Jimmy Larkin

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Jimmy Larkin

I can't pretend it doesn't still hurt
A man addicted to pain considers death a comfort
I know I've made mistakes but I'm only human
Some can't understand, I thought I knew them
Overthinking is such a disease
Cannot the heavens of serenity grant me peace?

Believable lies, I try not to listen
But my mind is worse than a prison
I'm so lost and out of place, how
Can I be found without a trace now?
You can't relive or change the past
Life's too short so make your peace at last

Show me a cross and I'll turn it upside down
Lay me before it and I'll burn it to the ground
Believe in the faith you live with
Blissful denial that God is a myth
Pray every prayer while you kneel
'Cause Heaven is fake and Hell is real

There's too many things I haven't admitted
Secrets so dark I should die with it
I tried to wait but you're out of time
These are confessions of a broken mind
There's too many things I haven't admitted
If you knew half of them, you'd have me committed
I tried to wait but you crossed the line
These are confessions of a dangerous mind

Tortured by jealous visions
I'm glad you burned the bridges
Forgetting as much as I can
I never wanna see you again
Before I get you out of my mind
I just wanna fxxx you one more time

Give me a cross and I'll break it in half
Show me a sign and I'll just let it pass
I don't know how much longer I can wait
You are the ghost that just won't go away
"Went Down Fighting" engraved on my tombstone
'Cause this is one war I can't win alone

There's too many things I haven't admitted
Secrets so dark I should die with it
I tried to wait but you're out of time
These are confessions of a broken mind
There's too many things I haven't admitted
If you knew half of them, you'd have me committed
I tried to wait but you crossed the line
These are confessions of a dangerous mind

I saved you
Was it for my own good?
I praised you
You never understood
I betrayed you
I never thought I would
I hate you
I never thought I could

There's too many things I haven't admitted
Secrets so dark I should die with it
I tried to wait but you're out of time
These are confessions of a broken mind
There's too many things I haven't admitted
If you knew half of them, you'd have me committed
I tried to wait but you crossed the line
These are confessions of a dangerous mind

Confessions of a Dangerous Mind

There's a poison rotting in your brain
Unlike the ice running through my veins
It must be nice to walk on air
Foolish of me to think you cared
It's not my fault you can't walk away
Is your image worth the price you pay?

I can't believe I looked up to you
Should've known it wouldn't last
My biggest mistake was trusting you
All it did was bite me in the ass

You sold your soul to the devil
A coward on the highest level
While I was bleeding and taking the hits
You were busy being a self-righteous prick
Took you long enough to be done with me
You're the one who needs a fifty one fifty

There's still so much to be done
But you're not the only one
I was so grateful
You made me shameful
I'm so glad you killed yourself quietly
'Cause you would've been the death of me

Leave us behind if you think it's right
Must be hard when your demons won't go away
Dream of being able to sleep at night
Choke on your words 'cause there's nothing more to say

You sold your soul to the devil
A coward on the highest level
While I was bleeding and taking the hits
You were busy being a self-righteous prick
Took you long enough to be done with me
You're the one who needs a fifty one fifty

Your own entity
Defying gravity
Expectations overflowing with prestige
The world under you
Compassion overdue
Flawless credibility is your wet dream

You sold your soul to the devil
A coward on the highest level
While I was bleeding and taking the hits
You were busy being a self-righteous prick
Took you long enough to be done with me
You're the one who needs a fifty one fifty

Fifty One Fifty

Always there, never for love
Ghost of the demons that I dream of
You wanna be close while miles apart
Blunt force trauma to my heart
Helpless and scared in what I've been through
Why would you care? It's not about you

You are the voice, in my head
You are the noise, that I dread
You have no choice, it's my life
You get annoyed, unless you're right
The ignorance, I avoid
My confidence, you've destroyed
You cause migraines, that I don't need
You'd rather bitch, and watch me bleed

Your head is thicker than blood
Too naive to know what it does
I pull away to protect my peace
And think for myself, to say the least
Desperate and alone in what I've been through
Why would you care? It's all about you

You are the voice, in my head
You are the noise, that I dread
You have no choice, it's my life
You get annoyed, unless you're right
The ignorance, I avoid
My confidence, you've destroyed
You cause migraines, that I don't need
You'd rather bitch, and watch me bleed

As you ignore the arrogance of your disease
(I'm so lost and out of place, how)
No longer will I bear the burden of your insecurities
(Can I be found without a trace now?)
I found the strength to reclaim my soul
(I'm so lost and out of place, how)
And escape the noose that is your control
(Can I be found without a trace now?)

