I Don't Hate It
By Theresa Astrea
VERSE 1
I chose the quiet, chose my own north,
No one was worthy, so I stayed my worth.
I locked my chest like a coded door,
Swore I was done—wanted nothing more.
Then you showed up like sudden sun,
Woke what I buried, undid what I’d done.
Wolves in the snow started waking up—
And I laughed like, “well… I don’t hate it.”
CHORUS
You shook the dust off the locks within — I don’t hate it,
You turned my quiet back into skin — I don’t hate it,
I don’t need saving, I saved my name — I don’t hate it,
But you bring heat without bringing shame — I don’t hate it,
So if it ends before it starts, I’m still all in — I don’t hate it,
’Cause you woke the wild I buried in — I don’t hate it,
And if you leave like the rest might do — I don’t hate it,
You made me remember what life can do — I don’t hate it.
VERSE 2
You chased me steady, no tricks, no act,
Kept your feet true on a faithful track.
I ran, I stalled, I tested the thread,
You stayed right there like, “not dead yet.”
I kept my crown on a razor line,
You chased me hard, but you gave me time.
That kind of patience? That kind of grace?
Yeah… it rewrote the room in my ribcage.
VERSE 3
I feared your staying more than your touch,
Feared you deciding I’m simply too much.
But you kept coming, calm and sure,
Like you weren’t scared of my weather anymore.
So I let the moment open wide,
Let hope roll in like a rising tide.
Not a fairytale—just something true,
And it felt like breath I forgot I knew.
BRIDGE
If you can’t hold me when storms get loud,
I’ll keep the heat you pulled from stone.
A lantern matters even when it’s gone—
It showed me I’m not alone.
FINAL CHORUS
You shook the dust off the locks within — I don’t hate it,
You turned my quiet back into skin — I don’t hate it,
I don’t need saving, I saved my name — I don’t hate it,
But you bring heat without bringing shame — I don’t hate it,
So if it ends before it starts, I’m still all in — I don’t hate it,
’Cause you woke the wild I buried in — I don’t hate it,
And if you leave like the rest might do — I don’t hate it,
You made me remember what life can do — I don’t hate it.
