TaraLune

I just wanna go to bed
Not remember what you said
Pulled away from me
You forgot how much I bleed
Please look me in the face
I’m begging you to stay
How could you erase
Me

Shattered on the floor
As you walk away with her
Where did I go wrong
There is no moving on
Every piece of me with you
And now she has me too

Fell so hard I bruised
Thought that you did too
Said you’d never leave
You only wanted me
Can’t forget the way you taste
Can feel your kiss upon my face
I’d die for one last embrace
Ooooohhh

Shattered on the floor
As you walk away with her
Where did I go wrong
There is no moving on
Every piece of me with you
And now she has me too

(Chill instrumental breakdown)

As you walk away with her
Her hand where mine once was
Every piece of me with you
And now she has me too

I underestimated your touch
Want to show appreciation, but I’m lost
Petals on the floor, he loves me not
Don’t get it confused, all I ever think is you
How can I show, when I’m living in the blue
I feel too much but not enough for you
I know I fail to show, but oh, I love you so

Blue is not my color, and I’m bluer without my lover
I know I’ve hurt you darlin
But I wish you’d call

I can’t take away your pain, I can only watch you suffer
My blues have bled into you, my poor lover
Wish I’d get the chance for one last dance
But what do I deserve
Your love is like the sun, but I’ve iced it over to the point of no return
I hate what I have done, you were right to run
Blue is creeping, tempting me, my lover

But if there’s any thought, maybe just a drop
I know I’ve hurt you darlin
I wish, I pray, I need to have hope that you’ll call

Tryin to catch my fall
Thought that I’d seen it all
Wanderin through my days
Not sure where I’d end up next

Oh but you, oh you
Held out your hand, helped me to stand
Showed me what I’ve been missin
And now I fall, fall, fall, I fall

Into your kiss, your lovin abyss
Eyes wide open and you’re still holdin
All of me, with all of you
No sense of space or time
Just you and me in our twisted minds

Finally found my truth
Dancin round this world with you
Coming into myself
Who knew this was how it felt?

Oh but you, oh you
Held out your hand, now I can stand
Never missin a beat again
And still I fall, fall, fall, I fall

Into your kiss, your lovin abyss
Eyes wide open and you’re still here holdin
All of me, with all of you
No sense of space or time
Just you and me in our twisted minds

Glowin in the sun, dancing in the rain
Holding onto moments but releasing all the pain
You cannot hold me up, I’m running far away
Far into the fields of the flowers in my brain
Fire burning all the mess from yesterday
Wind blowing through my hair as it whips away the day
Water flooding out the ashes, carried by the rain
Back into the earth- it’s time to propagate
Flowing in my mind, roots filling in the blank spaces in the light
Watch as I bloom
I’m gonna need some room
As I lay dying, as the shell that I once was
The only hand to grab for was the one within my heart
Gasping up for air, I finally was there
Looking at the smile and the flowers in her hair
What beauty to behold, that woman in my soul
I’m holding onto me, blooming buds are everywhere

Why’d you have to wait?
Maybe then it wouldn’t hurt so bad
Maybe then we could have
Maybe then I wouldn’t feel this way.
Rocks and hard places.
I want to leave but can’t
I can’t afford to leave, to break your heart, to break mine, to give hope
I know where this is going
This limbo is heart wrenching
We’re together but we’re not.
Rocks rocks rocks
You make me want to give you chances, but haven’t I given enough?
I feel stuck.
Hard places
How many more days, months, years do I have to wait?
When you were the one waiting all along
To give me love and help me feel strong
You want me to wait to see the man you’ve become
Wait and wonder if maybe this time it’ll stick, wait and wonder when the bomb is gonna tick
I’ve been held down, I’ve been held back
I’m starting to think this is an attack
It hurts and it burns
Not my love, but the time.
The limbo.
False hope is not my intention
But after so many years it’s hard to pull away and stick to my vision
I’ve missed your arms, I’ve missed your touch
But too many years have gone by without them and I have no trust
I hate this, it hurts, I don’t know what to do
But what hurts most is this limbo with you.

