Songwriter and lyricist crafting topline melodies and evocative stories. I explore the complexities of human nature through raw, structured narratives designed for cinematic and indie-pop production.
[Verse 1]
New job, two months out
Feels like a whole new life
I thought I said it all
And you were left behind
I can't recall your face
Don't look at photographs
I move on, sleeping well
But where does the truth lie?
[Pre-chorus]
Nice to see you
(I despise you)
[Chorus]
I watch me digging into you
With a knife as sharp as grief
These hands that were too warm for me
This mouth that was too cruel to me
I watch this body bleeding
Slowly and eternally
I'm smiling like a psycho
I'm not ashamed at all
Not ashamed, not ashamed
I’m not ashamed anymore
[Verse 2]
Were you taking revenge on women
Were you feeding your greatest ego
Were you playing because of tedium
I couldn't care less
It caught me suddenly
After the therapy
You acted dirty, so
Get back what you gave out
[Pre-chorus]
Nice to see you
(I despise you)
[Chorus]
I watch me digging into you
With a knife as cold as scorn
Foul hands that were too close to me
This mind that was too hard on me
I watch this body bleeding
Slowly and eternally
I'm laughing like a freak
I'm not ashamed at all
Not ashamed, not ashamed
I’m not ashamed anymore
[Bridge]
A too positive spirit to live all the stages
Too lucky to get out of it to call it a tragedy
Too quick with the gratitude to the experience
To feel what it's really supposed to be like
[Chorus]
I watch me digging into you
With a knife as stiff as sorrow
Those hands that felt so skilled for me
That mouth that said forbidden things
I watch his figure fading
So sad it ever had to happen
I'm smiling to the future
I'm heading without him
Not ashamed, I'm not ashamed
I’m not ashamed to feel it anymore
[Verse 1]
That was just another year
Sleeping by myself, all is clear
My career’s at peak, my girls are near
Happy all alone, my need is zero
Then you came along, a friend —
Or so I thought. A chance to chat.
Nothing special, nothing. Casual…
Nothing was casual from the day we met
[Chorus]
Here I am under the mistletoe
Watching you kiss another girl
Was I wrong to make it look like I was alright?
Was my independence a denial?
I got used to talking to you on weekends
Now the loneliness don't seem to reach the finish
I don't want your girlfriend to get vicious
This is why I act like I forget
[Post-chorus]
Every Saturday and Sunday to call you
Or answer you
(Guess I'm lying to myself that I don't feel)
[Verse 2]
What if I talked to you?
What if I told the truth?
Would you hate me,
Understand me
Or say we'll never be the same?
And what if I talked to you
Like all of that was through?
Would I bury feelings? “Merry
Christmas to you, little berry”
[Chorus]
Here I am under the mistletoe
Watching you kiss another girl
Was I wrong to make it look like I was alright?
Was my independence a denial?
I got used to talking to you on weekends
Now the loneliness don't seem to reach the finish
I don't want your girlfriend to get vicious
This is why I act like I forget
[Post-chorus]
Every Saturday and Sunday to call you
Or answer you
(Guess I'm lying to myself that I don't feel)
[Bridge]
Don't you do this to me
It's supposed to be a happy Christmas
I've prepared a gift for you
Now I don't want you to see it
Maybe I need time
To confront my fears, and maybe
It won't be too much
To tell you my true feelings, and yet
[Chorus]
Here I am under the mistletoe
Watching you kiss another girl
Was I wrong to make it look like I was alright?
Was my independence a denial?
I got used to talking to you on weekends
Now the loneliness don't seem to reach the finish
I don't want your girlfriend to get vicious
This is why I act like I forget
[Post-chorus]
Every Saturday and Sunday to call you
Or answer you
But I love you
[Chorus]
It's a place
I don't belong
Was I weak?
Was I a broken promise?
Did you see
How I tried
To fit in?
I'm still hurting
For you
How I tried
Did you see?
[Verse]
You brought me in
As I healed
Saw you in the spotlight
You're a sin
I was blind
Blinded by your gospel
You're no priest
Like I said
Devil dies in the morning
Honey please
Don't forget
How to ask for love properly
[Chorus]
It's a place
You don't belong
Was I weak?
Was I a broken promise?
Did you see
How I tried
To fit in?
