MUSIC FOR SALE

(Verse 1)
When I was young the alcohol was talking
You told me then to stop calling you Mommy
So I granted your wish and called you by your name
Just like everyone else I joined in the game
It didn't sit right it wasn't how I felt inside
A stubborn habit at nine that I held onto tight
Even when the forgiveness came and the spirits dried up
I spent the rest of my days saying your name
I kept that distance in a bitter cup
Kept that distance in a bitter cup

(Verse 2)
I kept myself busy those last few months when it was tough
Pretending what was in front of me wasn't really what’s up
When you said well howdy stranger it meant you wanted more time with me
But I’d just check the boxes and guard my own line
Asking if you ate or if you needed a thing
Kept both feet out for a quick escape
Never imagining the day I opened your door
I would never hear your beautiful voice anymore

(Chorus)
And it is so hard to move on and I cannot forget
Things left unsaid drowning in a keg of regret
Up to that hard to get through day
When I heard you say it is Mom I’m ok

(Verse 3)
It was so hard for you to find a breath
Every day lived was a day you cheated death
Watching your light slowly fade was the worst kind of theft
You were never a burden I just could not face
Your light fading in that quiet space
I catch a drift of your Chanel Number Five
And I miss your everything
I miss your warm hugs, the I love you's, and how your brown eyes lights your face up
Now in my mind your smile is frozen in time when I close my eyes

(Bridge)
Maybe it's the grief or those words you once said
But you announced your presence which I never thought I’d hear again
It was the correct key for the right hole
It opened the door and it saved my soul
Knowing your peace was a beautiful gift
And I felt the heavy weight start to lift

(Chorus Repeats)

(Outro)
Then a thought turned my world around
Maybe you just wanted me to stand on my own ground
To call you Mom because I was growing up
But I was so young and I took it wrong
Now I understand what you were trying to say
When I heard you say it is Mom I'm ok

No longer dwelling on past mistakes we made
I love you Mom I am ok
Now I’m throwing that old cup away