Investing in my self,self employed
There's a better life when you ain't on self destruct
Gotta change our relationship status,GOD can't keep being the last resort
We getting to a better place and our problems are still unresolved

Verse 1:
I had to get on the rooftop like Cole to see clearly
Heaven's view still greater than rooftop's reach, it's clear to me
Even for the role models,I don't do everything that they're doing
Even for the favourite rappers,I don't listen to everything that they're saying
Don't put both thumbs up when I hear a blasphemy
They ain't no "play dumb" or "just pretend" in me
Step on no toes,but stick to decisions I've chosen
Sinner don't judge,but a sinner knows that road is not the right one
Even if it's your idol handing out the directions
Kids I'm gonna say some truth,but filter the lies
Trying to not write a bar that'll make me go "I'm sorry GOD" in advance

Verse 2:
You might hear a few stories,but I ain't shoot no one
I talk about JESUS,but I don't pose as the chosen one
You know I'll always tell you how it is
I got struggles but I can't relate to bullets please
Claiming that I can would be a disrespect to the guys who always have to carry it
I know there's more ways to die than Bullets ,so I don't disrespect the ELOHIM
Don't make songs off blasphemy
Nah, can't make songs off blasphemy
Noooo,Can't make songs off blasphemy

Chorus:
I ain't a gangster, ain't a pastor
I'm just a little bit intellectual
And I can't intentionally feed you lies
I offend the ONE who gives us life
I ain't a gangster, ain't a pastor
I'm just a little bit intellectual
And I can't intentionally feed you lies
I offend the ONE who gives us life

Verse 1:
Maybe not just perfect timing,cause I think you're perfect for me
Can't help it,my ears perk up when you around
And when you say those nice words,I know you're trolling,but I can't help but smile
I'm too young for soul ties,I just wanted to call you mine
Buy you ain't feeling me that way and yeah,that's fine
I'm tryna move on,I been begging these feelings"please go away,please go hide"


Chorus:
I'm about to get on this plane
And we've established that you don't feel the same
So a goodbye kiss would be inappropriate
And I can't leave you a note cause we didn't even date
Guess it's another goodbye
We'd be in different states
I hope I stop loving you when I'm 2000 miles away
A goodbye kiss would be inappropriate
And I can't leave you a note cause we didn't even date
Guess it's another goodbye,we started making memories way too late

Verse 2:
stopped being pessimistic,maybe too optimistic,thought that you'd fall in love with me
Eventually,got hooked on too many love songs,so I tried to force the melodies
And the more I push for you,the more you pull away from me
So I gotta withdraw the attention that I've been giving
It's what best for me,I gotta invest in
I'm leaving you this audio recording,it's harder to say all these when our eyes are locked in
And you know I'm tryna move on
I been begging these feelings"please go away,please be undone"

Chorus:
I'm about to get on this plane
And we've established that you don't feel the same
So a goodbye kiss would be inappropriate
And I can't leave you a note cause we didn't even date
Guess it's another goodbye
We'd be in different states
I hope I stop loving you when I'm 2000 miles away
A goodbye kiss would be inappropriate
And I can't leave you a note cause we didn't even date
Guess it's another goodbye,we started making memories way too late

Roaches, project walls
We don seen it all
We was broke before
Buh we made it out
We can get get it back
Why you losing faith
It was GOD before and He never change
Bitches curved us then
Then we copped the crib
When you bought your whip
I was there for you
They all hated then
Why you changing sides
Days without no smoke
And we never drink
Now I pop champagne
And you ain’t here with me
I was dead dead broke
I knew my time was close
Demons playing foul
They took my bro from me
Damn that shit hurt me bad
Super gremlin gave gay vibes
Buh now I seen it too
The pain it cuts in so deep
When you lose your mans
You sold most of the shit we own
Hit the charts nd I went and bought my pair
That’s when the bag then dropped
B M W,
Two seater, I ain’t carrying none
I wish I had a girl
We woulda ride round town
GOD knows I tried my best
I damn near lost myself
My mans they all switched sides on me
I thought you’d heal the pain
Somehow you made it worse
Roaches and a black man prison cell
House on the hills I copped
Like 6 bathrooms it got
Football court to play
Big crib but all alone
Don’t care I love it here
now the world they know my name roaches project walls
I don’t see that no more
I just thank my GOD
He finally got made a way
Road trips big stadiums
They always book me now

Pre verse(sped up)
What do you want?,spill your fears
I don't like games,but we can play a one round truth or dare
Do you love me now?
are there goosebumps when they call you me your man?
you gotta be around till the end, that's a dare not a demand
Almost in love,I can see that you're almost in love with me
Almost in love, you're almost in love with me


