You Nailed My Heart
By Steve Poly
I am standing by your side ,I am waiting for you to hold my hand ,you never do ,....... there’s a nailrain between us ....no feeling in my heart......our relationship was fxxxed... i fell down on the ground ,no one was there to lift me up ... doesn’t anyone care to be with me… how can I change your mind?... It’s so damn cold inside ,so deep inside ,I will never survivein this painful bleeding life ,can you take away that blooded razor blade from my hand and find me someone to warm my deep frozen heart.I am not truly searching for anything ..........I don’t care if there is anyone out there for me to share my love......sometimes i don’t wanna have anyone around me......but i always have the need for someone to hug me......noone is near......,,who can be, by my side?......when I am always running away from everyone....i wonder....... has anyone ever really loved me?...why do I have the feeling that something is always chasing me?...is there someone behind me?......and when i turnback , noone is behind me…nothing is following me…maybe something is haunting me......i have never been in-love with anything or anyone ....nothing truly excites me anymore...it’s so damn cold inside, so deep inside ,I will never have you in this painful bleeding life, can you take away that blooded razor blade from my hand before I add another veincut.... A rotten nail...A rotten nail ... Deep.......Deep..... inside of me.............causing me unstoppable bleeding....causing me uncurable pain .............oooo why am i so unhappy?.....oooo why are only your eyes making me happy ........And you really cheer me up!!! Cheer me up!!!Cheer me up.....!!!!! it’s a dark frozen night .....and it’s still a fxxxing daylight .......i don’t want the night to come......You will never be mine in this painful bleeding life ...cause deep inside i have a nail...which is bleeding my heart......makes me wonder if I am still alive or… am i one with the dead? Makes me wonder if I am really in my room or am I locked up in a mental institution? .... am i a human or an alien?...Makes me wonder ..... Do I have a beating heart or a vampired one......why am I drifting around these empty streets....acting like a junky, hanging out with punks....and pimps ........ I am so damn cold inside ...... so fxxxing frozen ....i feel no fxxxing blood... running through my veins anymore........I am always fighting with everyone ....or maybe am I battling with my own demons...... you made me feel so vulnerable...so vulnerable , that if someone touches me , I am afraid that I am gonna be torn apart ......shattered into million little bloody pieces .......because I will never be with you ...only your touch and your voice can feed...... my hungry for love heart ......I am not with you ...i am not with you.......you and me....we will never become one ......as we dreamed...... about it.....My mind is full of hopeless thoughts......you will never touch ....my inner feelings......you will never touch my inner hopes........you will never touch my loving desires, that come from deep within ............You will never heal my deep wounds…you nailed my heart for nothing, now how can I give you something...you came back........Do you really enjoy watching me suffer ,do you really enjoy watching me be in terrible pain?...I will never give you my heart again.....!!!You rip it apart and you nailed it for fun!!!!!You nailed my heart!!!! And you let that nail.... Rott .... Rott … inside of me....!!!.......It is bleeding me..... it is hurting me.....it is killing me .......You made me feel like a complete loser!!Like a complete nothing..... i don’t care if everything is messed up...since we aren’t together!!!!Nothing is complicated when we are together..... You left me living in a state.......that i don’t recognize ...not even my own self....even if you follow my heart's blood trails..... they wont lead you to my deepest loving needs .....You will never find out what I am truly hiding deep inside ........you have haunted my bleeding heart.... ..you made me even cry with tears of blood , you made me feel so alone.........i know exactly what you are!!!..You are my invisible ...my invisible....... Rotten nail.....my rotten nail........A nail !!!!!.. A nail !!!.... That is bleeding my heart ...... from the inside .....i finally figure out what you make me feel ......You are my invisible.......my invisible.........my rotten nail....my rotten nail.....That lays deep inside my bleeding heart!!!!!!!!! ...who is going to save me... from this endless bleeding pain......who is going to save me from this endless slowing heartless torture .....maybe I am just trapped in my own mind.....maybe I am just living a torture of being in love and hurt together ,how can I live without you forever?..... lost deep in my own thoughts.......without you......am I living in hell or in heaven???... am i standing on the ground or am i just flying around?.......am i in love with an angel ...or with a demon?….Our lost connection caused my heroine injection....its so damn cold inside , so deep inside , I will never be happy in this painful bleeding life ,can you take away that blooded razor blade from my hand before I add the final veincut …You nailed my heart for nothing now how can you deserve something….You came back...to feed me with lies? To tell me one truth?stop talking...hold my hand... hug me as a teen....stroke my hair a bit....and kiss me sweet on my cheek.....i won’t ask for much this night...... let’s be one tonight.....you and me.....i won’t even bother asking why you came back!!!!.....i won’t start a fight this night.....i just wanna have you..... i just wanna have you by my side....having you here with me tonight....is enough to save me from a certain suicide......having you here tonight...... is all I’ve ever wanted ,,,,,in my entire life....your kiss , has managed to fill in my lost heart blood..........I am with you.....I am Finally with you...... i love you .... i love you.....
