[Verse 1]
She lit a match in the back of my chest
smoke curling in places I thought were clean
I told myself I was stronger than this
but her eyes pulled me right through the floor
[Verse 2]
Every word felt like thunder disguised as rain
and I stayed outside just to taste it
My pulse forgot its steady job
started running like it had somewhere new to be
[Pre-Chorus]
I said no,
but the no never made it past my teeth
[Chorus]
Jezebel, Je, Je, Jezebel
I fall when you breathe
you tear down the walls I built
I’m yours even when I swear I’m not
I surrender in the dark
Je je je Jezebel
[break]
[Verse 3]
The room felt smaller,
but somehow I could breathe for the first time in months
Her voice cracked like vinyl spinning too long
and I wanted to live inside that break
[Verse 4]
Every shadow leaned forward to listen
and I forgot what silence was made of
The hour was late, but my hands wouldn’t rest
they wanted to learn her language by touch
[Pre-Chorus]
I said no,
but the no never made it past my teeth
[Chorus]
Jezebel, Je, Je, Jezebel
I fall when you breathe
you tear down the walls I built
I’m yours even when I swear I’m not
I surrender in the dark
Je je je Jezebel
[Bridge]
There’s no clean way to write this down
No clean way to tell you
I loved losing, I loved the collapse
and if regret comes tomorrow, let it
tonight was mine
[End Chorus]
Jezebel, Je, Je, Jezebel
I fall when you breathe
you tear down the walls I built
I’m yours even when I swear I’m not
I surrender in the dark
Je je je Jezebel
[Verse 1]
You walk through this place
like I’m not even there
I guess I’m not surprised
I stopped mattering somewhere
[Verse 2]
Last night I stood beside you
and tried to start a fight
but even my anger
couldn’t make you look twice
[Pre-Chorus]
I hate this feeling...
feeling like a ghost
[Chorus]
It's so lonely
so lonely
in this crowded house
you look right through me
right through me
like I'm already gone
I reach for you
but you don’t reach back
[post chorus]
I’m still here
[break]
[Verse 3]
I sit beside you
while you chat with others
I nod and laugh along
like maybe I still matter
[Verse 4]
I’m so tired of pretending
that I am doing fine
I laugh when I have to
then go dead inside
[Pre-Chorus]
I hate this feeling...
feeling like a ghost
[Chorus]
It's so lonely
so lonely
in this crowded house
you look right through me
right through me
like I'm already gone
I reach for you
but you don’t reach back
[post chorus]
I’m still here
[Bridge]
Maybe I could disappear
and you wouldn’t know
I don’t want attention
I just want you to see
that I’ve been standing here
barely holding onto me
[Chorus]
It's so lonely
so lonely
in this crowded house
you look right through me
right through me
like I'm already gone
I reach for you
but you don’t reach back
[post chorus]
I’m still here
[Outro]
I’m a ghost
you never saw me
I’m a ghost
just a ghost
[verse]
I came in torn and bruised
Vitals in the red
The metal taste of blood on my tongue
Breath slowing down
[verse]
Then you strolled in
and held my hands
Told me everything would be alright
Somehow, I believed you
[pre-chorus]
You said, stay with me now
Let the alarms go off
We’ll reset what went wrong
[chorus]
I'm in
Cri Cri, critical condition
My numbers were falling
Alarm bells going off
Then you came in like a da da doctor
No cape, no miracle pills
Just hands that steadied my pulse and words that made sense
You got me all fixed up, and living
And living feels wild enough
[break]
[verse]
