Callie O.P.

I used to judge people
Who can’t let go of what’s gone
Why bother with something that can’t be undone
What’s the point? It’s in the past anyhow
But with a spark of clarity, I understand now
How can you move on
When your every thought is a question
I see you now, coming towards me
Ready to collect your past’s bounty

[Chorus]
Oh, cruel irony
The judge is called to the stand
(Called to the stand)
The victims asked
“How did you not understand?”
(Did you not understand?)
It seems I’m starting to learn the more cruel things in life
I have a feeling there’s going to be worse lessons than these
Can I get my ignorance back, please?

How can I blame you for retaliating
Is it crazy that I’m willing to do anything
Anything to make things right
Even though I know this could ruin my life
I surrender myself to you
To repay the debt that’s long overdue
I hope you’ll be kind to me
Even when I haven’t been to you
Please know the remorse I feel is true

[Chorus]
Oh, cruel irony
The judge is called to the stand
(called to the stand)
The victims asked
“How did you not understand?”
(Did you not understand?)
It seems I’m starting to learn the more cruel things in life
I have a feeling there’s going to be worse lessons than these
Can I get my ignorance back, please?

I once declared I have nothing to pay for
What’s done is done, get a move on
But I saw your fading spark
And it broke my heart
Now I’m trying to say sorry with all my might
How could I ever have dulled your gorgeous light

[Chorus]
Oh, cruel irony
The judge is called to the stand
(called to the stand)
The victims screamed
“How did you not understand?!”
(Did you not understand?)
It seems I’m starting to learn the more cruel things in life
I have a feeling there’s going to be worse lessons than these
Can I get my ignorance back, please?
Can I get my ignorance back, please?
Can I get my ignorance back, please?

Here’s you,
Here’s all of you calling me to the stand
I wish I had a better answer than
“I did not understand…”

[ Verse 1 ]
Should’ve minded my own business
Should’ve walked past and ignored it
But I saw a spark and dared a look
That was all it took

Into the blue and through the black
Down some red brick alleys, I’ve lost track
How far I’ve gone, I wasn’t aware
All I see are the missing posters everywhere

I take a closer look to see what it could be
… Oh my god, it’s my sanity

[ Chorus ]
Should’ve kept going
Should’ve kept my head down
Now I’m stuck on this side of town
With skulls and cigarettes rolling around
I try to get out but it’s a maze
Running and screaming I fell on my face
I smell the stench of smoke and fear
F**k, I need to get out of here!

[ Verse 2 ]
Dragging my feet, I keep searching
What a mess this is, I keep thinking
This is not what I’m looking for
I don’t want this anymore

Treading through the dark alleyways
Brittle bones crunching under my weight
Clouds of grey got me hallucinating
I’m laughing but parts of me are breaking

Looking for love, this is what I get
Let’s hope I don’t end up dead

[ Chorus ]
Should’ve kept going
Should’ve kept my head down
Now I’m stuck on this side of town
With skulls and cigarettes rolling around
I try to get out but it’s a maze
Running and screaming I fell on my face
I smell the stench of smoke and fear
F**k, I need to get out of here!

[ Bridge ]
Let’s be smart, let’s not panic
There’s got to be a way out of this
Let’s be calm, but let’s be real
I know when I’m in too deep

[ Chorus ]
Should’ve kept going
Should’ve kept my head down
Now I’m stuck on this side of town
With skulls and cigarettes rolling around
I try to get out but it’s a maze
Running and screaming I fell on my face
I smell the stench of smoke and fear
F**k, I need to get out of here!

