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[Verse 1]
I’m back
Back in the hush where you held me last night
Wondering if this day felt forever to you
like it did to me
Wrapped in my blanket
Wrapped in your presence

Wondering how long we’ll stay this present
Presents to each other

[Chorus]
What did you feel
when you looked in her eyes
What did you feel
when you kissed her thighs
What did you think she was starving inside
when she smiled today
after last night

Did we feel it
Did we feel the same

[Verse 2]
I’m back
Back in my mirror like nothing has changed
Wondering if you carried it all day too
like I did today
A smile in the kitchen
Wild storm underneath it
Wrapped in my thoughts
Wrapped in your absence

Wondering how long we’ll stay this God-sent
Yet absent to the others

[Chorus]
What did you feel
when you walked back inside
What did you feel
when you laid by her side
What did you think you were touching in me
that you can’t touch there
not like last night

Did we feel it
Did we feel the same

[Bridge]
Two lives in my mouth
Two names on my skin
And you keep finding the place
where she begins
I don’t know what this is
But I know it’s real
She’s still there
she’s still there
and she can finally feel

[Final Chorus]
What did you feel
when you looked in her eyes
What did you feel
when you kissed her thighs

Did we feel it
did we feel the same
did we feel the same
did we feel the same
did we feel the same

Where She Begins

Out of breath, lying in bed
Not from what I longed for
But from building this wall
Thicker, stronger
Layer by layer

No harness, no hand to hold
I balance on loose scaffolds
As I’m building this wall
Love slips further
Layer by layer

Buckets of tears
Concrete gone thin
A house turned home by heart and sweat
Don’t let the ground cave in

Do what you did in the early days
The little things that made me stay
Remind me how we found our way
Because I still want to stay

You found soil beneath my stone
My past was still in rubble
I was building this wall
You laid love down
Layer by layer

Do what you did in the early days
The little things that made me stay
Remind me how we found our way
Because I still want to stay

Climb this wall of mine again
Splash it with color
Not to hide the cracks—
But to celebrate the way
We’ve held through them

Do what you did in the early days
Those little things that made me stay
Remind me how we found our way
I still want to stay

Reach for me through what remains
Even through the cracks and strain
If we still matter—come what may
Let’s choose to stay

Layer by Layer

Verse 1
Ek was jonk, met my hart op my mou
Gedink jy’s die een van wie ek altyd sal hou
Min wetend die verliefdheid sou my vasvang
min wetend ek sou ‘ons’ so verlang

Verse 2
Jy was daar vir my, wanneer dit jou pas
Gesê jy’s lief vir my — het jy geweet wat liefde was?
Want hoe meer ek vir jou doen,
hoe meer wou jy háár soen

Pre-Chorus
Nou wens ek, ek’t liewer geluister —
dat ek deur jou kon sien

Chorus
Toe jy sê jy gaan verander,
en ek vanuit hoop bly vasklou
Toe jy jok oor gister,
moes ek weet van beter,
as om aan jou woorde te kou

Verse 3
Maar elke keer misbruik jy die kans,
en weer’s dit ek wat om jou pype dans
Oor en oor gesê jy probeer,
maar oor en oor kry ek die seer

Bridge
Jy’t belowe sonder dade,
net verduidelikings en skade
Bereid om my lewe rondom jou te beplan,
pleks ek’t vroeër laat gaan

Final Chorus
Toe jy sê jy gaan verander,
en ek vanuit hoop bly vasklou
Toe jy jok oor gister,
moes ek weet van beter,
as om aan jou woorde te kou

Maar ek bly, en ek breek, en ek bloei vir jou.

Weet van Beter


Latest Uploads

[Verse 1]
I’m back
Back in the hush where you held me last night
Wondering if this day felt forever to you
like it did to me
Wrapped in my blanket
Wrapped in your presence

Wondering how long we’ll stay this present
Presents to each other

[Chorus]
What did you feel
when you looked in her eyes
What did you feel
when you kissed her thighs
What did you think she was starving inside
when she smiled today
after last night

Did we feel it
Did we feel the same

[Verse 2]
I’m back
Back in my mirror like nothing has changed
Wondering if you carried it all day too
like I did today
A smile in the kitchen
Wild storm underneath it
Wrapped in my thoughts
Wrapped in your absence