I carried the pain for too long
Thought my heart was finished
Tried to walk like nothing was wrong
But the scars kept coming back
[verse]
You found the pulse beneath it
Taped up the broken pieces
Told me a simple practice
Breathe in slow when it gets bad
[pre-chorus]
You said, stay with me now
Let the alarms go off
We’ll reset what went wrong
[chorus]
I'm in
Cri Cri, critical condition
My numbers were falling
Alarm bells going off
Then you came in like a da da doctor
No cape, no miracle pills
Just hands that steadied my pulse and words that made sense
You got me all fixed up, and living
And living feels wild enough
[bridge]
Some days the scars argue back
I let them finish
Then I reach for your lessons
Press them to the ache until it loosens
[chorus]
I'm in
Cri Cri, critical condition
My numbers were falling
Alarm bells going off
Then you came in like a da da doctor
No cape, no miracle pills
Just hands that steadied my pulse and words that made sense
You got me all fixed up, and living
And living feels wild enough
[outro chorus]
Critical condition... past tense now
You came in like a doctor and stayed
You shut the alarm bells off
You got me well enough to feel the rush of normal
And tonight my heartbeat signs the discharge
[Verse 1]
She lit a match in the back of my chest
smoke curling in places I thought were clean
I told myself I was stronger than this
but her eyes pulled me right through the floor
[Verse 2]
Every word felt like thunder disguised as rain
and I stayed outside just to taste it
My pulse forgot its steady job
started running like it had somewhere new to be
[Pre-Chorus]
I said no,
but the no never made it past my teeth
[Chorus]
Jezebel, Je, Je, Jezebel
I fall when you breathe
you tear down the walls I built
I’m yours even when I swear I’m not
I surrender in the dark
Je je je Jezebel
[break]
[Verse 3]
The room felt smaller,
but somehow I could breathe for the first time in months
Her voice cracked like vinyl spinning too long
and I wanted to live inside that break
[Verse 4]
Every shadow leaned forward to listen
and I forgot what silence was made of
The hour was late, but my hands wouldn’t rest
they wanted to learn her language by touch
[Pre-Chorus]
I said no,
but the no never made it past my teeth
[Chorus]
Jezebel, Je, Je, Jezebel
I fall when you breathe
you tear down the walls I built
I’m yours even when I swear I’m not
I surrender in the dark
Je je je Jezebel
[Bridge]
There’s no clean way to write this down
No clean way to tell you
I loved losing, I loved the collapse
and if regret comes tomorrow, let it
tonight was mine
[End Chorus]
Jezebel, Je, Je, Jezebel
I fall when you breathe
you tear down the walls I built
I’m yours even when I swear I’m not
I surrender in the dark
Je je je Jezebel
[Verse 1]
You walk through this place
like I’m not even there
I guess I’m not surprised
I stopped mattering somewhere
[Verse 2]
Last night I stood beside you
and tried to start a fight
but even my anger
couldn’t make you look twice
[Pre-Chorus]
I hate this feeling...
feeling like a ghost
[Chorus]
It's so lonely
so lonely
in this crowded house
you look right through me
right through me
like I'm already gone
I reach for you
but you don’t reach back
[post chorus]
I’m still here
[break]
[Verse 3]
I sit beside you
while you chat with others
I nod and laugh along
like maybe I still matter
[Verse 4]
I’m so tired of pretending
that I am doing fine
I laugh when I have to
then go dead inside
[Pre-Chorus]
I hate this feeling...
