Caitlyn Callery

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Caitlyn Callery

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Round and round and up and down
The gallopers go by,
A journey of a thousand moments
Is travelled in a lie.
For all we think we’re moving on,
We end up right where we belong.

Tinny music pours its sound
Out of tune, and off key.
A herald to our true opponents:
The souls of you and me.
For all we think we’re moving on,
In truth, we couldn’t be more wrong.

My galloper moves on round,
Yours chases, far too slow.
If I hide, can I be sure I’m found?
It’s something I can’t know.
For all we think we’re moving on,
The end is where it was begun.

Round and round and up and down,
Fairground music in my head,
Up and down and round and round,
I can’t remember why I fled.

I chase you and you chase me
And the music plays off key.
Is this how it’s supposed to be?

The carousel slows on down,
And I should try to run.
Sheer willpower’s all that holds me now
The journey almost done.
For all we thought we had moved on,
We ‘ve come right back, where we belong.

Let new riders take our places,
For you and me, no more chases.
We let the gallopers move on,
And we stay here, where we belong.

Gallopers

Has anyone told you you're living a lie?
Have you ever stopped and asked yourself why?
Did you ever consider how I would feel
When you threw away the love I thought was real?
No, you didn't. To you it's just a game.
You'll take the win, but you won't take the blame.

And how can you live with yourself late at night?
Do the nightmares make you turn on the light?
Do you cross yourself and then pray for a sign?
The lamp at your feet that makes your way shine?
No, you do not. To you, it's just a game.
You'll take the win, but you won't take the blame.

Ice on your soul, cold from the start.
Happy hour for the collector of hearts.
A reason to go out, an excuse to stay in,
Quickening tempo, change partners again.

Ice on your soul burns in your kiss.
Arrow on your bow. And you never miss.
A feather in your cap or a knife in your hand?
A desp’rate hilltop to make your last stand.

You laugh too loud for it to be real.
I don't think you know how you really feel.

Anyone can see that you're living a lie
But have you stopped and asked yourself why?
Do you cross yourself and then pray for a sign?
A lamp in the darkness, a light that will shine?
No, you do not. To you it's just a game.
You take the win, you never take the blame.

Ice on your soul

The powder keg is primed.
All it needs is one small flame to blow us both sky high,
And all the hopes and dreams I’ve had
Shattered on the razor sky,
Scattered over icy ground,
Battered on the frosty air.
Broken, lost somewhere.

Your finger’s on the flint.
Turn the wheel and we will see the sparks begin to fly,
And all the hopes and dreams I’ve had
Shattered on the razor sky,
Scattered over icy ground,
Battered on the frosty air.
It all seems so unfair.

Remember.
We danced here in the rain.
Moonlight fractured over broken bottle chandeliers
When life was for the living
And happiness was crisp packets and a couple of flat beers
And what we thought that we would have
Was not yet stolen by the years
That line our faces,
And kick the traces,
Before replacing
Our hopes and dreams with deep white scars and angry lonely tears

Shattered on the razor sky,
Scattered on the icy ground,
Battered on the frosty air,
As if we lost the dare.
It all seems so unfair.

The powder keg is primed.
So set the fuse and light it, and blow us both sky high
Kiss me now for old time’s sake
Beneath a misty street lamp,
In the dark not-quite-damp,
And then just walk away.
Don’t taint the air with promises or seed the wind with lies,
Do not turn around or answer me when I ask why.
Just leave me shattered
My hopes all scattered
Forever battered.
I’ll pick up the pieces, and somehow I’ll survive.

Life is for the living, and I know I’ll get by,
On your goodbye.

Shattered


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Round and round and up and down
The gallopers go by,
A journey of a thousand moments
Is travelled in a lie.
For all we think we’re moving on,
We end up right where we belong.

Tinny music pours its sound
Out of tune, and off key.
A herald to our true opponents:
The souls of you and me.
For all we think we’re moving on,
In truth, we couldn’t be more wrong.

My galloper moves on round,
Yours chases, far too slow.
If I hide, can I be sure I’m found?
It’s something I can’t know.
For all we think we’re moving on,
The end is where it was begun.

