Lyrical Love

If I fall, can it at least be in place
That’s what everyone promises time will take

Us, it’s a matter of finding,
& leave it all behind
What’s meant to be found
& what was never meant to be mine

There’s no refuge while free falling
Watch out for the damage, I’m really landing
Power to the ones who allowed it
Descending,
Into a happy ending
Im just hoping
It’ll all fall into place

Lighter than air, I can’t breathe it
Collecting dust, I’m going down all the seasons
But if it’s promising, I’ll believe it
If time does the healing I ain’t leaving

Perception is reality if it’s deceiving
These people will only have my back for a reason
I’ll trust the process & just go with it
I’ll blur the lines & reap all the benefits

There’s no refuge while free falling
Watch out for the damage, I’m really landing
Power to the ones who allowed it
Descending,
Into a happy ending
Im just hoping
It’ll all fall into place

When I piece it back together, it never sticks
I’ll focus on myself & let go of it
Natural selection is pretty selective
But I see it favors the optimists
I’ll do what I can to expedite it
Even if I do it all over & fall again

There’s no refuge while free falling
Watch out for the damage, I’m really landing
Power to the ones who allowed it
Descending,
Into a happy ending
Im just hoping
It’ll all fall into place

I still remember the times we had
The fun, the wild, the restless
Bouncing off walls, flying where the wind blows
For days, I’d be reminiscing

In retrospect,
With dreams to catch
I wish none of it would end

With full intent,
I keep coming back
To more days we’ve yet to have

& a painful reminder dealt its blow
That I can’t recall days that never happened
The stars fell in alignment
The ghosts are running wild &,
I just stand still in silence

Pondering the ways our days could be
If there were more of us as preteens
I pleaded with life to spare me the longing
& if we could have just one more run
It told me once is more than enough


We put the fun in fun
Burdens were weightless
We had no distress
Grass was never greener & life was beautifully dressed

In hindsight,
I never turned a blind eye
To life & what it could’ve thrown at us
Partook in sharing glimpses of invaluable memorabilia

We kept each company,
We didn’t need handheld screens
We’re so lucky we fathomed the true meanings
Of life & what it all could be

& a painful reminder steals the show
The good old days could’ve come & go
But when stars fell in alignment,
The freaks started running rampant
I just stand still in silence wondering
When did it all come to this?

Pondering the ways our days could be
If there were more of us as preteens
I pleaded with life to spare me the longing
& if we could have just one more run
It told me once is more than enough

Age is just a number
But it gets older
& life can span a long time
There’s no point in pressing rewind
On memories that stay intact
Of a live that doesn’t last
At a pace that moves so fast
& leaves what’s behind in the past

Pondering the ways our days could be
If there were more of us as preteens
I pleaded with life to spare me the longing
& if we could have just one more run
It told me once is more than enough

Love, was it enough
It kept us closer I guess we never knew
Truth, we had a truce
We held on to it til’ the love withdrew

Crashing waves, I was surfing
Till it weighed down on us like a burden
A scream so loud, muffled but we heard it
Like a cry for help we deserted
Now if we heard it again, would we listen or say we’re threw

Estranged, we were never the same after that
I kept quiet, you kept it relaxed
How long can we keep it going? Will it ever-last?
You belonged with me
Now I understand the past-tense vividly


Raining clouds, we were drowning
Til’ it reaped this harvest, we were blossoming
A downpour so wild, it cleared the drought
After that, sunshine never held back light it shone out
And if we felt it again, would we pursue it or say we’re threw?

Bridges burned, wrong turns turned, pivoted left & right with no availed returns
Voiceless whispers blared in the silence, like a siren so sound it was deafening
Love screeched as it realized its demise
Would’ve been saved if it didn’t settle with us & we realized
The crying signs for help,
The rest that all gave up,
Rights we did unjust,
The memories leaving us

Crowds on stands, the show is over &,
No one stayed for the encore unrequested
Stage fright took over, I was shivering
There was no one left, the seats were glimmering
Now if we saw it again, would we act like we hadn’t knew
Or say we’re threw?