feeling like a ghost
[Chorus]
It's so lonely
so lonely
in this crowded house
you look right through me
right through me
like I'm already gone
I reach for you
but you don’t reach back
[post chorus]
I’m still here
[Bridge]
Maybe I could disappear
and you wouldn’t know
I don’t want attention
I just want you to see
that I’ve been standing here
barely holding onto me
[Chorus]
It's so lonely
so lonely
in this crowded house
you look right through me
right through me
like I'm already gone
I reach for you
but you don’t reach back
[post chorus]
I’m still here
[Outro]
I’m a ghost
you never saw me
I’m a ghost
just a ghost
[verse]
I came in torn and bruised
Vitals in the red
The metal taste of blood on my tongue
Breath slowing down
[verse]
Then you strolled in
and held my hands
Told me everything would be alright
Somehow, I believed you
[pre-chorus]
You said, stay with me now
Let the alarms go off
We’ll reset what went wrong
[chorus]
I'm in
Cri Cri, critical condition
My numbers were falling
Alarm bells going off
Then you came in like a da da doctor
No cape, no miracle pills
Just hands that steadied my pulse and words that made sense
You got me all fixed up, and living
And living feels wild enough
[break]
[verse]
I carried the pain for too long
Thought my heart was finished
Tried to walk like nothing was wrong
But the scars kept coming back
[verse]
You found the pulse beneath it
Taped up the broken pieces
Told me a simple practice
Breathe in slow when it gets bad
[pre-chorus]
You said, stay with me now
Let the alarms go off
We’ll reset what went wrong
[chorus]
I'm in
Cri Cri, critical condition
My numbers were falling
Alarm bells going off
Then you came in like a da da doctor
No cape, no miracle pills
Just hands that steadied my pulse and words that made sense
You got me all fixed up, and living
And living feels wild enough
[bridge]
Some days the scars argue back
I let them finish
Then I reach for your lessons
Press them to the ache until it loosens
[chorus]
I'm in
Cri Cri, critical condition
My numbers were falling
Alarm bells going off
Then you came in like a da da doctor
No cape, no miracle pills
Just hands that steadied my pulse and words that made sense
You got me all fixed up, and living
And living feels wild enough
[outro chorus]
Critical condition... past tense now
You came in like a doctor and stayed
You shut the alarm bells off
You got me well enough to feel the rush of normal
And tonight my heartbeat signs the discharge
[Verse 1]
I packed your letters in a box
Along with the photos we took
Felt like I was digging a grave
But I had to walk away
[Verse 2]
You didn’t say, “don’t go”
You just looked down at your phone
Like I hadn’t just said
I love you
[Pre-Chorus]
I tried not to cry in front of you
But my voice cracked anyway
[Chorus]
So, I buried my heart
Like a treasure no one will find
Somewhere deep, where even I
Can’t remember the way back
Locked it up, left no map
Just dirt and heartbreak
And the sound of me
Leaving
[Break]
[Verse 3]
I still reach for my phone at night
Waiting for the text you’d send
Like you might still change your mind
But nothing ever came
[Verse 4]
I hate how you haunt
Every love that comes too close
Like a ghost I never
Asked to follow me
[Pre-Chorus]
I smiled through the goodbye
But my chest was caving in
[Chorus]
So, I buried my heart
Like a treasure no one will find
Somewhere deep, where even I
Can’t remember the way back
Locked it up, left no map
Just dirt and heartbreak
And the sound of me
Leaving
[Bridge]
Maybe one day I’ll dig it up
Dust off the pieces
Hold it like it’s mine again
But not tonight
[End Chorus]
I buried my heart
Like a secret under the floor
Where your name can’t hurt me anymore
No flowers, no cross
Just the war I lost
And a hole
I don’t plan to return to
[Verse 1]
I keep thinking about you
but I hate that I do
I leave the light on
like you’re coming over
that’s stupid
I know it
[Verse 2]
I miss the ugly little things
that you do
your empty cans on my floor
leaving the toilet seat up
your laugh when you lied
and said you were fine
[Chorus]
I hate that I want you
I hate that I need you
but just put your hand where it used to go
I don’t need forever
don’t promise me that
just make it real
for one night
like it used to be
[Break]
[Verse 3]
My heart does this thing
where it stops for a second
when someone walks like you
or talks like you
or says something
almost cruel enough
[Verse 4]
I’ve been pretending
that you no longer matter
I’m better at leaving
but baby I’m bad at it
really bad
[Chorus]
I hate that I want you
I hate that I need you
but just put your hand where it used to go
I don’t need forever
don’t promise me that
just make it real
for one night
like it used to be
[Bridge]
I heard your voice
on the radio
how sad is that?
