I am a twenty years old girl from the lovely island of Jamaica with a passion for writing and a love for music. Creative and determined are the descriptors of my person.

You said you loved me,
That was a lie
You said you were different
That was a line
I boosted your ego
You played with my life
You broke my heart
And messed with my mind
You just left me with trust issues
Now I don't trust people
Because he can be honest
Practically flawless
And I may desperately want him
But I won't let myself trust him
Because as great as he is
He could just be….
Another you
And you said you loved me
That was a lie
Said you were a different
That was a line
So how I'm to trust again
He could be the greatest
And all I would see…
Is another you
You messed with my sight
Obscured my judgement
How I'm supposed to trust my heart
When it thought it was love it had with you
And along you were playing me for a fool
You said you loved me
That was a lie
Said you were different
That was a line
Broke my heart
And messed with my mind
And now every guy I'm into
I'm scared they'll be just….
Another you
And he could be honest
I could desperately want him
But you made me toxic
I didn't want this
You pretended to be nice
Now everyone who's nice,
I think ….
Is just another you
You destroyed a part of me
And now my walls are high
Because I'm scared
That I'll get hurt….
By another you
You said you loved me
That was a lie
Said you were different
That was a line
You broke my heart
And messed with my mind
And now I’ll I see when I try to love
When I wanna let down those walls for someone else
Is another you
I wanna shut her up
The voice in my head
Telling me I'm wrong
I'm not better of dead
I wanna shut her up
She tells me to fight
That I have so much more to offer to life
She's always there
Sometimes she whispers
Sometimes she screams
Gotta keep fighting
Just watch one day, you'll see
She says don't quit
You'll make it out
You just have to survive this nasty round
But I wanna shut her up
The voice in my head
Telling me I'm wrong
I'm not better off dead
I wanna shut her up
She tells me to fight
That I have so much more to offer to life
She says be strong
She says I ain't weak
She says I'm a fighter
Because living ain't easy
She says don't quit
And screams don't you dare
When I'm on my knees
And falling into despair
My body's weak
My spirit's tired
I wanna give in
But she has me fighting desperately
I wanna shut her up
But she won't let go
She says I have to keep fighting
It gets better down the road
I wanna shut her up
The voice in my head
But she's always there
Pushing me to fight another day
I could be a brat if you want me to
Anything you say
That's what I won't do
Getting mad in the face
Cause you have control issues
And me feeling good
Cause I don't like being told what to do
Telling me with your eyes
That I shouldn't push you
And me getting excited
Cause it's time for round two
I'm yours and only brat
Your only baby doll
If I don't get what I want
Then my pretty face will be sad
I am childish and bratty
You have me speaking Spanish
Cause I be calling you my papi
I love pissing you off
And driving you crazy
But you can't stay mad at me
Cause after all ain't I your baby
I am bratty and incessant
You better buy me presents
Nothing but the best for me
You know I am high maintenance
I don't ask questions
I make demands
One of many charms
But I know you'll move heaven and earth for me
Anything for yr babydoll
I am hard to maintain
And I have to applaud your patience
Or else our love would have gone up in flames
I know I can be a brat
But l really love you
No one makes me happier than you do
And am the only one that's allowed to mess with you
And If someone tries to test you
Test who? They testing us two
You helped fought a lot of my battles
So I would go to war for you
I know I can be a brat
But I do love you
And if wasn't obvious
You'll forever be my boo
You said you loved me,
That was a lie
You said you were different
That was a line
I boosted your ego
You played with my life
You broke my heart
And messed with my mind
You just left me with trust issues
Now I don't trust people
Because he can be honest
Practically flawless
And I may desperately want him
But I won't let myself trust him
Because as great as he is
He could just be….
Another you
And you said you loved me
That was a lie
Said you were a different
That was a line
So how I'm to trust again
He could be the greatest
And all I would see…
Is another you
You messed with my sight
Obscured my judgement
How I'm supposed to trust my heart
When it thought it was love it had with you
And along you were playing me for a fool
You said you loved me
That was a lie
Said you were different
That was a line
Broke my heart
And messed with my mind
And now every guy I'm into
I'm scared they'll be just….
Another you
And he could be honest
I could desperately want him
But you made me toxic
I didn't want this
You pretended to be nice
Now everyone who's nice,
I think ….
Is just another you
You destroyed a part of me
And now my walls are high
Because I'm scared
That I'll get hurt….
