Matias M

I don't know what this could mean,
but I wake up at 2 am
feeling lonely and thirsty
for something I can't even name.
What's going on with my head?
Who twisted it up again?
Why did I let it happen?

'Cause when I stare at the mirror
my reflection looks so torn
and I can't fake it when they're around,
but nobody notices I'm breaking down.
I put on a smile and I go out
and life simply keeps moving on
and I don't know if I already gave up
but somehow my mind gets way too dark
and so the devil can have me...
I won't even fight against it...

Does anyone remember the first time
they met me? Did I look glad?
Did my soul undergo any kind of change?
Did my smile slowly begin to fade away?
When did it all begin?
Did someone I love play me?
Why did I let it happen?

'Cause when I stare at the mirror
my reflection looks so torn
and I can't fake it when they're around,
but nobody notices I'm breaking down.
I put on a smile and I go out
and life simply keeps moving on
and I don't know if I already gave up
but somehow my mind gets way too dark
and so the devil can have me...
I won't even fight against it...

I don't know why you let go of me.
It was so easy to break free,
as if it was part of a twisted plan.
Suddenly you forgot you owned my heart.

And the magic spell came to an end,
you ran out of tricks to play with me.
The charm, the fire, the music died away.

I didn't want to, but you pushed me
over the cliff so I spread my wings.
I didn't want to, but you let me fly.
You let him come and steal me away,
sweep me off my feet all over again.
Somehow you wanted to let me fly.
You made me think you didn't love me,
but it was just you not daring to be happy.

You're a coward, you feel powerless.
When it gets serious, you simply leave.
Why didn't you want to fight for this
if you knew it was more than worth it?

And the effort became a blank page,
flat and empty, simply motionless,
just like your charm, it all died away.

I didn't want to, but you pushed me
over the cliff so I spread my wings.
I didn't want to, but you let me fly.
You let him come and steal me away,
sweep me off my feet all over again.
Somehow you wanted to let me fly.
You made me think you didn't love me...

And he owns the charm you lacked,
and he has the guts you still lack
and he makes the efforts you stopped
making for a king like me.

I didn't want to, but you pushed me
over the cliff so I spread my wings.
I didn't want to, but you let me fly.
You let him come and steal me away,
sweep me off my feet all over again.
Somehow you wanted to let me fly.
You made me think you didn't love me,
but it was just you not daring to be happy.

I got it all twisted and wrong from the start
but you didn't let me fall down.
I didn't crash and burn.

I thought it was gonna be messy,
but you taught me how to wait,
so we were never as chaotic
as I expected us to be.

Not every time a love affair comes to an end
there's darkness and loneliness up ahead.
I remember the words you told me that day,
"I didn't know we were meant to fade away
but I know we can be okay
so you can always count on me
and I know you can't call me a friend
but that's for today
and tomorrow it might change,
so even when you hesitate,
when you don't know what to say,
when you're in doubt, full of insecurity,
afraid and all, just stay."

I must've daydreamed way too much,
I was already on our honeymoon,
and crashing down felt too tough
but I never listened to you.
If I had, I would've known what you want
and I was never what you really want.

Not every time a love affair comes to an end
there's darkness and loneliness up ahead.
I remember the words you told me that day,
"I didn't know we were meant to fade away
but I know we can be okay
so you can always count on me
and I know you can't call me a friend
but that's for today
and tomorrow it might change,
so even when you hesitate,
when you don't know what to say,
when you're in doubt, full of insecurity,
afraid and all, just stay."

You were hopeless, you didn't trust
you were gonna stand a chance
'cause you never had
good experiences before.

Now this is your chance
to break the circle
and prove yourself that you can
walk away from where you began.

You didn't have a sense of belonging,
You didn't think you could ever win,
but now I walk through the door
and make your walls fall down
and show you that what was destroyed
one day will be restored.

Life's a bunch of lessons
that reveal your inner self
and how you're gonna live
every time you wake up again.

There's a point in your life
you grow mature and realize
it's time to prove yourself you can
walk away from where you began.

You didn't have a sense of belonging,
You didn't think you could ever win,
but now I walk through the door
and make your walls fall down
and show you that what was destroyed
one day will be restored.

Are you gonna learn
from what hurt you yesterday,
or will you let it take
your essence and your hope away?

You didn't have a sense of belonging,
you didn't think you could ever win,
until I came into your life
and healed the wounds with one smile
and when you hugged me, there was a little spark
saying that it wasn't over now.