You are the voice, in my head
You are the noise, that I dread
You have no choice, it's my life
You get annoyed, unless you're right
The ignorance, I avoid
My confidence, you've destroyed
You cause migraines, that I don't need
You'd rather bitch, and watch me bleed

Noise


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I can't pretend it doesn't still hurt
A man addicted to pain considers death a comfort
I know I've made mistakes but I'm only human
Some can't understand, I thought I knew them
Overthinking is such a disease
Cannot the heavens of serenity grant me peace?

Believable lies, I try not to listen
But my mind is worse than a prison
I'm so lost and out of place, how
Can I be found without a trace now?
You can't relive or change the past
Life's too short so make your peace at last

Show me a cross and I'll turn it upside down
Lay me before it and I'll burn it to the ground
Believe in the faith you live with
Blissful denial that God is a myth
Pray every prayer while you kneel
'Cause Heaven is fake and Hell is real

There's too many things I haven't admitted
Secrets so dark I should die with it
I tried to wait but you're out of time
These are confessions of a broken mind
There's too many things I haven't admitted
If you knew half of them, you'd have me committed
I tried to wait but you crossed the line
These are confessions of a dangerous mind

Tortured by jealous visions
I'm glad you burned the bridges
Forgetting as much as I can
I never wanna see you again
Before I get you out of my mind
I just wanna fxxx you one more time

Give me a cross and I'll break it in half
Show me a sign and I'll just let it pass
I don't know how much longer I can wait
You are the ghost that just won't go away
"Went Down Fighting" engraved on my tombstone
'Cause this is one war I can't win alone

There's too many things I haven't admitted
Secrets so dark I should die with it
I tried to wait but you're out of time
These are confessions of a broken mind
There's too many things I haven't admitted
If you knew half of them, you'd have me committed
I tried to wait but you crossed the line
These are confessions of a dangerous mind

I saved you
Was it for my own good?
I praised you
You never understood
I betrayed you
I never thought I would
I hate you
I never thought I could

There's too many things I haven't admitted
Secrets so dark I should die with it
I tried to wait but you're out of time
These are confessions of a broken mind
There's too many things I haven't admitted
If you knew half of them, you'd have me committed
I tried to wait but you crossed the line
These are confessions of a dangerous mind

Confessions of a Dangerous Mind

There's a poison rotting in your brain
Unlike the ice running through my veins
It must be nice to walk on air
Foolish of me to think you cared
It's not my fault you can't walk away
Is your image worth the price you pay?

I can't believe I looked up to you
Should've known it wouldn't last
My biggest mistake was trusting you
All it did was bite me in the ass

You sold your soul to the devil
A coward on the highest level
While I was bleeding and taking the hits
You were busy being a self-righteous prick
Took you long enough to be done with me
You're the one who needs a fifty one fifty

There's still so much to be done
But you're not the only one
I was so grateful
You made me shameful
I'm so glad you killed yourself quietly
'Cause you would've been the death of me

Leave us behind if you think it's right
Must be hard when your demons won't go away
Dream of being able to sleep at night
Choke on your words 'cause there's nothing more to say

You sold your soul to the devil
A coward on the highest level
While I was bleeding and taking the hits
You were busy being a self-righteous prick
Took you long enough to be done with me
You're the one who needs a fifty one fifty

Your own entity
Defying gravity
Expectations overflowing with prestige
The world under you
Compassion overdue
Flawless credibility is your wet dream

You sold your soul to the devil
A coward on the highest level
While I was bleeding and taking the hits
You were busy being a self-righteous prick
Took you long enough to be done with me
You're the one who needs a fifty one fifty

Fifty One Fifty

Always there, never for love
Ghost of the demons that I dream of
You wanna be close while miles apart
Blunt force trauma to my heart
Helpless and scared in what I've been through
Why would you care? It's not about you

You are the voice, in my head
You are the noise, that I dread
You have no choice, it's my life
You get annoyed, unless you're right
The ignorance, I avoid
My confidence, you've destroyed
You cause migraines, that I don't need
You'd rather bitch, and watch me bleed

Your head is thicker than blood
Too naive to know what it does
I pull away to protect my peace
And think for myself, to say the least
Desperate and alone in what I've been through
Why would you care? It's all about you

You are the voice, in my head
You are the noise, that I dread
You have no choice, it's my life
You get annoyed, unless you're right
The ignorance, I avoid
My confidence, you've destroyed
You cause migraines, that I don't need
You'd rather bitch, and watch me bleed

As you ignore the arrogance of your disease
(I'm so lost and out of place, how)
No longer will I bear the burden of your insecurities
(Can I be found without a trace now?)
I found the strength to reclaim my soul
(I'm so lost and out of place, how)
And escape the noose that is your control
(Can I be found without a trace now?)