You tried to play me like your favorite game
The one you beat on repeat
& put the leaderboard to shame

You can shoot me down, but I’ll get back up
Not cause’ I don’t give up
It’s cause’ I can’t get enough

Time is flying, can you catch it?
Can you grab it before it descends into madness
Isn’t this your world Alice?
It’s the marvelous wonderland you created

So let’s play,
Let’s go head to head
Let’s wreak havoc trying to clean up this mess
It’s immaculate, you wanna venture a guess?
I see you ran out of lies to fittingly dress
The excuses are running thin
You left your prime, rust is evident
& you’re losing, I don’t mind it
You’re blindsided cause’ I’m shining

You can be passive, but you won’t pass this test
You can’t try your worst & hope for the best

Let’s face it, I’m not up for debate
Not locked up needing to free sealed fate

Time is flying, can you catch it?
Can you grab it before it descends into madness
Isn’t this your world Alice?
It’s the marvelous wonderland you created

So let’s dance,
Let’s go head to head
Let’s wreak havoc trying to clean up this mess
It’s immaculate, you wanna venture a guess?
I see you ran out of lies to fittingly dress
The excuses are running thin
You left your prime, rust is evident
& you’re losing, I don’t mind it
You’re blindsided cause’ I’m shining

You can try to break me
I’m not as fragile as your CDs
Try to salvage a fragment,
Anything from all the damage
Your controller is outdated,
Couldn’t hold on to any graces
But one thing I see very clearly
You never fail to amuse me
Time after time I’m still finding
All your attempts to be embarrassing

Last chance,
Let’s go head to head
Let’s wreak havoc trying to clean up this mess
It’s immaculate, you wanna venture a guess?
I see you ran out of lies to fittingly dress
The excuses are running thin
You left your prime, rust is evident
& you’re losing, I don’t mind it
You’re blindsided cause’ I’m shining

Lump in my throat
Hurts letting go
Saying goodbye is always the worst
I’m holding back tears just so that they don’t show

I’m leaving you now
With some self-doubt
Trying to tell myself just to relax
But that’s harder to say when I feel like no one’s got my back

& even though I’ll be so lonely
I convince myself that’s it’s normal
It’s just a phase then I’ll be soarin’
When this is all over

That’s why I never ever wanted to look in your eyes
& tell you with both of mine that one word goodbye
I always always told you that I’ll be alright
But I’m lying
I’m not fine
& I won’t sigh
But before I turn around
I’ll say goodbye for now

The city’s aglow
Lights up the distance
Between it & home
They say that’s where the heart is
So why’s mine gonna be different?

I’ll miss all my friends
I’ll recap events
But nothing holds a candle to your presence
In all of the past, present & future tense

& even though I’ll be so lonely
I convince myself that’s it’s normal
It’s just a phase then I’ll be soarin’
When this is all over

That’s why I never ever wanted to look in your eyes
& tell you with both of mine that one word goodbye
I always always told you that I’ll be alright
But I’m lying
I’m not fine
& I won’t sigh
But before I turn around
I’ll say goodbye for now

I’m looking for reasons to stay
Just say so
I’ll get cold feet & blame it on the summer
They’ll never know
Cuz’ this yearning is piercing
It’s not here to reason
It understands emptiness devoid of any meaning

That’s why I never ever wanted to look in your eyes
& tell you with both of mine that one word goodbye
I always always told you that I’ll be alright
But I’m lying
I’m not fine
& I won’t sigh
But before I turn around
I’ll say goodbye for now

I can see it now, there’s no smoke left in the air
We’re divided in the same pair
Was it unfair if it wasn’t uneven?
Circle with four sides yet I didn’t reason

The late night contemplations
Misbehaving in amazement
You made the same rules that you caved in
Still reality if you’re dreaming


I’ll take credit for fires I never started
Got a spotless record but you can call me an arsonist
Cuz’ my slate can still be wiped clean
Now that you’re no longer into me
I have no need to pledge allegiance to your dynasty
In case that didn’t click I’ll put in simper terms
Bye bye baby
Hope you crossed the path of no return


Set boundaries set in stone
Set me up for the perfect joke
And there was no crowd, I was all alone
Sold no tickets but had a killer show