By another you
You said you loved me
That was a lie
Said you were different
That was a line
You broke my heart
And messed with my mind
And now I’ll I see when I try to love
When I wanna let down those walls for someone else
Is another you
I wanna shut her up
The voice in my head
Telling me I'm wrong
I'm not better of dead
I wanna shut her up
She tells me to fight
That I have so much more to offer to life
She's always there
Sometimes she whispers
Sometimes she screams
Gotta keep fighting
Just watch one day, you'll see
She says don't quit
You'll make it out
You just have to survive this nasty round
But I wanna shut her up
The voice in my head
Telling me I'm wrong
I'm not better off dead
I wanna shut her up
She tells me to fight
That I have so much more to offer to life
She says be strong
She says I ain't weak
She says I'm a fighter
Because living ain't easy
She says don't quit
And screams don't you dare
When I'm on my knees
And falling into despair
My body's weak
My spirit's tired
I wanna give in
But she has me fighting desperately
I wanna shut her up
But she won't let go
She says I have to keep fighting
It gets better down the road
I wanna shut her up
The voice in my head
But she's always there
Pushing me to fight another day
I could be a brat if you want me to
Anything you say
That's what I won't do
Getting mad in the face
Cause you have control issues
And me feeling good
Cause I don't like being told what to do
Telling me with your eyes
That I shouldn't push you
And me getting excited
Cause it's time for round two
I'm yours and only brat
Your only baby doll
If I don't get what I want
Then my pretty face will be sad
I am childish and bratty
You have me speaking Spanish
Cause I be calling you my papi
I love pissing you off
And driving you crazy
But you can't stay mad at me
Cause after all ain't I your baby
I am bratty and incessant
You better buy me presents
Nothing but the best for me
You know I am high maintenance
I don't ask questions
I make demands
One of many charms
But I know you'll move heaven and earth for me
Anything for yr babydoll
I am hard to maintain
And I have to applaud your patience
Or else our love would have gone up in flames
I know I can be a brat
But l really love you
No one makes me happier than you do
And am the only one that's allowed to mess with you
And If someone tries to test you
Test who? They testing us two
You helped fought a lot of my battles
So I would go to war for you
I know I can be a brat
But I do love you
And if wasn't obvious
You'll forever be my boo
Mi don't really care weh you say about me
You aim to be basic
Me a go after my dream
And sure me nuh make me it yet
And sure me nuh reach
But nuthing that yuh say cah stop Gods plans for me
Say me nah go no where…let's see
Nah go progress….watch me
Poverty a go kill me and my family
Me a go thru and take all my peeps to the top league
Watch me prove all who a talk wrong
People’s mouth nuh in a God's plan
So all a them talk mi nah listen to man
So mi nuh really care weh you say about me
You aim to be basic
Me a go after my dream
And sure me nuh make it yet
And sure me nuh reach
But nothing that yuh say can't stop God’s plan for me
But one thing me truly nuh understand
How yuh a downgrade me true me still deh a step one
A talk everyday nuthing me nah reach
Me would a make it gwan but yuh a go involve me family
Please I'm begging you to leave them out a yah mouth
Me cool and calm until you draw me out
You having a likkle money don't make you better than me
A hype and a gwan but you still can't step in my league
But me nuh really care weh you say about me
You aim to be basic
Me a go after my dream
And sure me nuh make it yet
And sure me nuh reach
But nuthing that yuh say can stop God's plan for me
Me a go listen to my fam when they say you irrelevant
Anything yuh say nuh really important
But mi guess mi living in yuh head rent free
It seems your favorite hobby is to talk about me
And me could a really come with the disrespect
Me a guh save it for another time…. raincheck
Cause you do this fi get me upset
But who is yuh Fi mess up mi medz
You a go live fhi see this idiot shine
A talk about how me badmind
You a look fi a hater look somewhere else
Cause yuh seem to think I care about you when all me a pree is my success
And some of the things truly just make me laugh
But me did have to clear the air since you deem yourself of importance
Mi nuh really care what you say about me
You aim to be basic
Me a go after my dream
And sure me nuh make it yet
And sure me nuh reach
But nuthing that you can say can stop God's plan for me
I don't wanna be pretty
I don't wanna be fun
I don't wanna be wild
I'm not that dumb
I just wanna be me
I just wanna be free
I just need to breathe
Excuse me please!