You are the voice, in my head
You are the noise, that I dread
You have no choice, it's my life
You get annoyed, unless you're right
The ignorance, I avoid
My confidence, you've destroyed
You cause migraines, that I don't need
You'd rather bitch, and watch me bleed

Noise

She stays strong while dead inside
You can see emptiness fill her eyes
As the world moves on, she stands by
Day after day, again and again she cries

Everybody has the answers
They tell her that she's not to blame
Everybody thinks they understand her
But they can't comprehend her pain

Sometimes it's hard to breathe
When her heart just wants to scream
And she still can't believe
They can be so fucking naive

Everybody has the answers
They tell her that she's not to blame
Everybody thinks they understand her
But they can't comprehend her pain

Her back is against the wall
She screams but there's no sound at all
She says everything is fine
While loneliness becomes her shrine
Like a demon wearing an angel's mask
How long will her darkness last?

Everybody has the answers
Nobody knows what to say
Everybody thinks they understand her
But they can't make her pain go away

Answers

You stared me down from upstairs
Resented that I cared
Dying for us to live
I'm sorry you can't forgive

We break the peace we make
Everything is not enough
I love the way you hate
You hate the way I love

So tell me
What now?
Are you ready to live your fear?
You feel
What's real
All this time it's been waiting here

Spoke right into my soul
Words left me feeling cold
The sun rose when we fell
Our death's alive and well

What do you ask of me?
I promise not to lie
I'm not the enemy
You see it in my eyes

So tell me
What now?
Are you ready to live your fear?
You feel
What's real
All this time it's been waiting here

Are You Ready?

Held my heart right in your hand
But you could never understand
Sorrow claimed your soul
You wouldn't fill the hole
Recklessly so loose
Broken by the news

The pressure of your space
The look on your face
The pleasure in your taste

I tried and tried so desperately
Raped by the pain of jealousy
Forced to watch when I'm not there
Taken for granted without a care
You'll never know what it's like
Been turning heads your whole life
I have forsaken thee
At the bridge of awakening

Did you turn around?
Quietly out loud
I'm glad that it was good
It's like you understood
You chose so selfishly
What the fuck was wrong with me?

The pressure of my waist
The look in your taste
The pleasure on your face

I tried and tried so desperately
Raped by the pain of jealousy
Forced to watch when I'm not there
Taken for granted without a care
You'll never know what it's like
Been turning heads your whole life
I have forsaken thee
At the bridge of awakening

Nothing ever made it easier
I just wanted to be with her
Watching them leave with her
It should've been me with her

All I wanted was a chance (Look at me)
You couldn't even give me that (Tears you see)
You always had other plans (Hear me plead)
My agony just laughed (As I bleed)

I tried and tried so desperately
Raped by the pain of jealousy
Forced to watch when I'm not there
Taken for granted without a care
You'll never know what it's like
Been turning heads your whole life
I have forsaken thee
At the bridge of awakening

Pain of Jealousy (Bridge of Awakening)

What you say
And display
Never match up
You get mad
If I'm sad
So I hang up
It's not fair
You don't care
You want control
But your heart
Is as dark
As your soul

You can't hide
Your snake eyes
Or disguise
Your selfish lies

Past the point of no return
Healing the scars of every burn
You're so full of empty promises
I just wanna be done with this

Why do you
Drag me through
Your flames of grief
Can't you see
I can't breathe
I need relief
Every time
You cross the line
You yell, I scream
Save your breath
Our love met death
Just let it be

It's the noise
Of your voice
That annoys
And destroys

Past the point of no return
Healing the scars of every burn
You're so full of empty promises
I just wanna be done with this

Went to hell and back for you
And I've got the scars to show
Now I'm a walking attitude
Running around all alone
Went to hell and back for you
And I've got the scars to show
Now I've got a wrath for you
A side of me you've never known