Round and round and up and down,
Fairground music in my head,
Up and down and round and round,
I can’t remember why I fled.

I chase you and you chase me
And the music plays off key.
Is this how it’s supposed to be?

The carousel slows on down,
And I should try to run.
Sheer willpower’s all that holds me now
The journey almost done.
For all we thought we had moved on,
We ‘ve come right back, where we belong.

Let new riders take our places,
For you and me, no more chases.
We let the gallopers move on,
And we stay here, where we belong.

Gallopers

Has anyone told you you're living a lie?
Have you ever stopped and asked yourself why?
Did you ever consider how I would feel
When you threw away the love I thought was real?
No, you didn't. To you it's just a game.
You'll take the win, but you won't take the blame.

And how can you live with yourself late at night?
Do the nightmares make you turn on the light?
Do you cross yourself and then pray for a sign?
The lamp at your feet that makes your way shine?
No, you do not. To you, it's just a game.
You'll take the win, but you won't take the blame.

Ice on your soul, cold from the start.
Happy hour for the collector of hearts.
A reason to go out, an excuse to stay in,
Quickening tempo, change partners again.

Ice on your soul burns in your kiss.
Arrow on your bow. And you never miss.
A feather in your cap or a knife in your hand?
A desp’rate hilltop to make your last stand.

You laugh too loud for it to be real.
I don't think you know how you really feel.

Anyone can see that you're living a lie
But have you stopped and asked yourself why?
Do you cross yourself and then pray for a sign?
A lamp in the darkness, a light that will shine?
No, you do not. To you it's just a game.
You take the win, you never take the blame.

Ice on your soul

The powder keg is primed.
All it needs is one small flame to blow us both sky high,
And all the hopes and dreams I’ve had
Shattered on the razor sky,
Scattered over icy ground,
Battered on the frosty air.
Broken, lost somewhere.

Your finger’s on the flint.
Turn the wheel and we will see the sparks begin to fly,
And all the hopes and dreams I’ve had
Shattered on the razor sky,
Scattered over icy ground,
Battered on the frosty air.
It all seems so unfair.

Remember.
We danced here in the rain.
Moonlight fractured over broken bottle chandeliers
When life was for the living
And happiness was crisp packets and a couple of flat beers
And what we thought that we would have
Was not yet stolen by the years
That line our faces,
And kick the traces,
Before replacing
Our hopes and dreams with deep white scars and angry lonely tears

Shattered on the razor sky,
Scattered on the icy ground,
Battered on the frosty air,
As if we lost the dare.
It all seems so unfair.

The powder keg is primed.
So set the fuse and light it, and blow us both sky high
Kiss me now for old time’s sake
Beneath a misty street lamp,
In the dark not-quite-damp,
And then just walk away.
Don’t taint the air with promises or seed the wind with lies,
Do not turn around or answer me when I ask why.
Just leave me shattered
My hopes all scattered
Forever battered.
I’ll pick up the pieces, and somehow I’ll survive.

Life is for the living, and I know I’ll get by,
On your goodbye.

Shattered

Boy, I need to get outside
Leave reality behind.
Feel the sun’s rays on my face
As I run far from this place.
Breathing slow when panic ends
Again.

This feels too much like hard time,
Misery stealing my prime,
Breaking everything I am,
Laughing at my future plans.
Will this torment ever end
Again?

Right now I’m going
Stir Crazy. How much more can I take?
Stir Crazy. I need to make my break.
Stir Crazy. Before I lose my mind.
Stir Crazy. Leave the madness all behind.

Because I know I’m going…
I know it’s showing…
I know I’m going…
Stir Crazy.

Everything I thought I knew
All the things I thought were true
The confidence I thought I wore
Left in tatters on the floor.
Past the point where it can mend
Again.

And it’s leaving me
Stir Crazy. How much more can I take?
Stir Crazy. I need to make my break.
Stir Crazy. Before I lose my mind.
Stir Crazy. Leave the madness all behind.

Because I know I’m going…
I know it’s showing…
I know I’m going…
Stir Crazy.

