Hector V. Olson

Look to the sky
To find where I belong
I can’t grasp
A life that’s gone
Blown away to fast
But to stay with me for so long

Chorus

How can something
Feel so helpless
So scared
So breathless
Can’t piece together
I can’t handle
So unreal
So fragile

V2
The eyes that look back
You can’t see past
No one can conceive
The breath taken last
The little boy cries
Never to open his eyes

Chorus

Bridge
Visions, I can’t bare
Like I felt that pain
Thoughts
That can’t be shared

Or even explained
Images that will remain
Choke me
from the inside

Chorus

Lay to waste,
In silence
To never be tasted
Mindless
Hollowed space
Their place to cry,
Without a trace,
To die

Chorus
Blank
Is the mind
Stuck inside
Itself
Blank
As the soul
Staring back
Mocking me

V2
The silence
In my head
Is terrifying
But welcomed
Those voices
Uncontrollable
Trying to seep
Through the cracks

Chorus

Bridge
The darkness
Behind closed eyes
Is the farthest I can feel
From the silence

Seeing things with open eyes.
Not worth being muzzled.
Every thought cares less than the next.
So this is where they hide away.

So Much
Just Losing touch

Chorus

I’ve done something wrong
I did something wrong, I know
I frightened you
By fighting you
You’ll get what you need
I never disappoint

So go ahead and take it all the way out on me now
An easy target up close
And behind me
A chasm self-created

Chorus
Kill the voices in your head
You’ll forget what they said
Instead of trying to repent
Take a knife to the windpipe
Dead

V2
It’s not right of you
Though happy to isolate
Maybe your right now
To thankfully separate

Behind phones and quarantines
Been screaming Pandemic for years
I want the panic, I want the fear
Need the tears

Chorus
Paranoia fed
Lead them all to bed
The Fear and anger wed
And all that is red, bleed

Bridge
Silent Relief
Violent Release
Silent Relief
Violent Release
Silent Relief (Scream)
Violent Release (Scream)
Silent Relief (Scream)
Violent Release (Scream)

Take that selfie
Maybe use that mirror
And Self assess
Take a selfie
Turn it on yourself
Self assess
Stay Inside

Stay Inside
Stay Inside
Scatter and hide, Scatter and hide
Scatter and hide, Scatter and hide

Reprise
I’d done something wrong
I know I did something wrong

Chorus
Kill the voices in my head
Lead them all to bed
The deafening death of me
Knife to the windpipe, Dead

Broken, Maladjusted, Run down
Bruises and Scars all around

A wink and a kiss
Choke the ever-loving piss
Out of the breath of innocence

Chorus
Sick of life and all its
Harsh stares and blind wonder
To the hollow and wretched

The uncontrollable downpour.
The mindless dribble
Affects the Ripple

V2
Feeding on the orphans in baby dolls bottle
Uncovered, uncircumcised, smothered

We would love nothing more than
To see you hop on the good foot again
And rip the child from the mothered

Chorus
Sick of life and all its
Harsh stares and blind wonder
To the hollow and wretched
The uncontrollable downpour.
The mindless dribble
Affects the Ripple

Bridge
The crawling maggots! 4X

::Whispers::
Pants pool around your ankles
Hands red and slip hung
Around your throat

But through your teeth
Lie until they chew inside your tongue

Chorus
Sick of life and all its
Harsh stares and blind wonder
To the hollow and wretched
The uncontrollable downpour.
The mindless dribble
Affects the Ripple

Empty face
Empty taste

True colors seen in black and white
They are written on these walls
The loneliness of silence is seen through
Picture frames of the smiling tampered heart

Chorus
When blind eyes fall
On locked doors
And broken windows
We hear you, we see you
Shards of glass
Thin and shattered
We feel you
Stay in the dark

V2
We can’t keep you here forever
Words only cracks the very surface
Tie-toe about; avoiding egg shells
Treading so softly on forgotten grounds

Chorus
When blind eyes fall
On locked doors
And broken windows
We hear you, we see you
Shards of glass
Thin and shattered
We feel you
Stay in the dark

Bridge
I won’t question
No suggestion,
I’ll just sleep; I’ll just leave

The second guessing to you
Till I’m found underground
It’s not just what you say, it’s what you keep

Chorus
When blind eyes fall
On locked doors
And broken windows
We hear you, we see you
Shards of glass
Thin and shattered
We feel you
Stay in the dark

Let’s go under
To where it’s not safe to breathe
We’ll sink to the depths
And drown this scene

Hands pressed
On the glass
Leaving only my breath
On what has come to pass

Chorus
I can’t see her like this
In better shape than me
So won’t you join us
In my tragedy

Before you leave
Be the devil she can’t see
Be that catastrophe
Be what I couldn’t be

V2
Play the fool for me
For as long as I been fooling myself
It’s just the next thing
On top of everything else

Never thought twice before
So never mind how you feel
You won’t know what hit her
Hope it breaks the seal

Chorus
I can’t see her like this
In better shape than me
So won’t you join us
In my tragedy

Before you leave
Be the devil she can’t see
Be that catastrophe
Be what I couldn’t be

RIFF

Chorus
I won’t see her like this
In better shape than me
So please join us
In my tragedy

Before you leave
Be the devil she can’t see
Be that catastrophe
Be what I couldn’t be

V3
Now let’s come up for air
I hope it dug deep
But I came up for air
You and her play for keeps

Black cats tip-toe the line.
Under ladders,
Over broken Mirrors.
To where the words are found dead thereafter

You are all that’s left
When the bottles empty
And I'm all out of excuses
As hope eludes me

Chorus
Would you trust you?
If we, were you?! Exactly
I wouldn’t trust you too
Trust me trust you

V2
The dust of an angel’s lust
Is the stink in the air
Smile upon the wreckage
Just to say that I was there

Took the time
To say farewell, backhandedly
Judged side by side
You'd fall through the clouds and debris

Chorus
Would you trust you?
If we, were you?! Exactly
I wouldn’t trust you too
Trust me Trust you

Bridge
Whip your hair around
A world of pearls I present
All your reward represents
All I resent

This is the gray matter
Of my morality, my love
How would I ever know I'm alive
If I never picked at the scars?

Chorus
Would you trust you?
If we, were you?! Exactly
I wouldn’t trust you too
Trust me trust you

Reprise
How would you know if you were alive?
If you never pick at the scars?

I’ll stay
So long as you play along
Because I’ll take the slightest feeling
In a heartbeat

Chorus
Every day’s a constant reminder
Everything you say’s a constant reminder
Memories fade into constant reminders
And I can’t
Just can’t

V2
How am I reduced to this?
But For now
Pictures darken
Into shadows

Chorus
With every song, a constant reminder
The seconds gone are constant reminders
Where I went wrong, Constant reminders
And I can’t
Just can’t

Bridge
Cause’ it’s not fair; It’s not fair
I only stare
At what’s not there
No, It’s not fair

Chorus
Words gone cold are constant reminders
Truths untold are constant reminders
Lies unfold these constant reminders
And I can’t, just can’t

Reprise
And it’s not fair; Oh, it’s not fair
That I’m not there
And you don’t care
No, It’s not fair