Past the point of no return
Healing the scars of every burn
You're so full of empty promises
I just wanna be done with this

Empty Promises

I always know my place
Sometimes I cross the line
My mind is my disgrace
We need to leave us behind

Pictures of your voice
Drowning in the noise

I've made my mistakes
Some have kept me awake
I'm sorry I wear my heart on my sleeve
(It felt right but was so wrong)
Emptiness in your eyes
Memories I don't recognize
Distance is the air we need to breathe
(I held on for too long)

Somewhere in time we're there
We can't go back again
I shouldn't even care
But I'll always be your friend

Dreams of your touch
My love wasn't enough

I've made my mistakes
Some have kept me awake
I'm sorry I wear my heart on my sleeve
(It felt right but was so wrong)
Emptiness in your eyes
Memories I don't recognize
Distance is the air we need to breathe
(I held on for too long)

Goodbye
There's nothing more to say
Too late to make us stay
Goodbye
I can't see through the gray
It's not like you care anyway

I've made my mistakes
Some have kept me awake
There's no feelings left to show
(It felt right but was so wrong)
Emptiness in your eyes
Memories I don't recognize
I have finally let you go
(I held on for too long)

In Your Eyes

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I can't pretend it doesn't still hurt
A man addicted to pain considers death a comfort
I know I've made mistakes but I'm only human
Some can't understand, I thought I knew them
Overthinking is such a disease
Cannot the heavens of serenity grant me peace?

Believable lies, I try not to listen
But my mind is worse than a prison
I'm so lost and out of place, how
Can I be found without a trace now?
You can't relive or change the past
Life's too short so make your peace at last

Show me a cross and I'll turn it upside down
Lay me before it and I'll burn it to the ground
Believe in the faith you live with
Blissful denial that God is a myth
Pray every prayer while you kneel
'Cause Heaven is fake and Hell is real

There's too many things I haven't admitted
Secrets so dark I should die with it
I tried to wait but you're out of time
These are confessions of a broken mind
There's too many things I haven't admitted
If you knew half of them, you'd have me committed
I tried to wait but you crossed the line
These are confessions of a dangerous mind

Tortured by jealous visions
I'm glad you burned the bridges
Forgetting as much as I can
I never wanna see you again
Before I get you out of my mind
I just wanna fxxx you one more time

Give me a cross and I'll break it in half
Show me a sign and I'll just let it pass
I don't know how much longer I can wait
You are the ghost that just won't go away
"Went Down Fighting" engraved on my tombstone
'Cause this is one war I can't win alone

There's too many things I haven't admitted
Secrets so dark I should die with it
I tried to wait but you're out of time
These are confessions of a broken mind
There's too many things I haven't admitted
If you knew half of them, you'd have me committed
I tried to wait but you crossed the line
These are confessions of a dangerous mind

I saved you
Was it for my own good?
I praised you
You never understood
I betrayed you
I never thought I would
I hate you
I never thought I could

There's too many things I haven't admitted
Secrets so dark I should die with it
I tried to wait but you're out of time
These are confessions of a broken mind
There's too many things I haven't admitted
If you knew half of them, you'd have me committed
I tried to wait but you crossed the line
These are confessions of a dangerous mind

Confessions of a Dangerous Mind

There's a poison rotting in your brain
Unlike the ice running through my veins
It must be nice to walk on air
Foolish of me to think you cared
It's not my fault you can't walk away
Is your image worth the price you pay?

I can't believe I looked up to you
Should've known it wouldn't last
My biggest mistake was trusting you
All it did was bite me in the ass

You sold your soul to the devil
A coward on the highest level
While I was bleeding and taking the hits
You were busy being a self-righteous prick
Took you long enough to be done with me
You're the one who needs a fifty one fifty

There's still so much to be done
But you're not the only one
I was so grateful
You made me shameful
I'm so glad you killed yourself quietly
'Cause you would've been the death of me

Leave us behind if you think it's right
Must be hard when your demons won't go away
Dream of being able to sleep at night
Choke on your words 'cause there's nothing more to say

You sold your soul to the devil
A coward on the highest level
While I was bleeding and taking the hits
You were busy being a self-righteous prick
Took you long enough to be done with me
You're the one who needs a fifty one fifty

Your own entity
Defying gravity
Expectations overflowing with prestige
The world under you
Compassion overdue
Flawless credibility is your wet dream