Locked up tight,
(The future’s hazy)
Is this what it’s coming to?
(Is this what it’s coming to?)
Locked up tight
(And I’m stir crazy)
This is what it’s coming to.
(This is what it’s coming to.)
All my nightmares coming true.
(Leaves me crazy through and through)
This is what it’s coming to, (coming to, coming to…)

Will this torment ever end
Again?

And now I’m going
Stir Crazy. How much more can I take?
Stir Crazy. I need to make my break.
Stir Crazy. Before I lose my mind.
Stir Crazy. Leave the madness all behind.

Because I know I’m going…
I know it’s showing…
I know I’m going…
Stir Crazy.

Stir Crazy

I talked with you
I walked with you
Sometimes, we popped a cork or two
And now I can’t be with you,
It’s driving me insane.

I laughed with you
A time or two,
With you, the world seemed bright and new.
And now I can’t be with you,
It’s dull and grey again.

Now I can’t hold your hand
Life doesn’t seem as grand
The days seem twice as long
And in the nights,
The lonely nights,
And in the nights…
The memories are twice as strong.

~

I talked with you
I walked with you
Sometimes, we popped a cork or two
And now I cant be with you,
It’s driving me insane.

Now I can’t hold your hand
Life doesn’t seem as grand
The days seem twice as long
And in the nights,
The lonely nights,
And in the nights…
The memories are twice as strong.

We’ll see this through
And one day soon
We’ll be together, me and you.
Till then, knowing I love you
Is what will keep me sane.

The times that I’m not with you
Are driving me insane.

Driving me insane

A minute ago, you were there.
We had our whole lives to share.
The future looked so bright,
Everything was all right,
With love and laughter, and joy and song,
And in a minute, it was gone.

You were there, you were mine to hold,
Each day you were here was gold.
What should've been forever
Has turned into never,
The laughter crashed, and silenced the song,
And in that minute, you were gone.

A minute ago, we were together
A minute ago, life was forever.
A minute ago, my greatest treasure,
Here in my arms, forever, and ever, and ever...

A hollow wind now howls through me
Ice cold, where you used to be.
The sorrow breaks my heart,
Tears my soul apart,
The searing agony shoots me down
And I remember you are gone.

There was love and laughter, and joy and song.
And in a minute, it was gone.
In that lost minute, you were gone.

In a Minute

Hacker alert! (Hacker alert!)
You cracked open my heart (This is gonna hurt)
Cut through the firewall (Are you just a flirt?)
Your malware installed. (Hacker, Hacker alert.)

Took command of my keys (Hacker alert!)
And brought me to my knees (Kneeling in the dirt)
Not a thing I could do (This is gonna hurt)
To stop you getting through. (Hacker, Hacker alert.)

Password protected (Hacker alert!)
Yet still I’m infected. (This is gonna hurt)
No longer secure (Are you just a flirt)
And there isn’t a cure. (Hacker, Hacker…)

~

Hacker alert! (Hacker alert!)
You cracked open my heart (This is gonna hurt)
Cut through the firewall (Are you just a flirt?)
Your malware installed. (Hacker, Hacker alert.)

~

All my secrets laid bare (Hacker alert!)
And that makes me scared (Crawling in the dirt.)
While you just grow bold (Are you a flirt?)
Take remote control (Hacker, Hacker alert.)

Hacker alert! (Hacker alert!)
You cracked open my heart (Are you a flirt?)
Control, alt, delete (This is gonna hurt)
Intrusion complete. (Hacker, Hacker alert.)

(Hacker, Hacker, Hacker, alert…)

Control, alt, delete

You let me down again.
I trusted you and it seems this is where it ends,
With one more night of me pretending there’s no pain,
And now I know what I should do.

I’m leaving you behind,
There’s only so long I can go on being blind.
I’m out the door before you start to blow my mind,
And from now on, I’m over you.

From forever, it comes down to this, one last goodbye kiss.
From forever. Won’t be taken in by your honey talking.
From forever. A heartbreak feeling, then I start the healing.
From forever. Oh, I tried to put it right, but it was a losing fight,
And now I can see what you thought of me
And just knowing cuts me free
From forever.