I'm not interested
I've told you twice
Not trying to be feisty
I'm trying to be polite
I'm tired of the whistles
I'm tired of the names
I'm tired of the catcalls
Please go away
Don't call me sexy
I'm not going to cave
You're not going to get me
At least not that way
I'm not your baby
What's up with that
Telling me you're different
Boy drop the act
Perhaps if you were nice
And had asked for my name
You would have stood a chance
But just go away
I'll never been in the mood
Yesterday, tomorrow or today
And it's not your job to tell me to put a smile on my face
I'm not your baby
I'm not your girl
I don't even know you
So how did I become yours?
I understand you might be insane
But I was grown by a father
Who instilled me in how these boys play
He raised me like a princess
So I won't settle for less than a king
So you can call me pretty
I know I'm hot
But if you think that you're going to score
A huge middle finger to that
Heartbroken ex
So you found her
That's cool, that's fine
I'm okay, I'm alright
It's not like I'm crying in my bed every night
Me??? Heartbroken over a guy
I'm so freaking happy you moved on with your life
Okay, that's denial
But what do you want me to do
Sit around and cry
That what I like do all the freaking time
I really need to get over you cause my eyes are never dry
It's not like you were important
Just the love of my life
But now you're hers
Not mine
Like why??
She's pretty, I've seen
But I bet she has a nasty personality
Okay I'll admit she looks pretty kind
But why did you have to move on with her
Just why ?!!!
Why did you have to move on at all
Couldn't you just wait
I said I needed space
I didn't give you permission to date
But you took it a step further
And decided that perhaps what we needed was more than space
And now you're engaged to her
And all the pics you've post are with you and her grinning wide
I don't understand where was that smile
When you were with me
Those were pretty few
Sidenote quick question what does your fiance do to get her teeth so white
Dude why???
Didn't I try
I mean sure I had some crazy tendencies
And was moody all the time
But I loved you with my whole heart
I made that pretty clear
And I know you loved me too
When did that spark disappear
Why, just why???
Why choose her ?
When I kept it spicy ,
With me, myself and my 700 different personalities
I hope you're happy you made me cry
And I'm gaining all this weight
Because I need to fill this emptiness inside
I need you to stop haunting my dreams and invading my mind
Because you moved on with your life and I need to move on with mine
I need to quit you
Like you did me
I need to get rid of the obsession
Before I do something crazy
But why I kinda need to know
Was it because I was toxic?
Or you just didn't see where the relationship was going to go
Did I make you sad?
Did I push you away ?
I want to know why everything fell into disarray
Because I love you baby
I just didn't know how much until you decided to let go
Until you decided to move on and crushing all my hopes
Why?!!!
WHAT DO YOU SEE
What do you see when you look at me
Is it too much to ask for you to just believe
Do you even really love me
When all you do is spew words to judge me
You say something nice
And I smile
But I'm dying inside
Because those words have a malicious undertone
And were said with the intent to hurt my soul
So what do you see when you look at me
Is it too much to ask for you to just believe
Do you even really love me
When all you do is spew words to judge me
You say it's a joke
And I laugh it off
But we both know
It's so not so
Words can't physically hurt you
But from the right person it can mentally break you
What do you see when you look at me
Is a failure the only thing you see
Maybe things would have been better if you had believed
But all you ever did is spew words to judge me
I tried so hard
I tried and failed
I tried again
And I'll never be enough
What do you see when you look at me
Was your intent just to hurt me
And make me believe all those words you said to me
Why did you spew all those words to judge me
Why couldn't you say?
You would be great
You'll make it through
I'll always be here
No matter what, I'll always love you
Why couldn't you see me when you looked at me
Now all I have are your words that I believe
They come to torment me nightly
Because years of degradation can't be forget easily
Now I don't see me when I look at me
All I see are the words you said to me
Verse 1
Everytime I try to be strong
Something happens to prove me wrong
Don't know why but I'm still here
Can't even remember what I'm fighting for
Chorus
Everything is falling apart
My entire life is in chaos
Don't know why but I'm still here
Holding on Holding on
Verse 2
I'm tired of pick up the pieces of my life
And then trying to mend it
I'm just pretty damn tired of everything
But I'm still holding on
Why am I still holding on
Chorus
Everything is falling apart
My entire life is in chaos
Don't know why but I'm still here
Holding on Holding on
Verse 3
They say it gets rough sometimes
Still, life can be a bitch,
When you're trying
To not falter when the voices keep saying
Just give up, why are you trying?
