Struggle to get up in a morning
Doesn’t come with any warning
Doing the simplest task
Seems like a huge ask
Overwhelming urge to cry
Constantly asking myself why
Why do I feel this way
How do I make it go away
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
I lie awake at night
Losing a constant fight
Thoughts racing in my head
Crying all alone in my bed
This tight feeling in my chest
Anxiety doesn’t seem to rest
My own worst enemy
I’m riddled with insecurity
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
Feel like I’m going insane
With this self inflicted pain
Emotions taking over me
Wishing I could be free
From the words in my mind
But I just can’t seem to find
What it is I’m looking for
Doesn’t seem to be a cure
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
This constant self doubt
Will I ever figure it out
This never ending shame
Only got myself to blame
Feeling beyond low
I honestly don’t know
How much more I can take
Before I’m sure to break
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
I don’t want this to win
Patients is wearing thin
Don’t want to live in fear
Of the words only I hear
This undeniable hate
It’s an unhealthy trait
Instead I put up a wall
And try to bury it all
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
Struggle to get up in a morning
Doesn’t come with any warning
Doing the simplest task
Seems like a huge ask
Overwhelming urge to cry
Constantly asking myself why
Why do I feel this way
How do I make it go away
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
I lie awake at night
Losing a constant fight
Thoughts racing in my head
Crying all alone in my bed
This tight feeling in my chest
Anxiety doesn’t seem to rest
My own worst enemy
I’m riddled with insecurity
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
Feel like I’m going insane
With this self inflicted pain
Emotions taking over me
Wishing I could be free
From the words in my mind
But I just can’t seem to find
What it is I’m looking for
Doesn’t seem to be a cure
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
This constant self doubt
Will I ever figure it out
This never ending shame
Only got myself to blame
Feeling beyond low
I honestly don’t know
How much more I can take
Before I’m sure to break
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
I don’t want this to win
Patients is wearing thin
Don’t want to live in fear
Of the words only I hear
This undeniable hate
It’s an unhealthy trait
Instead I put up a wall
And try to bury it all
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
Struggle to get up in a morning
Doesn’t come with any warning
Doing the simplest task
Seems like a huge ask
Overwhelming urge to cry
Constantly asking myself why
Why do I feel this way
How do I make it go away
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
I lie awake at night
Losing a constant fight
Thoughts racing in my head
Crying all alone in my bed
This tight feeling in my chest
Anxiety doesn’t seem to rest
My own worst enemy
I’m riddled with insecurity
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
Feel like I’m going insane
With this self inflicted pain
Emotions taking over me
Wishing I could be free
From the words in my mind
But I just can’t seem to find
What it is I’m looking for
Doesn’t seem to be a cure
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
This constant self doubt
Will I ever figure it out
This never ending shame
Only got myself to blame
Feeling beyond low
I honestly don’t know
How much more I can take
Before I’m sure to break
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
I don’t want this to win
Patients is wearing thin
Don’t want to live in fear
Of the words only I hear
This undeniable hate
It’s an unhealthy trait
Instead I put up a wall
And try to bury it all
Coz I’m smiling on the outside
Hoping that I can hide
The sadness deep inside me
Praying that you can’t see
See through all of my lies
Underneath my disguise
I hope you know that I tried
I’m smiling on the outside
After going through a tough time emotionally, I decided I needed to start writing to get everything out as that’s how I felt comfortable dealing with everything. I’ve always had a way with words and am a very deep person that finds connection with most of the things I come across. I wanted to express how others may feel and relate to that don’t have the confidence, ability or words to do so. I hope this is inspiring, touching or just whatever you need it to be to have a positive impact.
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