Verse1:
You hiding from me
If this feels wrong,then deny your feelings
Trying so bad to alter the motion
Futile,now you hoping for friction
What have I done?
Mopping up the stains of past love
Hoping my Fragrance will neutralize the stench of "love gone wrong"
I see you ain't a fan of a free fall
I get that,but why do you wait till it's 5 calls before you pick up
You putting much effort to ensure your guard up
I'm putting in effort to ensure its on my chest you lay when you eventually slip up
You can rest by my side,sleep off
If your trust settings was still at default, I'd have swept you off the floor
"Denial might just be delay",I think I have the quote wrong
And it really feels legit
Could never feel the pressure of the celibacy
But man, when you gonna let me in?
Not through holes, except that's what you refer to your mind as
Just been sneak peeks and pieces
Ain't got any idea of what you truly feel within
I just see the wounds,I wanna see the source of the bleeding
Prayer sessions that it Closes up permanently
I ain't GOD,I can't store all of your pain inside me
But I got a "refer someone to JESUS" coupon,and you fit the description pefectly
You've been trying it your way,the pain ain't vanishing
I can see through the bold face, you're still hurting
Ain't tryna say the therapy sessions ain't working
I know it's getting better and you're growing
Maybe it's just my impatience making me feel your healing is happening too slowly
Bring out your Tems, I'd wait for you
In a Future collab,I still see me and you
I'd submit an empty sheet if you weren't in any of the options
It might be my delusion,but it seems you trying so hard to put me off
My senses might be wrong,but I think you're almost in love

Chorus:
You ain't gotta hide,come clean
What are you feeling inside,confide in me
You ain't alone,my past ain't pretty
The insecurities,beauty to me
What frightens you?
I can disproof your beliefs
You've been doing it solo for too long, it's time for you to tag GOD in
It could be much more beautiful
it could be much more beautiful
it could be much more beautiful
it could be much more beautiful

Verse2:
Only GOD can stop your overthinking,so I just render multiple forehead kisses
I seen your playlist,only depressed songs you got in it
I view your stories,tales about how you need somebody
You say you're grateful I'm always around for you
I try to reach out,you zone out
Constantly changing my approach to be that guy for you
Same result so far, I'm not deterred
One eye on you,one eye on the hour glass
They say wait for the right time
But man, it's really difficult interpreting mixed signals
One second you don't wanna talk,next day,you want us to chill on the sofa
Sometimes I wish I could bring my demons to physical light
so you see you not alone in this fight
Bad first lines,but we still got more chapters to write
I give in to the fiction,maybe you'd see my intentions if you stare deep into my eyes
Romeo and Juliet,the past holds you down more than family ties
You know you can just let the passions ignite
Set the worries aside
You're over men,let me try to make you smile
I like to view the world cinematically
Through your fluctuating acts,I can see a happy ending
Squeeze me into your busy schedule
Too occupied on the weekdays?
Ain't a problem, I'd take the few time on the weekends
Take me to Church,I ain't resisting the light
If you ain't cool with holding hands,we could just be walking side by side
And if that's too much, I'd be on the street's opposite side
Can work with social distancing, cherishing the glances
I can't read your mind,GOD can
Trust me,if it's 1 decibel loud,your voice will be heard
I see you're not materialistic,you prefer the finer things
So me having an automobile doesn't determine if you'd ride
But flash me the dimmest of green lights
Don't I deserve to know where we stand?

Chorus:
You ain't gotta hide,come clean
What are you feeling inside,confide in me
You ain't alone,my past ain't pretty
The insecurities,beauty to me
What frightens you?
I can disproof your beliefs
You've been doing it solo for too long, it's time for you to tag GOD in
It could be much more beautiful
it could be much more beautiful
it could be much more beautiful
it could be much more beautiful

Verse 1;
I've done so many things,sometimes,I don't think can be forgiven
Transgressions in the past that I ain't ever telling
Questions and flashbacks keep on popping
All I wanna know is:Can I get smuggled into heaven?
I'd find peace in GOD,but man I ain't ever willing to
The holy blood of CHRIST don't ever let me go
I ain't ever in my life been worthy,still GOD ain't giving up on me
Never been really moved by the preaching
And trust me,I do wanna be a better person
Sometimes I do care how you picture me
But I never look good in a photography
My mind keeps busting moves I ain't ever seen
self esteem murder must be the theme of the choreography
Maybe I'd be different if the girl didn't reject me
Not everyone is gonna feel the same way, that's just reality
And reality is knowing that "it's reality", doesn't make it any easier to heal
There was a time I really needed the love and attention
But I got poorly fed,emotional constipation
Black on black, always in my back pack
my mind is always ready for an occasion
What part of me is gonna die today?
Or are the Ls gonna finally prove to be lessons today
I know GOD'S preparing me for something bigger
I just pray I get to wait
I'm only gonna have battle scars,can't end up in the grave
Long stare at the mirror, When's the image gonna be a lot bigger?
Or maybe I just need a lens to see it clearer
Karma working so hard,but I know GOD rewards bigger

