Magnus H

They all saw me
a happy kid
Acting all free
Everything I did
But did they see me
when the world got real
Did they hear me
through their own ordeal
So hopeful
when the world was mine
I was vocal
Used to speak my mind
Now I'm absent
All the days fade out
And in my absence
I can't hear them shout

Just a failure
with bad behavior
In need of a savior
I need to be braver
Please do me this favor
Close my curtains
so as to hide the sun
Don't want them to see my burdens
they're infectious one on one
Light on me only worsens
all the damage already done

Went to Norway
wanting to see the Northern Lights
The aurorae
Up there the days are nights
I'll make myself shine
Don't need their ash
My world is my design
I'm done scratching a rash
I'll give myself time
Find some things I can like
Make my own dime
Find my own way to strike
Watch the sundown
I can learn to relax
Using a homemade crown
I will hide my cracks

Not a failure
Got good behavior
I'm my own savior
Don't need to be braver
Please do me this favor
Close my curtains
so as to hide the sun
Don't want them to see my burdens
they're infectious one on one
Light on me only worsens
all the damage already done

I got three dollars to my name and an unwashed apartment
Payday is a week away so I'm hustlin' out the rest of my compartment
Poverty ain't no shame, just a naked walk through King's Landing
Though it does lead me astray, my mind is always expanding
The stress has left a stain, I can't relax without a supplement
But I'm fighting every day, I'm completing my life ascent

My life, my will
My strife, my thrill
My life, my will
My life, my will

Working 6 to 5, honestly I want to do it
Layin' bricks and thrive, there must be something to it
School, study, work, the bed was already made up for me
A fool, buddhi, jerk, like Goldilocks, that bed wasn't meant for me
Imagine coming home to a Miss, living life with stability
Ignorance is bliss, I wish I could unsee the predictability
Unfortunately, I can't live life that way, believe me I try
Marginally I'm pathing my own pathway, I'm daring to fly

Honestly, some people always give me deja vu
Swear I've talked to you before, yet I've just met you
Feels like you all play the same character
All in the same movie, voiced by the same narrator
Don't mean to be a conspirator, but I'm the inquisitor
And you all have an inhibitor, you're all a prisoner

Not really searching for fame, I'd rather be incognito
But if fame ever comes, I'll play it like Danny DeVito
I'll find my own way to space, won't be no money mosquito
And when I'm up there, won't be any complaints, the name's not Dennis Tito

My life, my will
My strife, my thrill
My life, my will
My life, my will

I don't believe in the pursuit of happiness,
appreciating to fail
Learning from real mistakes,
I'll take my boat without a sail
Depression or happiness, its just a state of mind in the present time
What I'm phrasing is obvious, goes like tequila and lime
Life is as a rollercoaster, what comes up must come down
So when you queue to fly again, take some time, appreciate the ground

If I won the lottery now it wouldn't change my plot
Would donate the money away or burn it on the spot
Rather climb Everest than fly to the top
Rather make money from success, because my shit is pop
I don't hate the cash, it's just the way I grew up
If you're not worth what you have, I won't share a cup
I'll make Frank happy each day,
because I know I did it my way

I was paralyzed, beauty struck me like a beam
Dim the lights, hear me out, let me set the scene
I`ve never seen the likes, she made ripped jeans look like an attire for queens
She had those bright blue Bambi eyes, one look, your body filled with endorphins
She's that type of girl to let you know what she really means

fxxx the bar, fxxx the drinks, fxxx all of my shows
I want you, any car and an open road
If you leave me now
I fear that I'll never feel the same again
Those bright blue Bambi eyes

I never really felt the need to be monogamous,
but with you everyone else just felt anonymous
All alone with my thoughts, I need a distraction
My mind in knotts, no one else give the same satisfaction
Like ten thousand watts, when im with you theres a chemical reaction
You make me high like an astronaut, come with me baby I need some action

Bright blue Bambi eyes
If you leave me now
I fear I'll never feel this way again
Those bright blue Bambi eyes

She had those Medusa eyes,
one look and im paralyzed,
left frozen and cold inside

Bright blue Bambi eyes
If you leave me now
I fear I'll never feel this way again
Those bright blue Bambi eyes
They fill my mind

Tom was a sailor, Tom was a chum
Tom filled his bailer with whiskey and rum
Tom drank his liqour, Tom sat the sails
Tom knew no fear despite all the tales

Tom our chummy fellow embarked on adventure
Tom our chummy comrade not one to surrender

A very pleasant day, a pleseant day at the sea
Tom fished for crab so a lady he could please
A very pretty lady, a pretty lady indeed
The one with those eyes one look would intrigue

Tom our chummy fellow embarked on adventure
Tom our chummy comrade just wanted to pleasure

The bait came up empty, the crab did not bite
Tom had patience plenty he admired the soon to be night
Tom began to slumber, no catch in his vessel
Ignoring all the thunder while dreaming of that lady so special

Tom our chummy fellow embarked on adventure
Tom our chummy comrade no match for the nature

The waves started to tower, the sun no longer shone bright
Tom was all but devoured by the great ocean might
The boat was no more and neither was Tom
But we'll all ensure the tale still lives on

Tom our chummy fellow embarked on adventure
Tom our chummy comrade will never more venture

I feel her cold gaze upon me
Shining through just to see
A beaten man, a broken dream
The wind blows far from me
Yeah, the wind blows far from me

A tired man in dire needs
I searched for a job, hoped it could help me heal
Succumbed to the work, another slave to the machine
The devil still in my dreams, finally turning real
Smiles hiding the smirk, what does integrity even mean
Despair always lurk, my mind is never clean
The wind blows far from me
Yeah, the wind blows far from me

I have been here before, I have walked these streets
Time did me wrong, tricked me into the rabbit hole
I dragged that boat ashore, I walked among the elites
My mind did me wrong, tricked my own beliefs
The wind blows far from me
Yeah, the wind blows far from me

A tired man in dire needs
I searched for love, hoped it could help me heal
Love was not enough, nothing would shake my thoughts
The devil still in my dreams, finally turning real
My hand held a bluff, nothing left but oughts
Times are getting tough, tied up in homemade knots
The wind blows far from me
Yeah, the wind blows far from me

All seemed so gold
Before that shivering cold
Left me nothing left to hold
The wind blew far from me
yeah, the wind blew far from me