Wondering how long we’ll stay this God-sent
Yet absent to the others

[Chorus]
What did you feel
when you walked back inside
What did you feel
when you laid by her side
What did you think you were touching in me
that you can’t touch there
not like last night

Did we feel it
Did we feel the same

[Bridge]
Two lives in my mouth
Two names on my skin
And you keep finding the place
where she begins
I don’t know what this is
But I know it’s real
She’s still there
she’s still there
and she can finally feel

[Final Chorus]
What did you feel
when you looked in her eyes
What did you feel
when you kissed her thighs

Did we feel it
did we feel the same
did we feel the same
did we feel the same
did we feel the same

Where She Begins

Out of breath, lying in bed
Not from what I longed for
But from building this wall
Thicker, stronger
Layer by layer

No harness, no hand to hold
I balance on loose scaffolds
As I’m building this wall
Love slips further
Layer by layer

Buckets of tears
Concrete gone thin
A house turned home by heart and sweat
Don’t let the ground cave in

Do what you did in the early days
The little things that made me stay
Remind me how we found our way
Because I still want to stay

You found soil beneath my stone
My past was still in rubble
I was building this wall
You laid love down
Layer by layer

Do what you did in the early days
The little things that made me stay
Remind me how we found our way
Because I still want to stay

Climb this wall of mine again
Splash it with color
Not to hide the cracks—
But to celebrate the way
We’ve held through them

Do what you did in the early days
Those little things that made me stay
Remind me how we found our way
I still want to stay

Reach for me through what remains
Even through the cracks and strain
If we still matter—come what may
Let’s choose to stay

Layer by Layer

Verse 1
Ek was jonk, met my hart op my mou
Gedink jy’s die een van wie ek altyd sal hou
Min wetend die verliefdheid sou my vasvang
min wetend ek sou ‘ons’ so verlang

Verse 2
Jy was daar vir my, wanneer dit jou pas
Gesê jy’s lief vir my — het jy geweet wat liefde was?
Want hoe meer ek vir jou doen,
hoe meer wou jy háár soen

Pre-Chorus
Nou wens ek, ek’t liewer geluister —
dat ek deur jou kon sien

Chorus
Toe jy sê jy gaan verander,
en ek vanuit hoop bly vasklou
Toe jy jok oor gister,
moes ek weet van beter,
as om aan jou woorde te kou

Verse 3
Maar elke keer misbruik jy die kans,
en weer’s dit ek wat om jou pype dans
Oor en oor gesê jy probeer,
maar oor en oor kry ek die seer

Bridge
Jy’t belowe sonder dade,
net verduidelikings en skade
Bereid om my lewe rondom jou te beplan,
pleks ek’t vroeër laat gaan

Final Chorus
Toe jy sê jy gaan verander,
en ek vanuit hoop bly vasklou
Toe jy jok oor gister,
moes ek weet van beter,
as om aan jou woorde te kou

Maar ek bly, en ek breek, en ek bloei vir jou.

Weet van Beter

[Verse 1]
You arrived at a strange time,
The right kind of wrong,
Wrong kind of right.
A whisper in the middle
Of my life’s loud unfolding.
I didn’t chase it,
And yet, it followed me still,
In dreams and in silence,
Against my own will.

[Verse 2]
I’ve built a life—a real one—
With laughter, love, and grace.
But you lived in the pause,
In the unspoken space.
Sometimes I wish we had tried.
But maybe we did—
Not in the light,
Only in the almost,
Only in the ache.

[Chorus]
In the pause, in the maybe,
In the almost that shaped me.
Not in the plan, but etched in my skin,
You’re the door that stayed open
Long after I went in.
I loved you,
Not loud, but real,
In a way only absence can feel.

[Verse 3]
You taught me that longing
Can be its own kind of light,
That not every love
Needs a room to be right.
And if we were only meant
To remember, not hold,
Then know I remember
With a heart that still folds.

[Bridge]
And I bless you now,
Where you stand—
With another’s heart,
In another land.
But part of me still holds the space
Where your name never quite erased.

[Final Chorus]
In the pause, in the maybe,
In the quiet that remade me,
You were the echo, I was the flame,
And neither of us left quite the same.
I loved you,
Not loud, but true,
In the pause where I still return to you.