Chorus:
I ain't in no physical beef,my mind's got me in a turmoil
I think the demons slipped,they leaked thier location
Black gloves ,full masks, I'm riding out
Finally got all the bad thoughts where I want them now
This ain't gonna give me Peace, But it's a step further
RIP to bro,"my confidence"
it still hurts
I know this ain't gonna resurrect you,but I'm doing this for you
and the other nigga,my trust
Close range,I just need one shot
I'm ready,I've got the two inch glock
Killing the demons tonight, killing them tonight
(it's right about time)
Murder only way to save my life
(killing the demons tonight)

Verse 2:
Tryna be a silent stepper,but I don't mind Don't mind y'all hearing my footsteps when I can afford Fendi slides
Hope one day they make diamonds for the organs,cause I need to put my heart on ice
I can't see no real people,I might be blind
Had to leave the fake ones,left no trail behind
Parted ways with "ride or die" for a treasure I haven't found
They say the say the search for peace is infinite
Ain't tryna hear all of that
True love doesn't exist,well I'm tryna find her
Mr Cole said some make memes and some make millions
I'm tryna do both though
crack y'all up as we watch my money tree grow
GOD first,Family second..is there a better combo?
Grace + plus my craft, y'all watch out for the duo
X+Yi,Why I dependent? of course
It's funny cause the X be looking for me
Ashamed to pray,I do know GOD is the X I need
in a life of many options, they choose to hate
In a world of many people,it's hard to love
even harder to trust
The higher the population,the more people that can mess you up
Soon as you take a breath in these relationships,you notice it ain't the same as it was
They loved me when I was Gullible
When I only saw things in a blur
There's a part of me I wanna show to the world
Not even those who I got genes from I've seen before
Can't lie,Already it feels tough
Don't want y'all to have a misconception
I know the media never spares the rod
Do I have to break down these writings word for word?
all my life I've had viewers restrictions
Let them have an incomplete visual description
it ain't ever gonna change;going public would never be an option
But I wanna go from hiding in these notes to hiding behind Maybach curtains


Chorus:
I ain't in no physical beef,my mind's got me in a turmoil
I think the demons slipped,they leaked thier location
Black gloves ,full masks, I'm riding out
Finally got all the bad thoughts where I want them now
This ain't gonna give me Peace, But it's a step further
RIP to bro,my confidence
it still hurts
I know this ain't gonna resurrect you,but I'm doing this for you and the other nigga,my trust
Close range,I just need one shot
Man I just need a shot
I am ready,I've got the two inch glock
Killing the demons tonight, killing them tonight
(it's right about time)
Murder only way to save my life
(killing the demons tonight)

No more of (we just gonna get high today)
No more of (we just want all the girls to play)
No more of (thinking that we were created from our own clay)
No more of (being of our best behaviours only on Sundays)
What's wrong with being Mr nice guy?
They stepped over you ,cause they ain't seen no boundaries(not cause you were Mr nice guy)
That didn't work out well ,cause it wasn't GOD'S plan
What's wrong with being celibate? (that don't make you Mr weird guy)
I'm tryna get over my sins(I'm tryna become Mr nice guy)


Turn it up,that's some soul music on the radio
No mumbling,those are some good lyrics,there ain't mumbling bro
Gospel voices coming out of the radio
I'm feeling relaxed,so let's have a episode
What's happening bro?
Nowadays,everyone be wanting for a heart that's cold
Squaring up P.E.A.C.E to I.D.C,and you rather that the peace folds
Cause you got those tips off a discounted price from one of your idols
The one who also talks about fighting depression,see how funny it's sounding bro
I had to put a lot of music on the shelf,and not a day since then did I say "oh no"
Can't keep jamming my lungs out to depression when I'm healing,no
"Music just be words" Yo,Put that on the list of bad quotes
I like the way you living bro,I see CHRIST in you
Man you're a legend bro,I pray the Good LORD sees you through
I pray you don't fold,I like the way you stand your ground on CHRIST on ten toes
I pray you get to heaven,and you're surrounded by yo folks

(singing)
Don't give up the good fight,you're gonna ascend wearing white
The demons would not trespass,they know your house is GOD'S house
You not perfect,but you drawing people to the perfect ONE
Keep giving GOD his dues man
I hope you continue riding on GOD'S plan
You serving HIM with your lifetime
Part of the royal bloodline,You're a special kind