You sold your soul to the devil
A coward on the highest level
While I was bleeding and taking the hits
You were busy being a self-righteous prick
Took you long enough to be done with me
You're the one who needs a fifty one fifty

Fifty One Fifty

Always there, never for love
Ghost of the demons that I dream of
You wanna be close while miles apart
Blunt force trauma to my heart
Helpless and scared in what I've been through
Why would you care? It's not about you

You are the voice, in my head
You are the noise, that I dread
You have no choice, it's my life
You get annoyed, unless you're right
The ignorance, I avoid
My confidence, you've destroyed
You cause migraines, that I don't need
You'd rather bitch, and watch me bleed

Your head is thicker than blood
Too naive to know what it does
I pull away to protect my peace
And think for myself, to say the least
Desperate and alone in what I've been through
Why would you care? It's all about you

You are the voice, in my head
You are the noise, that I dread
You have no choice, it's my life
You get annoyed, unless you're right
The ignorance, I avoid
My confidence, you've destroyed
You cause migraines, that I don't need
You'd rather bitch, and watch me bleed

As you ignore the arrogance of your disease
(I'm so lost and out of place, how)
No longer will I bear the burden of your insecurities
(Can I be found without a trace now?)
I found the strength to reclaim my soul
(I'm so lost and out of place, how)
And escape the noose that is your control
(Can I be found without a trace now?)

You are the voice, in my head
You are the noise, that I dread
You have no choice, it's my life
You get annoyed, unless you're right
The ignorance, I avoid
My confidence, you've destroyed
You cause migraines, that I don't need
You'd rather bitch, and watch me bleed

Noise

She stays strong while dead inside
You can see emptiness fill her eyes
As the world moves on, she stands by
Day after day, again and again she cries

Everybody has the answers
They tell her that she's not to blame
Everybody thinks they understand her
But they can't comprehend her pain

Sometimes it's hard to breathe
When her heart just wants to scream
And she still can't believe
They can be so fucking naive

Everybody has the answers
They tell her that she's not to blame
Everybody thinks they understand her
But they can't comprehend her pain

Her back is against the wall
She screams but there's no sound at all
She says everything is fine
While loneliness becomes her shrine
Like a demon wearing an angel's mask
How long will her darkness last?

Everybody has the answers
Nobody knows what to say
Everybody thinks they understand her
But they can't make her pain go away

Answers

You stared me down from upstairs
Resented that I cared
Dying for us to live
I'm sorry you can't forgive

We break the peace we make
Everything is not enough
I love the way you hate
You hate the way I love

So tell me
What now?
Are you ready to live your fear?
You feel
What's real
All this time it's been waiting here

Spoke right into my soul
Words left me feeling cold
The sun rose when we fell
Our death's alive and well

What do you ask of me?
I promise not to lie
I'm not the enemy
You see it in my eyes

So tell me
What now?
Are you ready to live your fear?
You feel
What's real
All this time it's been waiting here

Are You Ready?

Held my heart right in your hand
But you could never understand
Sorrow claimed your soul
You wouldn't fill the hole
Recklessly so loose
Broken by the news

The pressure of your space
The look on your face
The pleasure in your taste

I tried and tried so desperately
Raped by the pain of jealousy
Forced to watch when I'm not there
Taken for granted without a care
You'll never know what it's like
Been turning heads your whole life
I have forsaken thee
At the bridge of awakening

Did you turn around?
Quietly out loud
I'm glad that it was good
It's like you understood
You chose so selfishly
What the fuck was wrong with me?

The pressure of my waist
The look in your taste
The pleasure on your face

I tried and tried so desperately
Raped by the pain of jealousy
Forced to watch when I'm not there
Taken for granted without a care
You'll never know what it's like
Been turning heads your whole life
I have forsaken thee
At the bridge of awakening

Nothing ever made it easier
I just wanted to be with her
Watching them leave with her
It should've been me with her

All I wanted was a chance (Look at me)
You couldn't even give me that (Tears you see)
You always had other plans (Hear me plead)
My agony just laughed (As I bleed)

I tried and tried so desperately
Raped by the pain of jealousy
Forced to watch when I'm not there
Taken for granted without a care
You'll never know what it's like
Been turning heads your whole life
I have forsaken thee
At the bridge of awakening

Pain of Jealousy (Bridge of Awakening)


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