Can’t say I enjoyed the ride,
The churned up, turned up way you made me feel inside,
Savaged my heart and left me nowhere I could hide,
But I survived and I came through

From forever, it comes down to this, one last goodbye kiss.
From forever. Won’t be taken in by your honey talking.
From forever. A heartbreak feeling, then I start the healing.
From forever. Oh, I tried to put it right, but it was a losing fight,
And now I can see what you thought of me
And just knowing cuts me free
From forever.

From forever, it comes down to this, one last goodbye kiss.
From forever. Won’t be taken in by your honey talking.
From forever. A heartbreak feeling, then I start the healing.
From forever. Oh, I tried to put it right, but it was a losing fight,
And now I can see what you thought of me
And just knowing cuts me free
From forever.

From Forever

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Round and round and up and down
The gallopers go by,
A journey of a thousand moments
Is travelled in a lie.
For all we think we’re moving on,
We end up right where we belong.

Tinny music pours its sound
Out of tune, and off key.
A herald to our true opponents:
The souls of you and me.
For all we think we’re moving on,
In truth, we couldn’t be more wrong.

My galloper moves on round,
Yours chases, far too slow.
If I hide, can I be sure I’m found?
It’s something I can’t know.
For all we think we’re moving on,
The end is where it was begun.

Round and round and up and down,
Fairground music in my head,
Up and down and round and round,
I can’t remember why I fled.

I chase you and you chase me
And the music plays off key.
Is this how it’s supposed to be?

The carousel slows on down,
And I should try to run.
Sheer willpower’s all that holds me now
The journey almost done.
For all we thought we had moved on,
We ‘ve come right back, where we belong.

Let new riders take our places,
For you and me, no more chases.
We let the gallopers move on,
And we stay here, where we belong.

Gallopers

Has anyone told you you're living a lie?
Have you ever stopped and asked yourself why?
Did you ever consider how I would feel
When you threw away the love I thought was real?
No, you didn't. To you it's just a game.
You'll take the win, but you won't take the blame.

And how can you live with yourself late at night?
Do the nightmares make you turn on the light?
Do you cross yourself and then pray for a sign?
The lamp at your feet that makes your way shine?
No, you do not. To you, it's just a game.
You'll take the win, but you won't take the blame.

Ice on your soul, cold from the start.
Happy hour for the collector of hearts.
A reason to go out, an excuse to stay in,
Quickening tempo, change partners again.

Ice on your soul burns in your kiss.
Arrow on your bow. And you never miss.
A feather in your cap or a knife in your hand?
A desp’rate hilltop to make your last stand.

You laugh too loud for it to be real.
I don't think you know how you really feel.

Anyone can see that you're living a lie
But have you stopped and asked yourself why?
Do you cross yourself and then pray for a sign?
A lamp in the darkness, a light that will shine?
No, you do not. To you it's just a game.
You take the win, you never take the blame.

Ice on your soul

The powder keg is primed.
All it needs is one small flame to blow us both sky high,
And all the hopes and dreams I’ve had
Shattered on the razor sky,
Scattered over icy ground,
Battered on the frosty air.
Broken, lost somewhere.

Your finger’s on the flint.
Turn the wheel and we will see the sparks begin to fly,
And all the hopes and dreams I’ve had
Shattered on the razor sky,
Scattered over icy ground,
Battered on the frosty air.
It all seems so unfair.

Remember.
We danced here in the rain.
Moonlight fractured over broken bottle chandeliers
When life was for the living
And happiness was crisp packets and a couple of flat beers
And what we thought that we would have
Was not yet stolen by the years
That line our faces,
And kick the traces,
Before replacing
Our hopes and dreams with deep white scars and angry lonely tears

Shattered on the razor sky,
Scattered on the icy ground,
Battered on the frosty air,
As if we lost the dare.
It all seems so unfair.

