Jimmy Larkin

You stared me down from upstairs
Resented that I cared
Dying for us to live
I'm sorry you can't forgive

We break the peace we make
Everything is not enough
I love the way you hate
You hate the way I love

So tell me
What now?
Are you ready to live your fear?
You feel
What's real
All this time it's been waiting here

Spoke right into my soul
Words left me feeling cold
The sun rose when we fell
Our death's alive and well

What do you ask of me?
I promise not to lie
I'm not the enemy
You see it in my eyes

So tell me
What now?
Are you ready to live your fear?
You feel
What's real
All this time it's been waiting here

Held my heart right in your hand
But you could never understand
Sorrow claimed your soul
You wouldn't fill the hole
Recklessly so loose
Broken by the news

The pressure of your space
The look on your face
The pleasure in your taste

I tried and tried so desperately
Raped by the pain of jealousy
Forced to watch when I'm not there
Taken for granted without a care
You'll never know what it's like
Been turning heads your whole life
I have forsaken thee
At the bridge of awakening

Did you turn around?
Quietly out loud
I'm glad that it was good
It's like you understood
You chose so selfishly
What the fuck was wrong with me?

The pressure of my waist
The look in your taste
The pleasure on your face

I tried and tried so desperately
Raped by the pain of jealousy
Forced to watch when I'm not there
Taken for granted without a care
You'll never know what it's like
Been turning heads your whole life
I have forsaken thee
At the bridge of awakening

Nothing ever made it easier
I just wanted to be with her
Watching them leave with her
It should've been me with her

All I wanted was a chance (Look at me)
You couldn't even give me that (Tears you see)
You always had other plans (Hear me plead)
My agony just laughed (As I bleed)

I tried and tried so desperately
Raped by the pain of jealousy
Forced to watch when I'm not there
Taken for granted without a care
You'll never know what it's like
Been turning heads your whole life
I have forsaken thee
At the bridge of awakening

What you say
And display
Never match up
You get mad
If I'm sad
So I hang up
It's not fair
You don't care
You want control
But your heart
Is as dark
As your soul

You can't hide
Your snake eyes
Or disguise
Your selfish lies

Past the point of no return
Healing the scars of every burn
You're so full of empty promises
I just wanna be done with this

Why do you
Drag me through
Your flames of grief
Can't you see
I can't breathe
I need relief
Every time
You cross the line
You yell, I scream
Save your breath
Our love met death
Just let it be

It's the noise
Of your voice
That annoys
And destroys

Past the point of no return
Healing the scars of every burn
You're so full of empty promises
I just wanna be done with this

Went to hell and back for you
And I've got the scars to show
Now I'm a walking attitude
Running around all alone
Went to hell and back for you
And I've got the scars to show
Now I've got a wrath for you
A side of me you've never known

Past the point of no return
Healing the scars of every burn
You're so full of empty promises
I just wanna be done with this

I always know my place
Sometimes I cross the line
My mind is my disgrace
We need to leave us behind

Pictures of your voice
Drowning in the noise

I've made my mistakes
Some have kept me awake
I'm sorry I wear my heart on my sleeve
(It felt right but was so wrong)
Emptiness in your eyes
Memories I don't recognize
Distance is the air we need to breathe
(I held on for too long)

Somewhere in time we're there
We can't go back again
I shouldn't even care
But I'll always be your friend

Dreams of your touch
My love wasn't enough

I've made my mistakes
Some have kept me awake
I'm sorry I wear my heart on my sleeve
(It felt right but was so wrong)
Emptiness in your eyes
Memories I don't recognize
Distance is the air we need to breathe
(I held on for too long)

Goodbye
There's nothing more to say
Too late to make us stay
Goodbye
I can't see through the gray
It's not like you care anyway

I've made my mistakes
Some have kept me awake
There's no feelings left to show
(It felt right but was so wrong)
Emptiness in your eyes
Memories I don't recognize
I have finally let you go
(I held on for too long)

You're always afraid of messing up
The truth is what you love to deny
Putting me down, never stepping up
When it's time to talk, you run and hide

Now I see your smile was a front
Saying you care was just another stunt

I don't wanna feel ashamed
I don't wanna point the blame
But it's clear from the pain
Things will never be the same

