Fallen Father
By Raymond Livingston
Never thought I'd see the day,
When I'd be gone and couldn't stay.
Never crossed my mind one time,
That love and laughter would fade away.
Didn't mean to leave no way back home,
Didn't mean to leave you all alone.
Now I got these fallen father blues,
Heart full of love I can't use.
Every mile I walked away from you,
Was a wound I couldn't choose.
If I could trade my soul today,
You'd never feel one ounce of pain.
Days rolled on into weeks,
Then months took all I seek.
Years slipped through my trembling hands,
Like water running through the sand.
So many nights I cried your name,
Tried to hide my shame in vain.
Now I got these fallen father blues,
Heart full of love I can't use.
Every tear I've shed for you,
Is the only thing that's true.
Thought I'd find a road back to you,
But every turn just led me through
Broken dreams and empty skies,
Haunted by your mother's eyes.
You're no mistake, child, you're my grace,
The only good thing I ever made.
See your face when I close my eyes,
Hear your laugh in the midnight cries.
I pray you find your joy again,
And forgive me for my sin.
I failed you, baby girl, I know it's true,
But my love will never fade from you.
When my body's gone and my soul's at rest,
You'll still be beating in my chest.
You're the best part left of me,
That's how I live eternally.
I'm a fallen father, through and through,
But my heart beats blues for you.