I love hard
I love fast
I love you on the weekends and everyday in between
I sit by my phone hoping for a text
Wishing you would call
Give me my breath
But you don’t
And is it me?
Or am I just not a priority?
Or do I come on too strong?
Throw love bombs until I drop to my knees
Begging for something in return,
A thank you at least?
Maybe I need to chill
Sit back and ignore
Or maybe… go explore
There are options you see
They’re endless and plentiful, but you have my attention
Could you give me some please?
I’m soft
I’m learning to rebuild
Don’t play with me,
I get confused
When I’m confused I feel used
I feel like a child, begging for mom and dad to look, maybe that’s a wound I tend to overlook
But I refuse to beg any longer
I’m fxxxing soft but growing stronger
Hurry it up and pay attention
Cuz after a while, imma question your intentions
And when that happens, it’s gonna rain
A gust of wind with a whisper of my name
Don’t okay with me I’m not so weak
Don’t make me get those scissors and leave you in the street
My heart has a time limit
And that fxxxing clock is ticking
Once you’re cut, I’m gone like a shadow in the night
And that cuts gonna hurt,
Cuz I’m always the one that got away, right?
And when you see me shining
Those wounds you’ll still be licking
As I walk on by with a “hey, you’re so and so, right?”
It’ll be as if you never fxxxing existed
Don’t play with me cuz deep down I’m vicious
If those intentions start shifting, imma feel it and join the game
But promise you this, I won’t be the one in pain
So you wanna play? That’s cool, that’s tight
Just remember when you feel like hitting my line at night
Imma leave you on read, then go to bed, leave you scratching your head
But that clock was ticking
And that train? You missed it.
Those good morning texts don’t mean shit
More like a trophy if I’m being honest.
Don’t be mad, cuz it’s you that wasn’t on it.

Been searching for a way, a way to ease my heart
I’ve been chasing dreams and losing sleep to find the answers
Hidden away, blocked up the space to free my mind
Need something more
I’ve been here before
Have to find a way to cast out the pain
You, I’ve seen before in the ether
I need a guide, and you’re so divine
Let me into your love
Oh, take me out
I see a light, hold it up high

Take me out of this worldly institution
I’m more than a body, I am the solution
The ether is calling for my retribution
Growing and throwing up my contributions
Been lying and cheating, for that I’m so sorry
Entrapped in this victim that once was my body
Still learning the ways of all that which is holy
Under all this flesh growth is happening slowly
Come with me, together we’ll explore this new world
Frequency rising like I am a force field
The aura expanding, encasing in my shield
New secrets and lessons waiting to be revealed
Intuitive guidance no longer ignored
Bursting into flame, I am reborn
Like Phoenix rise up from the ashes and soar
To new planes, dimensions, never been explored
Implosion impending with new information
Divine intervention for all of creation
Nothing can stop us from our divination
Vibration’s ecstatic no chance for dilution
Waxing and waning into evolution
No other choice but who execution
I’m more than a body, I am the solution

Saw you once, saw you twice, started giving you advice, oh so friendly
You needed help and I was there, showed you love without a care and then you turned on me
You wanted him and pushed at me, tried to give him your disease, but darlin let me be clear
Your first mistake was underestimating me
Fire to fire, your flame is weak, sweetie your magic ain’t gonna work here

I didn’t need a spell to get the ring
His eyes only ever see me
So light your candles and read your tea leaves
I’d use protection cuz that, bounces back times 3
So throw it at me, play your games
Meanwhile, he’ll be screaming out my name

You manipulate your way around, burning houses to the ground, you thought it’d be easy
I don’t need you to explain, your karmas gonna cause some pain, but these shoulders won’t host your crocodile tears
Please understand, there was no fight
You like to bark but never bite
Can we be honest here?
It was never a competition, it’s sweet you thought you’d stand, after failing your mission, how’s it feel to have no hand?

I didn’t need a spell to get the ring
His eyes only ever see me
So light your candles and read your tea leaves
I’d use protection cuz that bounces back times three
Throw it at me and play your games
Meanwhile, he’ll be screaming out my name

You see, he only ever wanted me
A woman is what he seeks
Your childish ways are embarrassing
Demon in a flesh suit, you’ve wasted precious time
Cuz I think it’s real cute you thought you could steal mine