I really don't wanna hate you
But you're not giving me a choice
You hear the words I say to you
And ignore the pain in my voice

I wake up hoping it was all a dream
Then reality hits and I just wanna scream

I don't wanna feel ashamed
I don't wanna point the blame
But it's clear from the pain
Things will never be the same

Look me in the eye
There's nothing left to erase
I swallowed my pride
You lied to my face

I don't wanna feel ashamed
I don't wanna point the blame
But it's clear from the pain
Things will never be the same

All I know how to do is love
The only thing I'm not worthy of
My whole life is a mistake
Maybe I should just give up
I don't think I'll ever be enough

My back's against the wall
I've got no fight left at all
There's nothing more to say
It was never meant to be this way
A soul so tired and broken
My eyes are barely open
I see no hope left for me
This is the end of my story

Everything in life
Comes at a price
Sometimes that price is our blood
So extradite me
From reality
There's no one here I can trust

All I ever do is try
And every time I start to cry
They wouldn't even notice me gone
What's the point of saying goodbye?
All I know how to do is love
The only thing I'm not worthy of
My whole life is a mistake
Maybe I should just give up
I know I'll never be enough

I must die if I want to live
I'm sorry you can't forgive
Can't take any more of this noise
My mind lies to me in my own voice
Poisoning all that I thought I knew
Safe in the darkness I've been through
They say pain means you're alive
I'm finally thinking clear tonight

Psychosis confirmed
Memories burned
A mind you'd never believe
Nothing left to do
Stuck in déjà vu
So stand there and watch me bleed

All I ever do is try
And every time I start to cry
They wouldn't even notice me gone
What's the point of saying goodbye?
All I know how to do is love
The only thing I'm not worthy of
My whole life is a mistake
Maybe I should just give up
I know I'll never be enough

Why do I try?
I'm just wasting my time
I try to escape
But there's nowhere to go
Why do I try?
I'm just losing my mind
Any second now
My heart will explode

Nights are long when your mind won't sleep
From the burning guilt your soul will keep
Goodbye tomorrow, hello yesterday
Your scars bleed until the pain goes away

All I ever do is try
And every time I start to cry
They wouldn't even notice me gone
What's the point of saying goodbye?
All I know how to do is love
The only thing I'm not worthy of
My whole life is a mistake
Maybe I should just give up
I know I'll never be enough

What is there to say?
What am I to do?
Haven't i suffered enough
With everything I've been through?
I've got nothing left to give
The devil controls the deal
Covered in darkness is no way to live
But I can't wake up, the nightmare is real

Trapped in a cycle of misery
The rabbit hole is home to the mystery

I can't feel pain
So full of disdain
This endless agony is all I know
My heart gave up
There's nothing I trust
I'm out of breath, just let me go

I cannot manage
To survive this hell
With all this damage
I don't recognize myself
As I bleed, watch me fall
No longer can I deal with it
You could say I'm cynical
But you know I'm just realistic

Raped by every unknown force
Hatred and evil are par for the course

I can't feel pain
So full of disdain
This endless agony is all I know
My heart gave up
There's nothing I trust
I'm out of breath, just let me go

Salt tortures our open wounds
Our tragedy becomes our tomb
I'm so tired of waiting for the end
The fire burns out then it starts again

I can't feel pain
So full of disdain
This endless agony is all I know
My heart gave up
There's nothing I trust
I'm out of breath, just let me go

I should have seen this coming
Why am I surprised?
I should have started running
From the darkness in your eyes
You're so broken
Always around when never there
My heart was open
Waiting for you to care

I bit off more than you could chew
Remembering so much more than you

After all that you've done
Do you hate what you've become?
It's never too late to change
When you've become what you hate

You should have seen this coming
Why are you surprised?
I know you've got nothing
But fear in your eyes
You knew the whole time
And never said a word
Forgiveness is divine
But it's me who got hurt

Beauty in the eye of the cold shoulder
Your excuse is just getting older

After all that you've done
Do you hate what you've become?
It's never too late to change
When you've become what you hate

Are you proud of yourself?
Bleeding dry my help
Where were you when I needed you?
I'll carry all the blame
Why should you feel any shame?
I wish I was perfect like you
But I'm not
So fxxx!!!!! YOU!!!!!

After all that I've done
I hate what you've become
Now it's too late to change
You've become what I hate