LYRIC FOR SALE

By Theresa Astrea

Verse 1
I was all open window
No lock, no chain
Mistook attention
For something true again
Laid my whole heart down
Like it had no name
Wore it like love
Till it felt like pain

Verse 2
Too quick to the deep end
Too calm on the ledge
I made myself smaller
To soften the edge
Poured out like water
Till the river was dry
Kept giving and giving
Till I was hollow inside

Chorus
I’m still afraid
But I go anyway
Out of my head
Where it’s safer to stay
I’m still afraid
But you pull at my heart
Where I have to be brave
Without coming apart

Verse 3
Solitude found me
Silent and bare
No one to reach for
No one was there
Just shadow and sunlight
Still meeting me there
And in the silence
I found my prayer

Verse 4
Now confidence moves quiet
Steady and low
Soul-deep steps
Only my spirit knows
The choices still cut
But I know what I know
What breaks in the dark
Is rebuilt in the soul

Chorus
I’m still afraid
But I go anyway
Out of my head
Where it’s safer to stay
I’m still afraid
But you pull at my heart
Where I have to be brave
Without coming apart

Bridge
Vulnerability
Was never weak
It takes more strength
To stand in truth
The ego dies hard
When the heart cuts through
What breaks you slow
Is betraying you

Final Chorus
I’m still afraid
But I go anyway
Out of my head
Where it’s safer to stay
I’m still afraid
But you pull at my heart
Where I have to be brave
Without coming apart