I laughed
then I cried a little
then I got mad
because I knew
you’d know exactly
what that means
[Final Chorus]
I want your love
I hate how that sounds
I hate how much of me
still turns around
when nothing is there
come close
or don’t
say something
or ruin me quietly
just make it real
one more time
like it used to be
[Verse 1]
She lit a match in the back of my chest
smoke curling in places I thought were clean
I told myself I was stronger than this
but her eyes pulled me right through the floor
[Verse 2]
Every word felt like thunder disguised as rain
and I stayed outside just to taste it
My pulse forgot its steady job
started running like it had somewhere new to be
[Pre-Chorus]
I said no,
but the no never made it past my teeth
[Chorus]
Jezebel, Je, Je, Jezebel
I fall when you breathe
you tear down the walls I built
I’m yours even when I swear I’m not
I surrender in the dark
Je je je Jezebel
[break]
[Verse 3]
The room felt smaller,
but somehow I could breathe for the first time in months
Her voice cracked like vinyl spinning too long
and I wanted to live inside that break
[Verse 4]
Every shadow leaned forward to listen
and I forgot what silence was made of
The hour was late, but my hands wouldn’t rest
they wanted to learn her language by touch
[Pre-Chorus]
I said no,
but the no never made it past my teeth
[Chorus]
Jezebel, Je, Je, Jezebel
I fall when you breathe
you tear down the walls I built
I’m yours even when I swear I’m not
I surrender in the dark
Je je je Jezebel
[Bridge]
There’s no clean way to write this down
No clean way to tell you
I loved losing, I loved the collapse
and if regret comes tomorrow, let it
tonight was mine
[End Chorus]
Jezebel, Je, Je, Jezebel
I fall when you breathe
you tear down the walls I built
I’m yours even when I swear I’m not
I surrender in the dark
Je je je Jezebel
[Verse 1]
You walk through this place
like I’m not even there
I guess I’m not surprised
I stopped mattering somewhere
[Verse 2]
Last night I stood beside you
and tried to start a fight
but even my anger
couldn’t make you look twice
[Pre-Chorus]
I hate this feeling...
feeling like a ghost
[Chorus]
It's so lonely
so lonely
in this crowded house
you look right through me
right through me
like I'm already gone
I reach for you
but you don’t reach back
[post chorus]
I’m still here
[break]
[Verse 3]
I sit beside you
while you chat with others
I nod and laugh along
like maybe I still matter
[Verse 4]
I’m so tired of pretending
that I am doing fine
I laugh when I have to
then go dead inside
[Pre-Chorus]
I hate this feeling...
feeling like a ghost
[Chorus]
It's so lonely
so lonely
in this crowded house
you look right through me
right through me
like I'm already gone
I reach for you
but you don’t reach back
[post chorus]
I’m still here
[Bridge]
Maybe I could disappear
and you wouldn’t know
I don’t want attention
I just want you to see
that I’ve been standing here
barely holding onto me
[Chorus]
It's so lonely
so lonely
in this crowded house
you look right through me
right through me
like I'm already gone
I reach for you
but you don’t reach back
[post chorus]
I’m still here
[Outro]
I’m a ghost
you never saw me
I’m a ghost
just a ghost
[verse]
I came in torn and bruised
Vitals in the red
The metal taste of blood on my tongue
Breath slowing down
[verse]
Then you strolled in
and held my hands
Told me everything would be alright
Somehow, I believed you
[pre-chorus]
You said, stay with me now
Let the alarms go off
We’ll reset what went wrong
[chorus]
I'm in
Cri Cri, critical condition
My numbers were falling
Alarm bells going off
Then you came in like a da da doctor
No cape, no miracle pills
Just hands that steadied my pulse and words that made sense
You got me all fixed up, and living
And living feels wild enough
[break]
[verse]
I carried the pain for too long
Thought my heart was finished
Tried to walk like nothing was wrong
But the scars kept coming back
[verse]
You found the pulse beneath it
Taped up the broken pieces