The powder keg is primed.
So set the fuse and light it, and blow us both sky high
Kiss me now for old time’s sake
Beneath a misty street lamp,
In the dark not-quite-damp,
And then just walk away.
Don’t taint the air with promises or seed the wind with lies,
Do not turn around or answer me when I ask why.
Just leave me shattered
My hopes all scattered
Forever battered.
I’ll pick up the pieces, and somehow I’ll survive.

Life is for the living, and I know I’ll get by,
On your goodbye.

Shattered

Boy, I need to get outside
Leave reality behind.
Feel the sun’s rays on my face
As I run far from this place.
Breathing slow when panic ends
Again.

This feels too much like hard time,
Misery stealing my prime,
Breaking everything I am,
Laughing at my future plans.
Will this torment ever end
Again?

Right now I’m going
Stir Crazy. How much more can I take?
Stir Crazy. I need to make my break.
Stir Crazy. Before I lose my mind.
Stir Crazy. Leave the madness all behind.

Because I know I’m going…
I know it’s showing…
I know I’m going…
Stir Crazy.

Everything I thought I knew
All the things I thought were true
The confidence I thought I wore
Left in tatters on the floor.
Past the point where it can mend
Again.

And it’s leaving me
Stir Crazy. How much more can I take?
Stir Crazy. I need to make my break.
Stir Crazy. Before I lose my mind.
Stir Crazy. Leave the madness all behind.

Because I know I’m going…
I know it’s showing…
I know I’m going…
Stir Crazy.

Locked up tight,
(The future’s hazy)
Is this what it’s coming to?
(Is this what it’s coming to?)
Locked up tight
(And I’m stir crazy)
This is what it’s coming to.
(This is what it’s coming to.)
All my nightmares coming true.
(Leaves me crazy through and through)
This is what it’s coming to, (coming to, coming to…)

Will this torment ever end
Again?

And now I’m going
Stir Crazy. How much more can I take?
Stir Crazy. I need to make my break.
Stir Crazy. Before I lose my mind.
Stir Crazy. Leave the madness all behind.

Because I know I’m going…
I know it’s showing…
I know I’m going…
Stir Crazy.

Stir Crazy

I talked with you
I walked with you
Sometimes, we popped a cork or two
And now I can’t be with you,
It’s driving me insane.

I laughed with you
A time or two,
With you, the world seemed bright and new.
And now I can’t be with you,
It’s dull and grey again.

Now I can’t hold your hand
Life doesn’t seem as grand
The days seem twice as long
And in the nights,
The lonely nights,
And in the nights…
The memories are twice as strong.

~

I talked with you
I walked with you
Sometimes, we popped a cork or two
And now I cant be with you,
It’s driving me insane.

Now I can’t hold your hand
Life doesn’t seem as grand
The days seem twice as long
And in the nights,
The lonely nights,
And in the nights…
The memories are twice as strong.

We’ll see this through
And one day soon
We’ll be together, me and you.
Till then, knowing I love you
Is what will keep me sane.

The times that I’m not with you
Are driving me insane.

Driving me insane

A minute ago, you were there.
We had our whole lives to share.
The future looked so bright,
Everything was all right,
With love and laughter, and joy and song,
And in a minute, it was gone.

You were there, you were mine to hold,
Each day you were here was gold.
What should've been forever
Has turned into never,
The laughter crashed, and silenced the song,
And in that minute, you were gone.

A minute ago, we were together
A minute ago, life was forever.
A minute ago, my greatest treasure,
Here in my arms, forever, and ever, and ever...

A hollow wind now howls through me
Ice cold, where you used to be.
The sorrow breaks my heart,
Tears my soul apart,
The searing agony shoots me down
And I remember you are gone.

There was love and laughter, and joy and song.
And in a minute, it was gone.
In that lost minute, you were gone.

In a Minute


About Me

Bio

I live in Sussex, UK. When I'm not writing, I'm reading, knitting, and spending time with my family.

CV/History

I've had 18 stage plays published, one of which won an award, two more were shortlisted. Some include songs I wrote lyrics for. Also had three Regency Romance novels and 2 Pocket Novels published. Regency number 4 is released in June 2024.

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