LYRIC FOR SALE

By LELE

you look like the best of nightmares
tracks me, preys on me in the dark
i’m too self aware
sarcasm used to block it off
and i should run for the hills
but it’s too steep and i know i love the thrill

why can’t i just entertain myself
with what i’m allowed to have
instead of wishing for the forbidden,
what was proven to be bad?
it’s not explicitly wrong
but it’s definitely convoluted
can i just do it?

you’ve got a history
that i know so thoroughly of
i got no doubt
about how deeply you can hurt
i was a shoulder to cry once
for those you slit
for wanting you between my hips
am i a hypocrite?

a ghost from someone else’s past
you smile with your smoky eyes at me
you chose to haunt me instead
it all feels like a fxxxing fever dream
and i should run for the hills
‘cause if i stay i might end up getting myself killed

why can’t i just entertain myself
with what i’m allowed to have
instead of wishing for the forbidden,
what was proven to be bad?
it’s not explicitly wrong
but it’s definitely convoluted
shit i’m doing it

you’ve got a history
that i know so thoroughly of
i got no doubt
about how deeply you can hurt
i was a shoulder to cry once
for those you slit
for wanting you between my hips
am i a hypocrite?

don’t confuse this with a confession
this is a cry for help
a sick and twisted unlikely obsession
now i’m definitely going to hell
and i don’t usually go for men
so i got no clue how it ends
and i’m not good at making amends
is this worth it losing a friend… over?

am i hypocrite? (am i?)
am i hypocrite? (am i?)
am i hypocrite? (am i?)
am i hypocrite? (am i?)
am i hypocrite? (am i?)
am i hypocrite? (am i?)

history
that i know so thoroughly of
i got no doubt
about how deeply you can hurt
i was a shoulder to cry once
for those you slit
for having you between my hips
was i a hypocrite?