Told me a simple practice
Breathe in slow when it gets bad
[pre-chorus]
You said, stay with me now
Let the alarms go off
We’ll reset what went wrong
[chorus]
I'm in
Cri Cri, critical condition
My numbers were falling
Alarm bells going off
Then you came in like a da da doctor
No cape, no miracle pills
Just hands that steadied my pulse and words that made sense
You got me all fixed up, and living
And living feels wild enough
[bridge]
Some days the scars argue back
I let them finish
Then I reach for your lessons
Press them to the ache until it loosens
[chorus]
I'm in
Cri Cri, critical condition
My numbers were falling
Alarm bells going off
Then you came in like a da da doctor
No cape, no miracle pills
Just hands that steadied my pulse and words that made sense
You got me all fixed up, and living
And living feels wild enough
[outro chorus]
Critical condition... past tense now
You came in like a doctor and stayed
You shut the alarm bells off
You got me well enough to feel the rush of normal
And tonight my heartbeat signs the discharge
[Verse 1]
I packed your letters in a box
Along with the photos we took
Felt like I was digging a grave
But I had to walk away
[Verse 2]
You didn’t say, “don’t go”
You just looked down at your phone
Like I hadn’t just said
I love you
[Pre-Chorus]
I tried not to cry in front of you
But my voice cracked anyway
[Chorus]
So, I buried my heart
Like a treasure no one will find
Somewhere deep, where even I
Can’t remember the way back
Locked it up, left no map
Just dirt and heartbreak
And the sound of me
Leaving
[Break]
[Verse 3]
I still reach for my phone at night
Waiting for the text you’d send
Like you might still change your mind
But nothing ever came
[Verse 4]
I hate how you haunt
Every love that comes too close
Like a ghost I never
Asked to follow me
[Pre-Chorus]
I smiled through the goodbye
But my chest was caving in
[Chorus]
So, I buried my heart
Like a treasure no one will find
Somewhere deep, where even I
Can’t remember the way back
Locked it up, left no map
Just dirt and heartbreak
And the sound of me
Leaving
[Bridge]
Maybe one day I’ll dig it up
Dust off the pieces
Hold it like it’s mine again
But not tonight
[End Chorus]
I buried my heart
Like a secret under the floor
Where your name can’t hurt me anymore
No flowers, no cross
Just the war I lost
And a hole
I don’t plan to return to
[Verse 1]
I keep thinking about you
but I hate that I do
I leave the light on
like you’re coming over
that’s stupid
I know it
[Verse 2]
I miss the ugly little things
that you do
your empty cans on my floor
leaving the toilet seat up
your laugh when you lied
and said you were fine
[Chorus]
I hate that I want you
I hate that I need you
but just put your hand where it used to go
I don’t need forever
don’t promise me that
just make it real
for one night
like it used to be
[Break]
[Verse 3]
My heart does this thing
where it stops for a second
when someone walks like you
or talks like you
or says something
almost cruel enough
[Verse 4]
I’ve been pretending
that you no longer matter
I’m better at leaving
but baby I’m bad at it
really bad
[Chorus]
I hate that I want you
I hate that I need you
but just put your hand where it used to go
I don’t need forever
don’t promise me that
just make it real
for one night
like it used to be
[Bridge]
I heard your voice
on the radio
how sad is that?
I laughed
then I cried a little
then I got mad
because I knew
you’d know exactly
what that means
[Final Chorus]
I want your love
I hate how that sounds
I hate how much of me
still turns around
when nothing is there
come close
or don’t
say something
or ruin me quietly
just make it real
one more time
like it used to be
I’m a songwriter and lyricist creating dark pop and emotional pop. My songs normally focus on heartache, loneliness, love, and the emotional spaces people do not always know how to say out loud, but I do write other genres as well. I write with a mix of personal feeling and modern sound.