Chorus
Everything is falling apart
My entire life is in chaos
Don't know why but I'm still here
Holding on Holding on
Verse 4
Every night I'm up and I'm crying
The lack of sleep has me looking like I'm dying
Kinda feel like that on the inside
Yet I'm still holding on
Chorus
Everything is falling apart
My entire life is in chaos
Don't know why but I'm still here
Holding on Holding on
Bridge
Everytime I try to be strong
Something happens to prove me wrong
And everything's falling apart
Yet I'm still holding on
Why I'm holding on
Chorus
Everything is falling apart
My entire life is in chaos
Don't know why but I'm still here
Holding on Holding on
You said you loved me,
That was a lie
You said you were different
That was a line
I boosted your ego
You played with my life
You broke my heart
And messed with my mind
You just left me with trust issues
Now I don't trust people
Because he can be honest
Practically flawless
And I may desperately want him
But I won't let myself trust him
Because as great as he is
He could just be….
Another you
And you said you loved me
That was a lie
Said you were a different
That was a line
So how I'm to trust again
He could be the greatest
And all I would see…
Is another you
You messed with my sight
Obscured my judgement
How I'm supposed to trust my heart
When it thought it was love it had with you
And along you were playing me for a fool
You said you loved me
That was a lie
Said you were different
That was a line
Broke my heart
And messed with my mind
And now every guy I'm into
I'm scared they'll be just….
Another you
And he could be honest
I could desperately want him
But you made me toxic
I didn't want this
You pretended to be nice
Now everyone who's nice,
I think ….
Is just another you
You destroyed a part of me
And now my walls are high
Because I'm scared
That I'll get hurt….
By another you
You said you loved me
That was a lie
Said you were different
That was a line
You broke my heart
And messed with my mind
And now I’ll I see when I try to love
When I wanna let down those walls for someone else
Is another you
I wanna shut her up
The voice in my head
Telling me I'm wrong
I'm not better of dead
I wanna shut her up
She tells me to fight
That I have so much more to offer to life
She's always there
Sometimes she whispers
Sometimes she screams
Gotta keep fighting
Just watch one day, you'll see
She says don't quit
You'll make it out
You just have to survive this nasty round
But I wanna shut her up
The voice in my head
Telling me I'm wrong
I'm not better off dead
I wanna shut her up
She tells me to fight
That I have so much more to offer to life
She says be strong
She says I ain't weak
She says I'm a fighter
Because living ain't easy
She says don't quit
And screams don't you dare
When I'm on my knees
And falling into despair
My body's weak
My spirit's tired
I wanna give in
But she has me fighting desperately
I wanna shut her up
But she won't let go
She says I have to keep fighting
It gets better down the road
I wanna shut her up
The voice in my head
But she's always there
Pushing me to fight another day
I could be a brat if you want me to
Anything you say
That's what I won't do
Getting mad in the face
Cause you have control issues
And me feeling good
Cause I don't like being told what to do
Telling me with your eyes
That I shouldn't push you
And me getting excited
Cause it's time for round two
I'm yours and only brat
Your only baby doll
If I don't get what I want
Then my pretty face will be sad
I am childish and bratty
You have me speaking Spanish
Cause I be calling you my papi
I love pissing you off
And driving you crazy
But you can't stay mad at me
Cause after all ain't I your baby
I am bratty and incessant
You better buy me presents
Nothing but the best for me
You know I am high maintenance
I don't ask questions
I make demands
One of many charms
But I know you'll move heaven and earth for me
Anything for yr babydoll
I am hard to maintain
And I have to applaud your patience
Or else our love would have gone up in flames
I know I can be a brat
But l really love you
No one makes me happier than you do
And am the only one that's allowed to mess with you
And If someone tries to test you
Test who? They testing us two
You helped fought a lot of my battles
So I would go to war for you
I know I can be a brat
But I do love you
And if wasn't obvious
You'll forever be my boo
Mi don't really care weh you say about me
You aim to be basic
Me a go after my dream
And sure me nuh make me it yet
And sure me nuh reach
But nuthing that yuh say cah stop Gods plans for me
Say me nah go no where…let's see
Nah go progress….watch me
Poverty a go kill me and my family
Me a go thru and take all my peeps to the top league
Watch me prove all who a talk wrong
People’s mouth nuh in a God's plan
So all a them talk mi nah listen to man
So mi nuh really care weh you say about me
You aim to be basic
Me a go after my dream
And sure me nuh make it yet
