
'till she bled the final drops,
from the hole that used to be all heart.