In the Pause

[Verse 1]
Ons het altyd die ergste verwag
Maar nou lyk jou lewe skielik verdag
Wens ek kon sê: "Ek kies jou kant"
Maar ek hou die waarheid in my hand

[Chorus]
Hoekom maak jy ons so seer?
Kan jy dan nie jouself keer?
Hoekom moet jy heeltyd jok?
Dis seer om te sien hoe jy jouself opfok

[Verse 2]
Te lief vir jou om kwaad te bly
Terwyl ons almal diep binne ly
Ons struikel stadig, stil verby mekaar
Maar tussen hol woorde spook al die vrae

[Bridge]
Jy’t die wind uit my seile kom haal
En nou dryf ek versigtig, sonder koers of verhaal
Jou dade’s soos reën wat my grense kom skuif
Maar ek’s nog hier — net meer stil en styf

[Chorus]
Hoekom maak jy ons so seer?
Kan jy dan nie jouself keer?
Hoekom moet jy heeltyd jok?
Dis seer om te sien hoe jy jouself opfok

[Final Verse]
Jy’s volmaak – ons God het jou gemaak
Jy’t vir ons, wat maak die wêreld saak
Los die lelik, los die kwaad
Dis jou geliefdes wat hier praat

[Chorus – repeat or softer]
Hoekom maak jy ons so seer?
Kan jy dan nie jouself keer?
Hoekom moet jy heeltyd jok?
Dis seer om te sien hoe jy jouself opfok

Luister, Liefste

[Verse 1]
Don’t know if this is for me
Don’t know why I’m so deeply unhappy at times
I hate my phone, ‘cause you’re glued to yours
Jump when you snap your fingers or slam the doors

[Verse 2]
I hate my voice, ‘cause you’re shouting with yours
Always down on my knees, but not just for chores
Traded my calm for your chaos with ease
Surely love shouldn’t feel like a slow disease

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m becoming like you
An insecure, jealous, controlling, out-of-control mess
Who loves you—
We both only love you
Can I love you any less?

[Chorus]
Don’t know when last I’ve felt so lonely
Lonely while you hold me
I find myself hopeless without you
But also a little hopeless with you

[Verse 3]
I’m just the spare wheel, waiting for a turn
With friends you speed ahead, and I crash and burn
Stunt my own growth, lost in your gear
While I keep trying to shift, but you’re nowhere near

[Bridge]
No one to talk to, no words that feel right
No soft place to land when I cry at night
Drifting from friends who once knew my name
Turning from family—but I’m not sure who’s to blame

[Chorus - Repeat]
Don’t know when last I’ve felt so lonely
Lonely while you hold me
I find myself hopeless without you
But also a little hopeless with you

[Outro]
I know this isn’t for me
Still don’t know why I’m so unhealthily in love this time
Kept holding on just to feel something true
Now I’m half of myself and still not enough for you

Unhealthily in Love

Overindulged

[Verse 1]
The sound of your breath melts into my pillow
I feel your breath drop – slow, heavy–
Like the weight of my hands, drawn back to your body
I try to leave
My mind says yes
But my body grieves

[Verse 2]
I take a moment
Gain courage to roll out of bed
I kiss you once
But my lips feel dead

[Verse 3]
Now it’s my body pulling me out of your room
My thoughts catch up in a quiet bloom
And finally, I see:
I need to give back to me

[Pre-Chorus]
You’re my natural desire –
Satisfying, salty, sweet
A hunger I try not to feed
But it pulls, and it pleads

[Chorus]
More, more, so much more
Til my body can’t ignore
Too much, too deep, and then –
I’ve overindulged in you again

[Bridge]
We all need closeness, crave connection
Empty sheets, grow my obsession
I reach for what tastes like you
But every fix just fades right through

Coz sleeping close to love
Isn’t just a choice—
It’s survival’s voice

[Looping Outro]
More, more, so much more
[whispered] Satisfying, salty, sweet…
More, more, my natural desire
[whispered] Satisfying, salty, sweet…
[soft, distant] I’ve overindulged in you again

Overindulged

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[Verse 1]
I’m back
Back in the hush where you held me last night
Wondering if this day felt forever to you
like it did to me
Wrapped in my blanket
Wrapped in your presence

Wondering how long we’ll stay this present
Presents to each other

[Chorus]
What did you feel
when you looked in her eyes
What did you feel
when you kissed her thighs
What did you think she was starving inside
when she smiled today
after last night

Did we feel it
Did we feel the same

[Verse 2]
I’m back
Back in my mirror like nothing has changed
Wondering if you carried it all day too
like I did today
A smile in the kitchen
Wild storm underneath it
Wrapped in my thoughts
Wrapped in your absence

