Willing Happiness

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Willing Happiness

I’m happy now, but it feels so strange,
Why aren’t you? Am I the one to blame?
I walked away ‘cause you gave me no choice,
But your silence still drowns out my voice.
You ran around on me, tore our world apart,
And yet I’m carrying this heavy heart.
I feel responsible, like I let you down,
For choosing me, instead of keeping you around.
I stood up, but I’m still on the ground.

Why do I feel guilty still?
For walking away, for wanting to heal.
Why do I feel I owe you more,
When it was you who closed the door?
If I could will your happiness, I would,
Maybe then, I’d finally feel good.
But why can't you be happy too?
Maybe then, I'd find my peace with you.

I moved on, I tried to break free,
But your shadow still follows me.
I stood up for myself, for the first time,
Yet I’m tangled in the guilt, like it’s a crime.
You couldn’t love me right, but I still care,
It’s unfair, but I’m caught in the snare.

I feel responsible for your shattered dreams,
Like leaving you made me selfish, it seems.
But loving me should’ve never been extremes.

Why do I feel guilty still?
For walking away, for wanting to heal.
Why do I feel I owe you more,
When it was you who closed the door?
If I could will your happiness, I would,
Maybe then, I’d finally feel good.
But why can't you be happy too?
Maybe then, I'd find my peace with you.

I shouldn’t carry this weight that’s not mine,
Your choices were never my design.
But here I am, asking myself why,
Why I’m still the one to cry.

Why do I feel guilty still?
For walking away, for wanting to heal.
Why do I feel I owe you more,
When it was you who closed the door?
If I could will your happiness, I would,
Maybe then, I’d finally feel good.
But why can't you be happy too?
Maybe then, I'd find my peace with you.

Guilty Still / Why Aren’t You Happy Too


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I’m happy now, but it feels so strange,
Why aren’t you? Am I the one to blame?
I walked away ‘cause you gave me no choice,
But your silence still drowns out my voice.
You ran around on me, tore our world apart,
And yet I’m carrying this heavy heart.
I feel responsible, like I let you down,
For choosing me, instead of keeping you around.
I stood up, but I’m still on the ground.

Why do I feel guilty still?
For walking away, for wanting to heal.
Why do I feel I owe you more,
When it was you who closed the door?
If I could will your happiness, I would,
Maybe then, I’d finally feel good.
But why can't you be happy too?
Maybe then, I'd find my peace with you.

I moved on, I tried to break free,
But your shadow still follows me.
I stood up for myself, for the first time,
Yet I’m tangled in the guilt, like it’s a crime.
You couldn’t love me right, but I still care,
It’s unfair, but I’m caught in the snare.

I feel responsible for your shattered dreams,
Like leaving you made me selfish, it seems.
But loving me should’ve never been extremes.

Why do I feel guilty still?
For walking away, for wanting to heal.
Why do I feel I owe you more,
When it was you who closed the door?
If I could will your happiness, I would,
Maybe then, I’d finally feel good.
But why can't you be happy too?
Maybe then, I'd find my peace with you.

I shouldn’t carry this weight that’s not mine,
Your choices were never my design.
But here I am, asking myself why,
Why I’m still the one to cry.

Why do I feel guilty still?
For walking away, for wanting to heal.
Why do I feel I owe you more,
When it was you who closed the door?
If I could will your happiness, I would,
Maybe then, I’d finally feel good.
But why can't you be happy too?
Maybe then, I'd find my peace with you.

Guilty Still / Why Aren’t You Happy Too

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I’m happy now, but it feels so strange,
Why aren’t you? Am I the one to blame?
I walked away ‘cause you gave me no choice,
But your silence still drowns out my voice.
You ran around on me, tore our world apart,
And yet I’m carrying this heavy heart.
I feel responsible, like I let you down,
For choosing me, instead of keeping you around.
I stood up, but I’m still on the ground.

Why do I feel guilty still?
For walking away, for wanting to heal.
Why do I feel I owe you more,
When it was you who closed the door?
If I could will your happiness, I would,
Maybe then, I’d finally feel good.
But why can't you be happy too?
Maybe then, I'd find my peace with you.

I moved on, I tried to break free,
But your shadow still follows me.
I stood up for myself, for the first time,
Yet I’m tangled in the guilt, like it’s a crime.
You couldn’t love me right, but I still care,
It’s unfair, but I’m caught in the snare.

I feel responsible for your shattered dreams,
Like leaving you made me selfish, it seems.
But loving me should’ve never been extremes.

Why do I feel guilty still?
For walking away, for wanting to heal.
Why do I feel I owe you more,
When it was you who closed the door?
If I could will your happiness, I would,
Maybe then, I’d finally feel good.
But why can't you be happy too?
Maybe then, I'd find my peace with you.

I shouldn’t carry this weight that’s not mine,
Your choices were never my design.
But here I am, asking myself why,
Why I’m still the one to cry.

Why do I feel guilty still?
For walking away, for wanting to heal.
Why do I feel I owe you more,
When it was you who closed the door?
If I could will your happiness, I would,
Maybe then, I’d finally feel good.
But why can't you be happy too?
Maybe then, I'd find my peace with you.

Guilty Still / Why Aren’t You Happy Too


About Me

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Willing Happiness is an artist with a unique blend of technical expertise and creative passion. An engineer by degree with an MBA, she works in chemical sales while pursuing her love for songwriting, lyrics, and poetry. Her music reflects the emotional complexity of relationships, self-discovery, and the struggle for self-empowerment, often inspired by real-life experiences of personal growth and letting go of toxic connections.

Willing Happiness brings raw vulnerability to her songwriting, exploring the guilt and inner conflict that arise when choosing to stand up for oneself. Her lyrics capture the delicate balance of wanting others to find happiness while navigating the difficult journey of finding peace within.

Based in the Pacific Northwest, Willing Happiness uses her background in both technical and creative fields to craft music that is as introspective as it is relatable. Her passion for lyrics and poetry is a powerful outlet for expressing emotions that resonate deeply with anyone who has faced the challenges of love, loss, and personal transformation.

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