Still on my own
By Rhiannon
It’s dripping, I’m dropping to the floor
Too deep in my bones, stuck in my core
I’m slipping, why is this fitting,
Why is it so steep to let go?
There’s never enough, it’s leaking through the cracks
Fill me up, take a swim in these waters
Tell me how to get warmer
Why is everything darker?
Come hold me, help me fix every hole
Come hold me, hold me longer, I want more
Come hold me, give me space to heal my soul
(But I’m still alone, still on my own)
I scream until my voice cracks, cry until my eyes dry
But nobody answers, nobody hears me call
Nobody’s holding me, helping me mend
I’m stuck here wanting it all
Energy rises, crawling up my spine
For whom do I keep this shrine?
Waiting, longing, left with myself
Trying to find a way
Come hold me, help me fix every hole
Come hold me, hold me longer, I want more
Come hold me, give me space to heal my soul
(Still I’m alone, still on my own)
I touch my skin, burning within
Hands to my heart, why do I make it so hard?
Softening the heaviness, caressing the blindness
Tuning these tears to a rhythm of happiness
Oh, I find it—suddenly it’s easy to hold me
I own this role, I stand on my own
I’m here holding me, holding me stronger
Breathing here longer, my soul already knows
(Oh yes I’m still alone, still on my own. I’m holding me, I’m holding me…)