Wondering how long we’ll stay this God-sent
Yet absent to the others

[Chorus]
What did you feel
when you walked back inside
What did you feel
when you laid by her side
What did you think you were touching in me
that you can’t touch there
not like last night

Did we feel it
Did we feel the same

[Bridge]
Two lives in my mouth
Two names on my skin
And you keep finding the place
where she begins
I don’t know what this is
But I know it’s real
She’s still there
she’s still there
and she can finally feel

[Final Chorus]
What did you feel
when you looked in her eyes
What did you feel
when you kissed her thighs

Did we feel it
did we feel the same
did we feel the same
did we feel the same
did we feel the same

Where She Begins

Out of breath, lying in bed
Not from what I longed for
But from building this wall
Thicker, stronger
Layer by layer

No harness, no hand to hold
I balance on loose scaffolds
As I’m building this wall
Love slips further
Layer by layer

Buckets of tears
Concrete gone thin
A house turned home by heart and sweat
Don’t let the ground cave in

Do what you did in the early days
The little things that made me stay
Remind me how we found our way
Because I still want to stay

You found soil beneath my stone
My past was still in rubble
I was building this wall
You laid love down
Layer by layer

Do what you did in the early days
The little things that made me stay
Remind me how we found our way
Because I still want to stay

Climb this wall of mine again
Splash it with color
Not to hide the cracks—
But to celebrate the way
We’ve held through them

Do what you did in the early days
Those little things that made me stay
Remind me how we found our way
I still want to stay

Reach for me through what remains
Even through the cracks and strain
If we still matter—come what may
Let’s choose to stay

Layer by Layer

Verse 1
Ek was jonk, met my hart op my mou
Gedink jy’s die een van wie ek altyd sal hou
Min wetend die verliefdheid sou my vasvang
min wetend ek sou ‘ons’ so verlang

Verse 2
Jy was daar vir my, wanneer dit jou pas
Gesê jy’s lief vir my — het jy geweet wat liefde was?
Want hoe meer ek vir jou doen,
hoe meer wou jy háár soen

Pre-Chorus
Nou wens ek, ek’t liewer geluister —
dat ek deur jou kon sien

Chorus
Toe jy sê jy gaan verander,
en ek vanuit hoop bly vasklou
Toe jy jok oor gister,
moes ek weet van beter,
as om aan jou woorde te kou

Verse 3
Maar elke keer misbruik jy die kans,
en weer’s dit ek wat om jou pype dans
Oor en oor gesê jy probeer,
maar oor en oor kry ek die seer

Bridge
Jy’t belowe sonder dade,
net verduidelikings en skade
Bereid om my lewe rondom jou te beplan,
pleks ek’t vroeër laat gaan

Final Chorus
Toe jy sê jy gaan verander,
en ek vanuit hoop bly vasklou
Toe jy jok oor gister,
moes ek weet van beter,
as om aan jou woorde te kou

Maar ek bly, en ek breek, en ek bloei vir jou.

Weet van Beter

[Verse 1]
You arrived at a strange time,
The right kind of wrong,
Wrong kind of right.
A whisper in the middle
Of my life’s loud unfolding.
I didn’t chase it,
And yet, it followed me still,
In dreams and in silence,
Against my own will.

[Verse 2]
I’ve built a life—a real one—
With laughter, love, and grace.
But you lived in the pause,
In the unspoken space.
Sometimes I wish we had tried.
But maybe we did—
Not in the light,
Only in the almost,
Only in the ache.

[Chorus]
In the pause, in the maybe,
In the almost that shaped me.
Not in the plan, but etched in my skin,
You’re the door that stayed open
Long after I went in.
I loved you,
Not loud, but real,
In a way only absence can feel.

[Verse 3]
You taught me that longing
Can be its own kind of light,
That not every love
Needs a room to be right.
And if we were only meant
To remember, not hold,
Then know I remember
With a heart that still folds.

[Bridge]
And I bless you now,
Where you stand—
With another’s heart,
In another land.
But part of me still holds the space
Where your name never quite erased.

[Final Chorus]
In the pause, in the maybe,
In the quiet that remade me,
You were the echo, I was the flame,
And neither of us left quite the same.
I loved you,
Not loud, but true,
In the pause where I still return to you.

