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Lifeless Squad

Mother I’m your daughter, I know to you I don’t matter
If I stayed with you any longer, I was only gonna shatter
So, I had to choose to suffer, or start a new chapter
I know you’re my mother, but to me you’re my attacker

You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter

As a kid you silenced me, so I became a writer
My pain couldn’t be silenced, so I transmuted into a tiger
Momma you put me in the dark and my presence made it brighter
How do you call it a family with me being the outsider?

You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter

Yes, I’m a fighter
Belittled me only to find me growing taller
Yes, I’m a fighter
Paralyzed me only to find me aiming higher

You were one narcissistic evil blighter
You had a flamboyant lifestyle instead of being my provider
I lost hope in you, and the more you pushed me the more I held tighter
How do I get close to you when you are the divider?

You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter

You know I don’t need you; I know you know, just a reminder
God didn’t take away my pain, not because of you, but to make me stronger
I used to ramble in the middle of night looking for God across river Tiber
God heard my cries, helped me escape you and now I’m a survivor

You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter

You Know I'm a Fighter

God what’s your number, I think I got it wrong
I need to call you, can’t you ever be on my side
I feel empty inside
I feel like my story is put on a shelf where it doesn’t belong
I have been living off of pain for so long
My closest are the ones to deceive me so I just play along

Maybe my parents were right when they wished I was born dead or committed suicide
Even though I did all I could to make them satisfied
My hands were free, but how did they make them feel tied
Anything I try to do I was the first to be disqualified
As a kid I was raised to be a picture without a sound
Now that I’m rich, they want me back and everything I said I lied
These nightmares wake me up in the middle of the night horrified
How do you expect me to let it slide?
I’m sorry, but this pain has got my heart ossified

I’m afraid of happiness and this pain has got me occupied
My therapist trying every med to get my pain to subside
I don’t belong in this world no matter how hard I tried
Even the only one I loved the most has died
God why didn’t you take me with him in that ride
God I need your number, it’s been a day and he hasn’t replied
God what’s your number, he was the only one you sent to me and stayed by my side

God What's Your Number

I’m about to burst from all this pain
He took his last breath and I’m going insane
Why? Leaving my soul somewhere here tied to a chain
How? How are his voices becoming ah migraine?
After him, it feels like I can’t stand, I need a cane
There’s nothing left for me to entertain
Yet, I tell them I can’t complain
When I am about to burst from all this pain

These drug dealers need to stay in their lane
He could’ve lived if it wasn’t for heroin and cocaine
My eyes open or closed, it’s now the same
All these colors are becoming more plain
Except the color of that needle with his bloodstain
I’m about to burst from all this pain

It’s a deep drain, I can never explain
Depression taking over my heart and brain
My self-image, I can no longer maintain
Day by day this pain is making me more inhumane
I got no emotions and my eyes can’t rain
I’m about to burst from all this pain

Today God planned for him to go and I remain
Tomorrow is coming, but there’s nothing left for me to gain
I thought with time this pain is going to wane
But no, it’s not, it’s becoming a non-stop hurricane
I’m about to burst from all this pain
I’m about to burst from all this pain

This Pain


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Mother I’m your daughter, I know to you I don’t matter
If I stayed with you any longer, I was only gonna shatter
So, I had to choose to suffer, or start a new chapter
I know you’re my mother, but to me you’re my attacker

You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter

As a kid you silenced me, so I became a writer
My pain couldn’t be silenced, so I transmuted into a tiger
Momma you put me in the dark and my presence made it brighter
How do you call it a family with me being the outsider?

You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter

Yes, I’m a fighter
Belittled me only to find me growing taller
Yes, I’m a fighter
Paralyzed me only to find me aiming higher

You were one narcissistic evil blighter
You had a flamboyant lifestyle instead of being my provider
I lost hope in you, and the more you pushed me the more I held tighter
How do I get close to you when you are the divider?

You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter

You know I don’t need you; I know you know, just a reminder
God didn’t take away my pain, not because of you, but to make me stronger
I used to ramble in the middle of night looking for God across river Tiber
God heard my cries, helped me escape you and now I’m a survivor

You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter

You Know I'm a Fighter

God what’s your number, I think I got it wrong
I need to call you, can’t you ever be on my side
I feel empty inside
I feel like my story is put on a shelf where it doesn’t belong
I have been living off of pain for so long
My closest are the ones to deceive me so I just play along

Maybe my parents were right when they wished I was born dead or committed suicide
Even though I did all I could to make them satisfied
My hands were free, but how did they make them feel tied
Anything I try to do I was the first to be disqualified
As a kid I was raised to be a picture without a sound
Now that I’m rich, they want me back and everything I said I lied
These nightmares wake me up in the middle of the night horrified
How do you expect me to let it slide?
I’m sorry, but this pain has got my heart ossified