Why do the good boys always end up alone?
No mercy on them, go heartless, erode their soul.
Say you love them, dump them, be really cool.
Don't need the good boys, break them, make 'em feel lost.

Don't need the kindness, look for the wilder side.
If there are feelings, that's not boyfriend material.
Why would you doom yourself with that dull life?
A bunch of roses can't compare to a fist bump.

This is enough, don't let 'em grow on you.
Don't lie to yourself, you don't need a fool.
None of them good boys will ever satisfy
your need to be mistreated and tossed aside.

Black and yellow lines, hearts racing at midnight.
If there is a gun, you'll always get turned on.
Why would you compromise to zero adrenaline?
Loyalty and love can't compare to a fist bump.

This is enough, don't let 'em grow on you.
Don't lie to yourself, you don't need a fool.
None of them good boys will ever satisfy
your need to be mistreated and tossed aside.

Why do the good boys always end up alone?
No mercy on them, go heartless, erode their soul.
Say you love them, dump them, be really cool.
Don't need the good boys, break them, make 'em feel lost.

When I stepped
into the club, I saw you
and the music skipped a beat.
I whispered to your ear
I wanted to take you
to a little place called heaven.

I drank too much, believe me
I already know I'm going wasted
but every time you get close to me
I sigh and lose my common sense.

I don't know you and I don't wanna know
your dreams or your best friend,
I just wanna feel the touch of your hand
going down my hip, bristling my hair.
Hush, don't say a word.
Hush, don't call it love.
Just forget you know me and for one night
let's be strangers, let's be lovers.

Who'd have guessed
that among all of them
you were gonna be my savior,
the one to show me
the wrong road of blessings,
the curse my body cried for?

I drank too much and honesty
I think you and I are meant to be
the lovers that come to exist
as a result of another silly slip.

I don't know you and I don't wanna know
your dreams or your best friend,
I just wanna feel the touch of your hand
going down my hip, bristling my hair.
Hush, don't say a word.
Hush, don't call it love.
Just forget you know me and for one night
let's be strangers, let's be lovers.

Voicing your opinion
when you know it's silly and pointless
only makes you even more absurd.
I hope you get what you deserve.
Entitled to criticize everyone
just because you're superior
only in your head, only in your head.

What are you so proud of
if you can't accomplish your goals?
Yet you need to undermine everything
so they don't notice how empty you are,
so they don't know how basic you are
but I know all about you
and there's nothing to kill for.

Always going back home
feeling despair 'cause you didn't get a job
yet you mock everyone's progress
so they don't see what you didn't get.
Stop praising everyone
no one believes what you say.
Phoney as hell, phoney as hell.

What are you so proud of
if you can't accomplish your goals?
Yet you need to undermine everything
so they don't notice how empty you are,
so they don't know how basic you are
but I know all about you
and there's nothing to kill for.

You like to plot schemes in your head,
your life's a fantasy,
you think you're way too great
but, after all, the truth is
you may think you're way too fun
and everyone loves your company
but just don't ask around
if you're not ready 'cause the truth is...

What are you so proud of
if you can't accomplish your goals?
Yet you need to undermine everything
so they don't notice how empty you are,
so they don't know how basic you are
but I know all about you
and there's nothing to kill for.

And I wish I would stop having those dreams
that play with my head, twist it inside out
and leave me on the floor.
Oh, how I wish
the reality I'm living in
convinced my head it has to stop believing
anything could go wrong any minute.

But somehow I feel so sick in my stomack every night
and I can't stop tossing and turning, it kills me inside.
Oh, we're just going backwards.

Ask me how long the night is
and I'll answer through the tears
and the prayers and the songs and the memories
swirling across my ink.

I don't know if it's because of your past,
all of your ex's still haunting you,
do you still think of any of them?
Oh, how I wish
I'd see love reflected in your eyes,
'cause sometimes everything is not enough
and I see you growing tired, staring from afar.

Ask me how long the night is
and I'll answer through the tears
and the prayers and the songs and the memories
swirling across my ink.

Oh, I can't spend the best years of our lives
hoping I'll find out if you love me.
Oh, I can't spend nights pondering about my life
not knowing if I'm truly happy.

Ask me how long the night is
and I'll answer through the tears
and the prayers and the songs and the memories
swirling across my ink.