I'm still hurting
For you
How I tried
Did you see?
[Verse 1]
New job, two months out
Feels like a whole new life
I thought I said it all
And you were left behind
I can't recall your face
Don't look at photographs
I move on, sleeping well
But where does the truth lie?
[Pre-chorus]
Nice to see you
(I despise you)
[Chorus]
I watch me digging into you
With a knife as sharp as grief
These hands that were too warm for me
This mouth that was too cruel to me
I watch this body bleeding
Slowly and eternally
I'm smiling like a psycho
I'm not ashamed at all
Not ashamed, not ashamed
I’m not ashamed anymore
[Verse 2]
Were you taking revenge on women
Were you feeding your greatest ego
Were you playing because of tedium
I couldn't care less
It caught me suddenly
After the therapy
You acted dirty, so
Get back what you gave out
[Pre-chorus]
Nice to see you
(I despise you)
[Chorus]
I watch me digging into you
With a knife as cold as scorn
Foul hands that were too close to me
This mind that was too hard on me
I watch this body bleeding
Slowly and eternally
I'm laughing like a freak
I'm not ashamed at all
Not ashamed, not ashamed
I’m not ashamed anymore
[Bridge]
A too positive spirit to live all the stages
Too lucky to get out of it to call it a tragedy
Too quick with the gratitude to the experience
To feel what it's really supposed to be like
[Chorus]
I watch me digging into you
With a knife as stiff as sorrow
Those hands that felt so skilled for me
That mouth that said forbidden things
I watch his figure fading
So sad it ever had to happen
I'm smiling to the future
I'm heading without him
Not ashamed, I'm not ashamed
I’m not ashamed to feel it anymore
[Verse 1]
That was just another year
Sleeping by myself, all is clear
My career’s at peak, my girls are near
Happy all alone, my need is zero
Then you came along, a friend —
Or so I thought. A chance to chat.
Nothing special, nothing. Casual…
Nothing was casual from the day we met
[Chorus]
Here I am under the mistletoe
Watching you kiss another girl
Was I wrong to make it look like I was alright?
Was my independence a denial?
I got used to talking to you on weekends
Now the loneliness don't seem to reach the finish
I don't want your girlfriend to get vicious
This is why I act like I forget
[Post-chorus]
Every Saturday and Sunday to call you
Or answer you
(Guess I'm lying to myself that I don't feel)
[Verse 2]
What if I talked to you?
What if I told the truth?
Would you hate me,
Understand me
Or say we'll never be the same?
And what if I talked to you
Like all of that was through?
Would I bury feelings? “Merry
Christmas to you, little berry”
[Chorus]
Here I am under the mistletoe
Watching you kiss another girl
Was I wrong to make it look like I was alright?
Was my independence a denial?
I got used to talking to you on weekends
Now the loneliness don't seem to reach the finish
I don't want your girlfriend to get vicious
This is why I act like I forget
[Post-chorus]
Every Saturday and Sunday to call you
Or answer you
(Guess I'm lying to myself that I don't feel)
[Bridge]
Don't you do this to me
It's supposed to be a happy Christmas
I've prepared a gift for you
Now I don't want you to see it
Maybe I need time
To confront my fears, and maybe
It won't be too much
To tell you my true feelings, and yet
[Chorus]
Here I am under the mistletoe
Watching you kiss another girl
Was I wrong to make it look like I was alright?
Was my independence a denial?
I got used to talking to you on weekends
Now the loneliness don't seem to reach the finish
I don't want your girlfriend to get vicious
This is why I act like I forget
[Post-chorus]
Every Saturday and Sunday to call you
Or answer you
But I love you
[Chorus]
It's a place
I don't belong
Was I weak?
Was I a broken promise?
Did you see
How I tried
To fit in?
I'm still hurting
For you
How I tried
Did you see?
[Verse]
You brought me in
As I healed
Saw you in the spotlight
You're a sin
I was blind
Blinded by your gospel
You're no priest
Like I said
Devil dies in the morning
Honey please
Don't forget
How to ask for love properly
[Chorus]
It's a place
You don't belong
Was I weak?
Was I a broken promise?
Did you see
How I tried
To fit in?
I'm still hurting
For you
How I tried
Did you see?