Should’ve walked past it
Should’ve ignored it

Should’ve kept going
Should’ve kept on hoping

Should’ve kept my head down
Now I’m stuck on this side of town
With skulls and cigarettes rolling around

Now I’m stuck on this side of town
With skulls and cigarettes rolling around

I feel the fear seeping into my bones
I try to keep it under control
Still, I’m here petrified by thoughts of you
Starting over with someone new

In the darkness, I’m clutching my head
My voice hoarse from screaming out my chest
Tell me, can you hear me
Religiously tearing out my misery

[Chorus]
I screamed to the skies frustrated at the fates
How can I let go if I keep seeing your face
Phantoms of you showing up here and there
Little reminders of you everywhere
How can I stop reminding myself
One day you’ll end up with someone else
Can you hear my screams?
Phantoms of you keep haunting me

I look up and see you so close to my face
And of course it makes my heart race
I find myself reaching out in the cold air
Before realizing you’re not there

The space between us is getting colder
But phantoms of you are getting stronger
I take your hand and we dance the night away
Before I remembered you didn’t stay

[Chorus]
I screamed to the skies frustrated at the fates
How can I let go if I keep seeing your face
Phantoms of you showing up here and there
Little reminders of you everywhere
How can I stop reminding myself
One day you’ll end up with someone else
Can you hear my screams?
Phantoms of you keep haunting me

Phantoms of you showing up everywhere
I should worry but at times I don’t care
I’m ashamed to admit that I love how
Even when you’re not here, you’re with me somehow

[Chorus]
I screamed to the skies frustrated at the fates
How can I let go if I keep seeing your face
Phantoms of you showing up here and there
Little reminders of you everywhere
How can I stop reminding myself
One day you’ll end up with someone else
Can you hear my screams?
Phantoms of you keep haunting me

Can you hear my screams?
Phantoms of you keep haunting me
Phantoms of you keep haunting me
Phantoms of you keep haunting me

Can you hear my screams?
Phantoms of you keep haunting me

I suppose it started with your eyes
So deep with intensity
I had to look away
But your soul within kept calling
Making me want to stay

I barely noticed when it happened
Little verses came to life in my head
It’s such a surreal moment
Didn’t know what was causing it
But I closed my eyes
Then I realized

It’s you darling
It’s you all along
You came into my life
And I couldn’t believe your effect on me
One moment I’m laughing the next I’m crying
Can’t keep track of all these feelings
The biggest change of all
My thoughts turned into songs
The moment you came along

It’s you darling
It’s you all along
You came into my life
And I couldn’t believe your effect on me
One moment I’m laughing the next I’m crying
Can’t keep track of all these feelings
The biggest change of all
My thoughts turned into songs
The moment you came along

I’ve never been good with words before
But it’s like you opened a locked door
Into my life you ventured in
And freed the words I’m now singing
Darling, I would like to thank you
All of this is because of you

It’s you darling
It’s you all along
You came into my life
And I couldn’t believe your effect on me
One moment I’m laughing the next I’m crying
Can’t keep track of all these feelings
The biggest change of all
My thoughts turned into songs
The moment you came along

It’s you darling
It’s you all along
You came into my life
And I couldn’t believe your effect on me
One moment I’m laughing the next I’m crying
Can’t keep track of all these feelings
The biggest change of all
My thoughts turned into songs
The moment you came along

On my way to start my day
I’m greeted by birds chirping away
The sun is shining and I’m smiling
I took a step outside and I see you walking by
Dressed in all black, you crossed the street
And I stood there, staring, heart thumping
You didn’t even see me at all
But ever since that day

[ Chorus ]
I’ve been spending my days scribbling away
Taking down careful notes of how
When you smile the world becomes brighter
When you talk my heart gets lighter
My friends caught me smiling to myself
They ask me what I’m thinking
I say, “It’s nothing…”
As I drew your name in a heart

I’ve got nice guys asking me out
I admit it feels nice to be noticed
But oh, how I wish it was you instead
I tried to say yes but your face is stuck in my head
My friends asked why I turned that guy down
I say, “I’m young, I wanna have fun,
But I have my sights set on someone”
Yeah, it’s you, if only you knew

[ Chorus ]
I’ve been spending my days scribbling away
Taking down careful notes of how
When you smile the world becomes brighter
When you talk my heart gets lighter
My friends caught me smiling to myself
They ask me what I’m thinking
I say, “It’s nothing…”
As I drew your name in a heart

