LYRIC FOR SALE

By Gabi

Today is not an easy day
I try to feel,
But nothing seems to reach me anyway.
When I feel, I feel nothing
Nothing but despair.

Why is it in my loneliness
That I finally feel I belong?
Why is it in my loneliness
My heart forgets what it’s like to feel joy?

Because this is not what I’m choosing anymore.
This is a road I don’t want to walk anymore.
Because this is a cycle that repeats
And continues on and on and on.

Like the ocean waves,
I’m the one breaking against the rocks
My mind not walking with my heart,
Pulled to each side, tearing me apart.

Why is it so hard to let go
If I feel joy when I’m alone?
Why is it so hard not to hold on
To the life we planned?

Because this is not what I’m choosing anymore.
This is a road I don’t want to walk anymore.
Because this is a cycle that repeats
And continues on and on and on.

We built a dream
Believed it for a while.
Now everything shifts,
And I don’t understand why.

You say, “Don’t give up—try again.”
But how long before trying becomes too much?
We only get one life,
Even if we’re meant to walk it apart.

Because this is not what I’m choosing anymore.
This is a road I don’t want to walk anymore.
Because this is a cycle that repeats
And continues on and on and on.

Because this is not what I’m choosing anymore.
This is a road I don’t want to walk anymore.
Because this is a cycle that repeats
And continues on and on and on.

And this is not what I’m choosing anymore.
This is a pattern that needs to end.
And I’m stepping out
Because I don’t want to lose myself in your sea.