[Verse 1]
New job, two months out
Feels like a whole new life
I thought I said it all
And you were left behind
I can't recall your face
Don't look at photographs
I move on, sleeping well
But where does the truth lie?
[Pre-chorus]
Nice to see you
(I despise you)
[Chorus]
I watch me digging into you
With a knife as sharp as grief
These hands that were too warm for me
This mouth that was too cruel to me
I watch this body bleeding
Slowly and eternally
I'm smiling like a psycho
I'm not ashamed at all
Not ashamed, not ashamed
I’m not ashamed anymore
[Verse 2]
Were you taking revenge on women
Were you feeding your greatest ego
Were you playing because of tedium
I couldn't care less
It caught me suddenly
After the therapy
You acted dirty, so
Get back what you gave out
[Pre-chorus]
Nice to see you
(I despise you)
[Chorus]
I watch me digging into you
With a knife as cold as scorn
Foul hands that were too close to me
This mind that was too hard on me
I watch this body bleeding
Slowly and eternally
I'm laughing like a freak
I'm not ashamed at all
Not ashamed, not ashamed
I’m not ashamed anymore
[Bridge]
A too positive spirit to live all the stages
Too lucky to get out of it to call it a tragedy
Too quick with the gratitude to the experience
To feel what it's really supposed to be like
[Chorus]
I watch me digging into you
With a knife as stiff as sorrow
Those hands that felt so skilled for me
That mouth that said forbidden things
I watch his figure fading
So sad it ever had to happen
I'm smiling to the future
I'm heading without him
Not ashamed, I'm not ashamed
I’m not ashamed to feel it anymore
[Verse 1]
That was just another year
Sleeping by myself, all is clear
My career’s at peak, my girls are near
Happy all alone, my need is zero
Then you came along, a friend —
Or so I thought. A chance to chat.
Nothing special, nothing. Casual…
Nothing was casual from the day we met
[Chorus]
Here I am under the mistletoe
Watching you kiss another girl
Was I wrong to make it look like I was alright?
Was my independence a denial?
I got used to talking to you on weekends
Now the loneliness don't seem to reach the finish
I don't want your girlfriend to get vicious
This is why I act like I forget
[Post-chorus]
Every Saturday and Sunday to call you
Or answer you
(Guess I'm lying to myself that I don't feel)
[Verse 2]
What if I talked to you?
What if I told the truth?
Would you hate me,
Understand me
Or say we'll never be the same?
And what if I talked to you
Like all of that was through?
Would I bury feelings? “Merry
Christmas to you, little berry”
[Chorus]
Here I am under the mistletoe
Watching you kiss another girl
Was I wrong to make it look like I was alright?
Was my independence a denial?
I got used to talking to you on weekends
Now the loneliness don't seem to reach the finish
I don't want your girlfriend to get vicious
This is why I act like I forget
[Post-chorus]
Every Saturday and Sunday to call you
Or answer you
(Guess I'm lying to myself that I don't feel)
[Bridge]
Don't you do this to me
It's supposed to be a happy Christmas
I've prepared a gift for you
Now I don't want you to see it
Maybe I need time
To confront my fears, and maybe
It won't be too much
To tell you my true feelings, and yet
[Chorus]
Here I am under the mistletoe
Watching you kiss another girl
Was I wrong to make it look like I was alright?
Was my independence a denial?
I got used to talking to you on weekends
Now the loneliness don't seem to reach the finish
I don't want your girlfriend to get vicious
This is why I act like I forget
[Post-chorus]
Every Saturday and Sunday to call you
Or answer you
But I love you
[Chorus]
It's a place
I don't belong
Was I weak?
Was I a broken promise?
Did you see
How I tried
To fit in?
I'm still hurting
For you
How I tried
Did you see?
[Verse]
You brought me in
As I healed
Saw you in the spotlight
You're a sin
I was blind
Blinded by your gospel
You're no priest
Like I said
Devil dies in the morning
Honey please
Don't forget
How to ask for love properly
[Chorus]
It's a place
You don't belong
Was I weak?
Was I a broken promise?
Did you see
How I tried
To fit in?
I'm still hurting
For you
How I tried
Did you see?
Songwriter and lyricist crafting topline melodies and evocative stories. I explore the complexities of human nature through raw, structured narratives designed for cinematic and indie-pop production.