In the Pause

[Verse 1]
Ons het altyd die ergste verwag
Maar nou lyk jou lewe skielik verdag
Wens ek kon sê: "Ek kies jou kant"
Maar ek hou die waarheid in my hand

[Chorus]
Hoekom maak jy ons so seer?
Kan jy dan nie jouself keer?
Hoekom moet jy heeltyd jok?
Dis seer om te sien hoe jy jouself opfok

[Verse 2]
Te lief vir jou om kwaad te bly
Terwyl ons almal diep binne ly
Ons struikel stadig, stil verby mekaar
Maar tussen hol woorde spook al die vrae

[Bridge]
Jy’t die wind uit my seile kom haal
En nou dryf ek versigtig, sonder koers of verhaal
Jou dade’s soos reën wat my grense kom skuif
Maar ek’s nog hier — net meer stil en styf

[Chorus]
Hoekom maak jy ons so seer?
Kan jy dan nie jouself keer?
Hoekom moet jy heeltyd jok?
Dis seer om te sien hoe jy jouself opfok

[Final Verse]
Jy’s volmaak – ons God het jou gemaak
Jy’t vir ons, wat maak die wêreld saak
Los die lelik, los die kwaad
Dis jou geliefdes wat hier praat

[Chorus – repeat or softer]
Hoekom maak jy ons so seer?
Kan jy dan nie jouself keer?
Hoekom moet jy heeltyd jok?
Dis seer om te sien hoe jy jouself opfok

Luister, Liefste

[Verse 1]
Don’t know if this is for me
Don’t know why I’m so deeply unhappy at times
I hate my phone, ‘cause you’re glued to yours
Jump when you snap your fingers or slam the doors

[Verse 2]
I hate my voice, ‘cause you’re shouting with yours
Always down on my knees, but not just for chores
Traded my calm for your chaos with ease
Surely love shouldn’t feel like a slow disease

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m becoming like you
An insecure, jealous, controlling, out-of-control mess
Who loves you—
We both only love you
Can I love you any less?

[Chorus]
Don’t know when last I’ve felt so lonely
Lonely while you hold me
I find myself hopeless without you
But also a little hopeless with you

[Verse 3]
I’m just the spare wheel, waiting for a turn
With friends you speed ahead, and I crash and burn
Stunt my own growth, lost in your gear
While I keep trying to shift, but you’re nowhere near

[Bridge]
No one to talk to, no words that feel right
No soft place to land when I cry at night
Drifting from friends who once knew my name
Turning from family—but I’m not sure who’s to blame

[Chorus - Repeat]
Don’t know when last I’ve felt so lonely
Lonely while you hold me
I find myself hopeless without you
But also a little hopeless with you

[Outro]
I know this isn’t for me
Still don’t know why I’m so unhealthily in love this time
Kept holding on just to feel something true
Now I’m half of myself and still not enough for you

Unhealthily in Love


About Me

Bio

Since the age of eight, I've been writing in secret corners of diaries--pouring out emotions I didn't yet know how to speak. Writing became my way of holding space for everything I felt too deeply. Over the years, the pages filled with poems, fragments, and quiet truths, never with the thought of sharing. Now, I'm learning to give those words a voice--shaping them into lyrics.
Though new to songwriting, the emotions have long lived in me. I'm drawn to emotional depth--in people, in music, in moments. I write with vulnerability and rawness, not to impress.
My lyrics are raw, unfiltered, and intimate--often exploring edges of longing, self-restraint, and human connection. They sit somewhere between soul and singer-songwriter, often leaning into slow-burning grooves, bluesy sensuality and poetic imagery.
I believe there's beauty in sitting with emotion--not rushing past it--and writing gives me that stillness. I write to feel. To understand.
This is me, learning to let the words sing.

CV/History

From a young age, I poured my heart into poetry, some of which found a place in youth poetry collections. My academic journey through Psychology took me deep into the intricacies of the human mind--writing papers, exploring theories, as well as completing a thesis. As a school leader and Junior Town Mayor, I crafted speeches that spoke to my community, honing my voice and ability to connect with others. My yoga teaching has further deepened my emotional awareness, guiding others through their own journeys of self-discovery, balance and inner peace. Now, after years of reflection, I'm channeling that same depth of feeling and experience into songwriting. My lyrics are an evolution of my journey--a blend of raw emotion, introspection, and a love for the beauty in human connection.

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