I’m looking out of windows
As if they might give me an answer
Like how to make you notice me
Daydreaming of you has become my routine
I wish I wasn’t this way
Lord knows I seem desperate
But what can I do
I can’t help thinking of you

[ Chorus ]
I’ve been spending my days scribbling away
Taking down careful notes of how
When you smile the world becomes brighter
When you talk my heart gets lighter
My friends caught me smiling to myself
They ask me what I’m thinking
I say, “It’s nothing…”
As I drew your name in a heart

Here I am on this journey
On a quest that was involuntary
Living life in search for wisdom
Cuz this world just won’t let me be

It seems like the closer i get
The more fxxxed up things get
I know it’s just life teaching me
Lessons I’ll never forget

[Chorus]
But did I really have to
Go through all that pain
Crashing, burning
Feeling like I’m going insane
And then they’ll say
It’ll make sense someday
Is that my cue
To start feeling okay?

Waking up each day
Trying to make sense of it all
Thinking to myself
What if I fly but what if I fall

Doubts perpetually living in my mind
There’s really not much I can do
I just keep pushing through
Cuz what else am I gonna do?

[Chorus]
But did I really have to
Go through all that pain
Crashing, burning
Feeling like I’m going insane
And then they’ll say
It’ll make sense someday
Is that my cue
To start feeling okay?

[Chorus]
But did I really have to
Go through all that pain
Crashing, burning
Feeling like I’m going insane
And then they’ll say
It’ll make sense someday
Is that my cue
To start feeling okay?

Not much is going on tonight
I’m just remembering your beautiful smile
I’m shocked because it’s been quite some time
Since memories of you came barging in
I almost thought you’re gone from my life at last
But now that I’m recalling the past
Instead of a sigh of relief
I end up filled with shattering grief

[Chorus]
I wonder what are you doing right now
I’m just here wondering how it’d be
If we ended up together
Would our lives be so much better
Darling, would it be to much to reminisce
‘Bout all the times we laughed and kissed
Sharing thoughts throughout the night
Waking up side by side
Even though it’s all in my mind

I bet you're spending your days working hard
Never letting distractions get in the way
I know how fierce you could be
To show the world you deserve your victories
But I still can’t help but think of the day
Someone will eventually come your way
And you’ll look up just enough to see
Someone who you’ll love wholeheartedly

[Chorus]
I wonder what are you doing right now
I’m just here wondering how it’d be
If we ended up together
Would our lives be so much better
Darling, would it be to much to reminisce
‘Bout all the times we laughed and kissed
Sharing thoughts throughout the night
Waking up side by side
Even though it’s all in my mind

It seems I’m not ready to let you go
I’m still waiting for you, just so you know

[Chorus]
I wonder what are you doing right now
I’m just here wondering how it’d be
If we ended up together
Would our lives be so much better
Darling, would it be to much to reminisce
‘Bout all the times we laughed and kissed
Sharing thoughts throughout the night
Waking up side by side
Even though it’s all in my mind

How many more times will my heart break
How much more pain can my soul take
How much more tears do I have to cry
To finally get you off my mind
Even then that’s the easy part
Because there’s nothing I can do
To keep you out of my heart

I try to find all the pieces of me
Shattered and scattered you so callously left behind
I try to pick them up
But the jagged pieces only cut through
Leaving me wounded and bleeding
I guess I’m about to find out
If people really do die from broken hearts

How many more times will my heart break
How much more pain can my soul take
How much more tears do I have to cry
To finally get you from my mind
Even then that’s the easy part
Because there’s nothing I can do
To keep you out of my heart

In the night I feel it coming
Echoes of you come knocking
Impossible to ignore
When my heart starts thumping
Louder and louder

How many more times will my heart break
How much more pain can my soul take
How much more tears do I have to cry
To finally get you from my mind
Even then that’s the easy part
Because there’s nothing I can do
To keep you out of my heart

How many more times will my heart break
How much more pain can my soul take
How much more tears do I have to cry
To finally get you from my mind
Even then that’s the easy part
Because there’s nothing I can do
To keep you out of my heart