If you hadda left me
By way of passing from life,
This all would be different
Without disgrace & this strife.
They’d have brought covered dishes
Wiped the tears from my eyes…
They’d ‘a been giving me big hugs
Gifting warm, home-baked pies.
Folks would speak kind words to console me
Say I was a good wife
They’d say I was blessing,
the best thing in your life.
As it is, you betrayed me
With low femme fatales
Cold-hearted and so cruel
No feeling at all.
So they say I deserve it,
Or should’ve known from the start.
The shame of your doings
Burns my face and my heart.
An’ you’re still out there with ‘em
Having an excellent time
Picking out baby boy names
For a child that’s not mine.
Oh, the ways you’ve betrayed me,
So many wounds I can’t hide
Mocked our most sacred moments,
then both laughed as I died.
You instigate and you taunt me
like a toy on a string
Threaten and blame me
‘N’ I can’t do anything
There’s a part of me inside…
That wishes you’d just died…
Now, I’m a God-fearing woman,
So don’t get me wrong,
But I wish you were 10 foot under
Where you can’t hurt me no more!
I wish that you had died…
I wish you’d just died.
I wish that you had died…
I wish you’d just died.
If you hadda left me
By way of passing from life,
This all would be different
Without disgrace & this strife.
They’d have brought covered dishes
Wiped the tears from my eyes…
They’d ‘a been giving me big hugs
Gifting warm, home-baked pies.
Folks would speak kind words to console me
Say I was a good wife
They’d say I was blessing,
the best thing in your life.
As it is, you betrayed me
With low femme fatales
Cold-hearted and so cruel
No feeling at all.
So they say I deserve it,
Or should’ve known from the start.
The shame of your doings
Burns my face and my heart.
An’ you’re still out there with ‘em
Having an excellent time
Picking out baby boy names
For a child that’s not mine.
Oh, the ways you’ve betrayed me,
So many wounds I can’t hide
Mocked our most sacred moments,
then both laughed as I died.
You instigate and you taunt me
like a toy on a string
Threaten and blame me
‘N’ I can’t do anything
There’s a part of me inside…
That wishes you’d just died…
Now, I’m a God-fearing woman,
So don’t get me wrong,
But I wish you were 10 foot under
Where you can’t hurt me no more!
I wish that you had died…
I wish you’d just died.
I wish that you had died…
I wish you’d just died.
If you hadda left me
By way of passing from life,
This all would be different
Without disgrace & this strife.
They’d have brought covered dishes
Wiped the tears from my eyes…
They’d ‘a been giving me big hugs
Gifting warm, home-baked pies.
Folks would speak kind words to console me
Say I was a good wife
They’d say I was blessing,
the best thing in your life.
As it is, you betrayed me
With low femme fatales
Cold-hearted and so cruel
No feeling at all.
So they say I deserve it,
Or should’ve known from the start.
The shame of your doings
Burns my face and my heart.
An’ you’re still out there with ‘em
Having an excellent time
Picking out baby boy names
For a child that’s not mine.
Oh, the ways you’ve betrayed me,
So many wounds I can’t hide
Mocked our most sacred moments,
then both laughed as I died.
You instigate and you taunt me
like a toy on a string
Threaten and blame me
‘N’ I can’t do anything
There’s a part of me inside…
That wishes you’d just died…
Now, I’m a God-fearing woman,
So don’t get me wrong,
But I wish you were 10 foot under
Where you can’t hurt me no more!
I wish that you had died…
I wish you’d just died.
I wish that you had died…
I wish you’d just died.
Anna Kemp is a bold lyricist who writes songs that can be both wry and spiritual, touching on relationships, transformation, hardship and hope. Her work is informed by such diverse influences as John Ashbery, Johnny Cash and Taylor Swift.
Anna Kemp holds a BFA from University of the Arts (Painting) and an MFA from Rutgers University.
23 years experience Community College Visual Arts Educator
18 years experience K-12 Art Educator
Poet