I’m afraid of happiness and this pain has got me occupied
My therapist trying every med to get my pain to subside
I don’t belong in this world no matter how hard I tried
Even the only one I loved the most has died
God why didn’t you take me with him in that ride
God I need your number, it’s been a day and he hasn’t replied
God what’s your number, he was the only one you sent to me and stayed by my side

God What's Your Number

I’m about to burst from all this pain
He took his last breath and I’m going insane
Why? Leaving my soul somewhere here tied to a chain
How? How are his voices becoming ah migraine?
After him, it feels like I can’t stand, I need a cane
There’s nothing left for me to entertain
Yet, I tell them I can’t complain
When I am about to burst from all this pain

These drug dealers need to stay in their lane
He could’ve lived if it wasn’t for heroin and cocaine
My eyes open or closed, it’s now the same
All these colors are becoming more plain
Except the color of that needle with his bloodstain
I’m about to burst from all this pain

It’s a deep drain, I can never explain
Depression taking over my heart and brain
My self-image, I can no longer maintain
Day by day this pain is making me more inhumane
I got no emotions and my eyes can’t rain
I’m about to burst from all this pain

Today God planned for him to go and I remain
Tomorrow is coming, but there’s nothing left for me to gain
I thought with time this pain is going to wane
But no, it’s not, it’s becoming a non-stop hurricane
I’m about to burst from all this pain
I’m about to burst from all this pain

This Pain

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Mother I’m your daughter, I know to you I don’t matter
If I stayed with you any longer, I was only gonna shatter
So, I had to choose to suffer, or start a new chapter
I know you’re my mother, but to me you’re my attacker

You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter

As a kid you silenced me, so I became a writer
My pain couldn’t be silenced, so I transmuted into a tiger
Momma you put me in the dark and my presence made it brighter
How do you call it a family with me being the outsider?

You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter

Yes, I’m a fighter
Belittled me only to find me growing taller
Yes, I’m a fighter
Paralyzed me only to find me aiming higher

You were one narcissistic evil blighter
You had a flamboyant lifestyle instead of being my provider
I lost hope in you, and the more you pushed me the more I held tighter
How do I get close to you when you are the divider?

You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter

You know I don’t need you; I know you know, just a reminder
God didn’t take away my pain, not because of you, but to make me stronger
I used to ramble in the middle of night looking for God across river Tiber
God heard my cries, helped me escape you and now I’m a survivor

You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter
You know I’m a fighter

You Know I'm a Fighter

God what’s your number, I think I got it wrong
I need to call you, can’t you ever be on my side
I feel empty inside
I feel like my story is put on a shelf where it doesn’t belong
I have been living off of pain for so long
My closest are the ones to deceive me so I just play along

Maybe my parents were right when they wished I was born dead or committed suicide
Even though I did all I could to make them satisfied
My hands were free, but how did they make them feel tied
Anything I try to do I was the first to be disqualified
As a kid I was raised to be a picture without a sound
Now that I’m rich, they want me back and everything I said I lied
These nightmares wake me up in the middle of the night horrified
How do you expect me to let it slide?
I’m sorry, but this pain has got my heart ossified

I’m afraid of happiness and this pain has got me occupied
My therapist trying every med to get my pain to subside
I don’t belong in this world no matter how hard I tried
Even the only one I loved the most has died
God why didn’t you take me with him in that ride
God I need your number, it’s been a day and he hasn’t replied
God what’s your number, he was the only one you sent to me and stayed by my side

God What's Your Number

I’m about to burst from all this pain
He took his last breath and I’m going insane
Why? Leaving my soul somewhere here tied to a chain
How? How are his voices becoming ah migraine?
After him, it feels like I can’t stand, I need a cane
There’s nothing left for me to entertain
Yet, I tell them I can’t complain
When I am about to burst from all this pain

These drug dealers need to stay in their lane
He could’ve lived if it wasn’t for heroin and cocaine
My eyes open or closed, it’s now the same
All these colors are becoming more plain
Except the color of that needle with his bloodstain
I’m about to burst from all this pain

It’s a deep drain, I can never explain
Depression taking over my heart and brain
My self-image, I can no longer maintain
Day by day this pain is making me more inhumane
I got no emotions and my eyes can’t rain
I’m about to burst from all this pain

Today God planned for him to go and I remain
Tomorrow is coming, but there’s nothing left for me to gain
I thought with time this pain is going to wane
But no, it’s not, it’s becoming a non-stop hurricane
I’m about to burst from all this pain
I’m about to burst from all this pain

This Pain


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