And sure me nuh reach
But nothing that yuh say can't stop God’s plan for me
But one thing me truly nuh understand
How yuh a downgrade me true me still deh a step one
A talk everyday nuthing me nah reach
Me would a make it gwan but yuh a go involve me family
Please I'm begging you to leave them out a yah mouth
Me cool and calm until you draw me out
You having a likkle money don't make you better than me
A hype and a gwan but you still can't step in my league
But me nuh really care weh you say about me
You aim to be basic
Me a go after my dream
And sure me nuh make it yet
And sure me nuh reach
But nuthing that yuh say can stop God's plan for me
Me a go listen to my fam when they say you irrelevant
Anything yuh say nuh really important
But mi guess mi living in yuh head rent free
It seems your favorite hobby is to talk about me
And me could a really come with the disrespect
Me a guh save it for another time…. raincheck
Cause you do this fi get me upset
But who is yuh Fi mess up mi medz
You a go live fhi see this idiot shine
A talk about how me badmind
You a look fi a hater look somewhere else
Cause yuh seem to think I care about you when all me a pree is my success
And some of the things truly just make me laugh
But me did have to clear the air since you deem yourself of importance
Mi nuh really care what you say about me
You aim to be basic
Me a go after my dream
And sure me nuh make it yet
And sure me nuh reach
But nuthing that you can say can stop God's plan for me
I don't wanna be pretty
I don't wanna be fun
I don't wanna be wild
I'm not that dumb
I just wanna be me
I just wanna be free
I just need to breathe
Excuse me please!
I'm not interested
I've told you twice
Not trying to be feisty
I'm trying to be polite
I'm tired of the whistles
I'm tired of the names
I'm tired of the catcalls
Please go away
Don't call me sexy
I'm not going to cave
You're not going to get me
At least not that way
I'm not your baby
What's up with that
Telling me you're different
Boy drop the act
Perhaps if you were nice
And had asked for my name
You would have stood a chance
But just go away
I'll never been in the mood
Yesterday, tomorrow or today
And it's not your job to tell me to put a smile on my face
I'm not your baby
I'm not your girl
I don't even know you
So how did I become yours?
I understand you might be insane
But I was grown by a father
Who instilled me in how these boys play
He raised me like a princess
So I won't settle for less than a king
So you can call me pretty
I know I'm hot
But if you think that you're going to score
A huge middle finger to that
Heartbroken ex
So you found her
That's cool, that's fine
I'm okay, I'm alright
It's not like I'm crying in my bed every night
Me??? Heartbroken over a guy
I'm so freaking happy you moved on with your life
Okay, that's denial
But what do you want me to do
Sit around and cry
That what I like do all the freaking time
I really need to get over you cause my eyes are never dry
It's not like you were important
Just the love of my life
But now you're hers
Not mine
Like why??
She's pretty, I've seen
But I bet she has a nasty personality
Okay I'll admit she looks pretty kind
But why did you have to move on with her
Just why ?!!!
Why did you have to move on at all
Couldn't you just wait
I said I needed space
I didn't give you permission to date
But you took it a step further
And decided that perhaps what we needed was more than space
And now you're engaged to her
And all the pics you've post are with you and her grinning wide
I don't understand where was that smile
When you were with me
Those were pretty few
Sidenote quick question what does your fiance do to get her teeth so white
Dude why???
Didn't I try
I mean sure I had some crazy tendencies
And was moody all the time
But I loved you with my whole heart
I made that pretty clear
And I know you loved me too
When did that spark disappear
Why, just why???
Why choose her ?
When I kept it spicy ,
With me, myself and my 700 different personalities
I hope you're happy you made me cry
And I'm gaining all this weight
Because I need to fill this emptiness inside
I need you to stop haunting my dreams and invading my mind
Because you moved on with your life and I need to move on with mine
I need to quit you
Like you did me
I need to get rid of the obsession
Before I do something crazy
But why I kinda need to know
Was it because I was toxic?
Or you just didn't see where the relationship was going to go
Did I make you sad?
Did I push you away ?
I want to know why everything fell into disarray
Because I love you baby
I just didn't know how much until you decided to let go
Until you decided to move on and crushing all my hopes
Why?!!!
I am a twenty years old girl from the lovely island of Jamaica with a passion for writing and a love for music. Creative and determined are the descriptors of my person.
I've been writing since I was ten creating literary art with the stroke of a pen.