Vexed
By Goddess yoj
PERPLEXED AND VEXED
Verse 1
Betrayed by the ones I called my own,
Family and friends, but I cried alone.
They hide the sin behind a smile,
While I carried the pain for mile after mile.
Things were stolen, things were taken,
Promises broken, trust was shaken.
I gave my heart, I gave my best,
But somehow love became a test.
Pre-Chorus
Jealous embraces turned into distance,
Warm hellos became cold resistance.
I feel the resentment deep in my soul,
Trying to forgive, trying to let go.
Chorus
I’m perplexed and vexed, Lord, what do I do?
I’m asking for forgiveness for what I’ve been through.
My heart is broken, my commitment is thin,
I’m fighting the battle that’s raging within.
I don’t want hatred living inside of me,
I don’t want their darkness to become what I see.
So I lay down my anger, I lay down my pain—
God, wash my heart clean like the falling rain.
Verse 2
They took what they wanted and left me confused,
Made me question the love that I thought I could trust.
Some wounds never bleed where the world can see,
But they leave their fingerprints all over me.
Now I keep my distance, I guard my door,
Because I don't know who I'm safe with anymore.
I forgive with my lips, but my heart still cries,
Trying to understand all the hidden lies.
Pre-Chorus
Jealous embraces turned into avoidance,
Silence became louder than all of their voices.
I search my spirit for somewhere to rest,
But every unanswered question beats inside my chest.
Chorus
I’m perplexed and vexed, Lord, what do I do?
I’m asking for forgiveness for what I’ve been through.
My heart is broken, my commitment is thin,
I’m fighting the battle that’s raging within.
I don’t want hatred living inside of me,
I don’t want their darkness to become what I see.
So I lay down my anger, I lay down my pain—
God, wash my heart clean like the falling rain.
Bridge
Maybe forgiveness doesn't mean I forget,
Maybe healing means I don't carry the debt.
I can love from a distance,
I can walk away,
Without letting bitterness steal another day.
God, you know the truth they never confessed,
You know every wound buried deep in my chest.
If I cannot understand why they did what they did,
Give me peace with the questions I carry within.
Final Chorus
I’m perplexed and vexed, but I'm still holding on,
Even through the darkness, I'm waiting for dawn.
My heart may be broken, but it still knows Your name,
And I refuse to let betrayal make me the same.
Forgive me, Lord, for the anger I hide,
For the tears I swallowed and the pain inside.
Take this resentment, take all that remains—
And give me a new heart,
A heart free from chains.
Outro
Betrayed, but I'm healing.
Broken, but I pray.
Perplexed and vexed…
But I won't let bitterness have the final say.
What they took from me
You can restore.
What they broke in me
You can make whole once more.