(Beat changes,rap starts)
Imma give a little anecdote
I love giving people thier flowers,some say it's a" pride antidote"
Colin don't drink no more,and he don't puff a smoke no more
He'd be the cover of the magazine,if there was an edition for "born again"
His past brothers,wondering why he preaching like his past memories are vague
Colin remembers his sins,but he just another beneficiary of the LORD'S grace
Trapped in a cage,did his time,and he no longer feels rage
Went in for dealing,and a false account of rape
6 years in prison,his friends thinking it messed with his mental state
Everybody on his case
He a free man for GOD,but they seeing him as CHRIST'S slave
Previously a slave to money and girls in tight dresses
Living a lifestyle with the bros,he wasn't getting
Had the shock of his life,when he still struggled to smile with all the drug money
It didn't make him the hero,the way he had pictured it
And he thought it's normal to feel that way cause that's how the heroes say it
He ain't meant to always be happy,on the bad days,he wanna pop some ecstacy
He don't like a girl holding a rosary
He don't like a girl in Church,cause they keep telling him,"I'm sorry I can't make it"
He almost making it his daily goal to prove they're not as holy
He seeing them covered fully,and he thinking "who are they fooling?"
Hatred for the girls striving to be holy,probably made the Court pin a rape on him,although it happened blocks away from where he was dealing
The System,friends,unfair to him
Somehow,Someday,in his prison clothes,he landed in the Chapel listening
It's another inmate preaching,tears in the eyes of Colin
Someone with the same skin as him,Preacher revealing all his former sins
Talking about how he knows he gotta face the consequences
Talking about being saved by GOD'S mercy
That's when it hit Colin,"they weren't perfect people"
Just people striving for perfection under GOD'S direction
Changed man,he started hearing the HOLY SPIRIT speaking way before 'inmate 67' baptized him
Who is GOD calling?
Who the next Colin?

Verse 1:
Wake up 1 hour after the alarm I set at 4:30 am
act like I didn't set the alarm to "snooze" at 4:00 am
not always on my knees but always praying,yeah, praying for a better day than yesterday
I know I under thank HIM,I don't have the right to ask HIM
How GOD always come through is the first mystery on my mind every day
Slide in the shower,put my phone out of the reach of water
it's gonna be Bieber's or Ed Sheeran's voice coming out of my "too loud for the neighbors" phone speaker
Be in my feelings when I'm singing each lyric,lover boy without no lover
breaking an egg into a bowl 10 minutes later
Nothing slaps like that early morning bread and scrambled eggs,or at least that was what I told myself, too lazy to cook up anything else
Check my phone hoping to see a "good morning baby" from the girl I love
But I'm drowning in the friendzone,so that message don't ever come
Wave a hand at the neighbors,an everyday ritual,while on my way to catch the 7:30 am bus
I know they don't like me, it's a mutual feeling so it doesn't hurt
What would hurt is not sitting at the window end of the bus
not being able to enjoy the early morning breeze as I'm listening to Dave and Stormzy
Trying to feed off that black king energy,but still it don't help my social anxiety

Chorus:
That's when all the thoughts flow
taking that 30 minutes drive bro
No thought,no stress just smiles bro
good vibes,in my zone,which it could go on for 2000 miles bro
no voices in my head bro(2000 miles)
don't need to worry if I'd be the man (2000 miles)
Mehnnn that inner peace bro (2000 miles)
But it don't last,it don't last
but it don't last, it don't last
The peace last more than 2000 miles.


Verse 2:
Hey the fairytale is over, get off the bus
Long walk through the hallway, headphones still plugged in
Tryna avoid every stare I could get
I bet if I raised my head, I would see that no one actually cared
But I'd rather think they were laughing at the 5'11 freak of a black kid anytime he walked in
Sitting through class knowing this school shit wasn't for me
Middle row seat,imagining every random shit
Composing lines in my head that'll win the Grammys
I had no friends, just a few people I'd hola at
Reminded I was a black kid every lunch break
Never got used to the stare the white woman at the school canteen gave me
like her guts could tell her I was gonna steal something
Bro I just want to get a meat pie and an apple juice box
But I don't let no racist affect my already "don't give a fxxx" attitude
Never missed a football practice after school
not tryna go pro,but making slide tackles at right back was pretty cool
Off the Jersey,onto Aprons
It was a restaurant just across school,
evening shift on the dishes,what I had to do to get by
fake a smile when I tell my co workers "have a good night"
They didn't like me but hey the feeling is mutual,so it didn't hurt
what would have hurt was not sitting at the window end of the bus
not being able to enjoy the night-ish view as I listen to Chance and Cole
trying to feed off that black king energy, tomorrow I'd battle my social anxiety


Chorus:
That's when the ideas start to flow bro
when I'm taking that 30 minutes drive bro
No thought,no stress just smiles bro
good vibes,in my zone,which it could go on for 2000 miles bro
no voices in my head bro(2000 miles)
don't need to worry if I'd ever be the man bro (2000 miles)
I just want that inner peace bro (2000 miles)
but it don't last,but it don't last
but it don't last,but it don't last
Want the peace to last for more than 2000 miles.