And I didn’t go through hell for the hell of it
Didn’t kill time in the thrill of independence
I was still pretty hung up on the idea of you
Back when I still thought there was hope for us two

The reluctance in promises
The backhanded dominance
Sweet bliss that still exists in fragments
Fire can melt it down, but it can’t burn it

I’ll take credit for fires I never started
Got a spotless record but you can call me an arsonist
Cuz’ my slate can still be wiped clean
Now that you’re no longer into me
I have no need to pledge allegiance to your dynasty
In case that didn’t click I’ll put in simper terms
Bye bye baby
Hope you crossed the path of no return

Bridges burn, places blur, sadness rose from ashes and dissipated into thinner words
Lessons learned, letters curve, words return unspoken like they’ve never been heard

I’ll take credit for fires I never started
Got a spotless record but you can call me an arsonist
Cuz’ my slate can still be wiped clean
Now that you’re no longer into me
I have no need to pledge allegiance to your dynasty
In case that didn’t click I’ll put in simper terms
Bye bye baby
Hope you crossed the path of no return

I missed the colors
The vibrant ones you emitted
& I’ll admit it
I took part in dimming them

I guess I was used to black & white
Used to plain old senseless fights
Either right or wrong no in between
That’s the difference between you & me

You’re open-ended
& were open to ending it
I was forced to pick a side
Had to choose either you or I
But the main thing I learned
With time that passed & displayed
You’re subject to change
In the best of ways
I wish I could say the same

I’d be doing myself a disservice if I claimed I earned it
You were the better half
The one that was meant to last
With others probably
That’s what everyone’s thinking

& in hindsight I respect it
The truth & that you meant it
No lies defying grace
In vain attempts to save face
But time has shown again at its own pace

You’re open-ended
& were open to ending it
I was forced to pick a side
Had to choose either you or I
But the main thing I learned
With passing time that passed & displayed
You’re subject to change
In the best of ways
I wish I could say the same

If this isn’t poetic justice, then what is?
Admitting you were perfect
& if the path to you was earnest
I guess somewhere down the line I was on the right track then turned it
Cuz’

You’re open-ended
& were open to ending it
I was forced to pick a side
Had to choose either you or I
But the main thing I learned
With time that passed & displayed
You’re subject to change
In the best of ways
I wish I could say the same

Your intricate lies weaved into my unheeded advice
Opened up presents early but still acted surprised
Your delicate comprise lifted me up til’ there was no wiggle room
You guilt-tripped me into not saying we we’re threw

It’s all fun & games til’ somebody’s losing
It’s all battle wounds til’ somebody’s bruising

Blinded by daggers disguised as domestic dandelions
Poisoned roots against me so I’d face their thorns like lions
Kept me in your proximity, creatively drew the line
Where’d I’d be at your mercy, I’d be yours but you won’t be mine
Where’d I’d be at your mercy, I’d be yours but you won’t be mine

I couldn’t say my piece and push came to shove, to the alley, to the long runs, to the desolate sidewalks we strolled
Sidelines and fine lines were yours to straddle carefully
Left me blurry eye’d, not surprised you did it care-freely

It’s all laughs & jokes til’ somebody’s crying
It’s all said & done til’ somebody’s trying

Blinded by daggers disguised as domestic dandelions
Poisoned roots against me so I’d face their thorns like lions
Kept me in your proximity, creatively drew the line
Where’d I’d be at your mercy, I’d be yours but you won’t be mine
Where’d I’d be at your mercy, I’d be yours but you won’t be mine

Seasons changed but I remained the same
Honey, would you please reciprocate?
I decked the halls with the life we made
Darling, could you please restore my faith
With the fireplace burned to ashes
With the unsafe matches sanctioned
With the rules you bent elastic
With the love now totally wasted


They’re just crazy days til’ somebody’s fighting
It’s all part of life til’ somebody’s dying

Blinded by the daggers disguised as domestic dandelions
Poisoned roots against me so I’d face their thorns like lions
Kept me in your proximity, creatively drew the line
Where’d I’d be at your mercy, I’d be yours but you won’t be mine
Where’d I’d be at your mercy, I’d be yours but you won’t be mine