Dorcas Onuh

I can’t move my mind
Or allow my heart to feel
Anything or travel anywhere
Oh Oh Oh stuck in a limbo burn

This hurt has got me paralyzed but I wouldn’t move anyway
These tears running down my cheeks I can’t see
Emotions bottled up, not ready to punch glasses
Not ready for another broken heart
Tis fear of a nightmare again

You figured I love myself too much,
Is why I build wall within pretense?
I thought it had something to do with you being different
Oh no, slowly cuddling to ground zero
Just like everybody else, you warned me about

I know I love too much
A huge burden to heart and soul
When all these frustrations and sorrows that I gather,
Are winning to overwhelm a sometime innocence
Oh how I’ve mastered to run or take on someone else

I need to be simple like art
Glow of its bright lights and colours of marvel
I want to be the only stage fit for a fine actor’s display
The writer’s eyes glittering as I light up
Mirrors me and keeps me, keep me from tears closing to my heart

Is that too much pretense for an audience waiting?

Bridge:
I can’t move; I can’t travel. Oh pretense, no pretending. Please save me from getting burnt again.

CHORUS:
It got deeper, deeper
Last night
It got deeper, deeper
Last night wrapped inside your arms

Yes I realise we can’t just walk away,
Run away from our behind
Why deny a shadow its other kind
Oh a fortune cookie told it all
A heart will skip a beat

I know I have been a mess these past few years
I know that you could choose to go and it will be right
Oh I make it so hard to trust me, trust me
Baby It is getting really hard to destroy
A heart ready to let go

Bridge: My feet got stuck on exit. And it goes deeper, deeper, and deeper in.
Hold on tight. Sweet journey to the very end 'nd

The stars are yet to meet us,
Ye while we crawled and crawled until this moment
Will you take my hand, Will you?
Let us do this together, Shall we?
Make a home, make a home grow wild

Chorus:
Oh I have never felt any stronger
Yes I am free
This freedom never even dreamt about
Oh I am free now to relive

I could tell you about this new fire in me
A truth I searched only to find it now
Before now I was angry, so angry
Yet pretending and in denial living a lie
But now I know it is okay
Because I’m free to let my pains out loud

I always wanted to fix everything
Bla la la ..all about the troubles I would inflict me
Now I understand it is okay not to sometimes try
I can be the best thing to happen to anyone
But is anyone the best thing to happen to me?

My sister once told me, Deey the world is a selfish place
And because I had listened only with my own eyes
I didn’t understand what she was trying to warn me about
While I soiled the earth with faith
Until a trap that chained me down

Maybe I have been broken one too many times
Maybe I joined hands in creating my own demons
Even the reason I would give up a hope on people
But now I know it is okay, I am alive
I’m free to walk out a downward path