CixiZ

Professional Subscriber to Songbay
CixiZ

I'm sitting in the corner of my room
It's dark, cold and looks so empty
I'm stuck in the corner of my mind
It's dark, cold and full of regrets

I'm tired and soon I will fall asleep
But now I'm still thinking 'bout how
People sometimes call me a creep
When I'm just trying to live somehow
Not sure why am I even trying
Running out of things that are satisfying
Vision of forever being lonely is terrifying
Am I really trying or just stopping myself from dying?

I'm sitting in the corner of my room
It's dark, cold and looks so empty
I'm stuck in the corner of my mind
It's dark, cold and full of regrets

Reasons to be alive everyday there is fewer
Everyone saying that it'll get better
I'm just a bit concenred about the future
It doesnt get easier neither better
But yet again I end up in my bed
I'll try to figure out what's going on in my head
Maybe this time I'll succeed instead
If not then I guess soon I'll end up dead

I'm sitting in the corner of my room
It's dark, cold and looks so empty
I'm stuck in the corner of my mind
It's dark, cold and full of regrets

In the corner

I will be always here for you
I will be always loving you
Our love will never fall apart
And I will never break your heart
Ye, these four lies you told me every night
When my life got dark you used to be my light
And even though now I need you the most
On the cold side of my bed I see your ghost
And even though you are no longer here
Your voice like echo I still can hear

I guess I should finally get myself together and move on
But I remember how we used to watch the movies untill dawn
Holding our hands we used to laugh and cry together
We used to hold each other tight just to feel a little better
But these days just wont come back, it's already over
Now I really can't get through the day while being sober
Since you left me on my own my bed feels like a coffin
From that day on suicidal thoughts my mind are crossin'

I will be always here for you
I will be always loving you
Our love will never fall apart
And I will never break your heart
Ye, these four lies you told me every night
When my life got dark you used to be my light
And even though now I need you the most
On the cold side of my bed I see your ghost
And even though you are no longer here
Your voice like echo I still can hear

Four lies

Through all these years I've been feeling like a ghost
Silence is the thing that I really hate the most
Couldn't find a way I have never been so lost
Another fucked up teenage with heart cold like ice age
Through all these years I've been feeling like a ghost
Silence is the thing that I really hate the most
Couldn't find a way I have never been so lost
Another fucked up teenage with heart cold like ice age

Can't get by I still see you
I just wanted to be free
Wanna die I feel so blue
Why it hurts so much to be
Feel like days just pass me by
Gonna write this till I die
Really feel like end is close
Maybe I should overdose
I just really can't move on
I'm aware that I'm not sane
You wont notice when I'm gone
No more sorrow no more pain
In the mirror bloodshot eyes
It's because of all these lies
Please let go don't make me stay
There's no way I'll be okay

Through all these years I've been feeling like a ghost
Silence is the thing that I really hate the most
Couldn't find a way I have never been so lost
Another fucked up teenage with heart cold like ice age
Through all these years I've been feeling like a ghost
Silence is the thing that I really hate the most
Couldn't find a way I have never been so lost
Another fucked up teenage with heart cold like ice age

All this time been on my own
I see snakes under disguise
Can't believe i'm still alone
All these sounds I hear just lies
I feel lost I want to leave
Now it's getting hard to breathe
Crushing down just like a wave
Ima dig up my own grave
I got lost can't find my way
In my back I've got a knife
Didn't think you could betray
Endless nightmare that's my life
Your kind words I don't believe
How could I be so naive
Looking back I see just hate
Suicide looks like my fate

Ice age


Latest Uploads

I'm sitting in the corner of my room
It's dark, cold and looks so empty
I'm stuck in the corner of my mind
It's dark, cold and full of regrets

I'm tired and soon I will fall asleep
But now I'm still thinking 'bout how
People sometimes call me a creep
When I'm just trying to live somehow
Not sure why am I even trying
Running out of things that are satisfying
Vision of forever being lonely is terrifying
Am I really trying or just stopping myself from dying?

I'm sitting in the corner of my room
It's dark, cold and looks so empty
I'm stuck in the corner of my mind
It's dark, cold and full of regrets

Reasons to be alive everyday there is fewer
Everyone saying that it'll get better
I'm just a bit concenred about the future
It doesnt get easier neither better
But yet again I end up in my bed
I'll try to figure out what's going on in my head
Maybe this time I'll succeed instead
If not then I guess soon I'll end up dead

I'm sitting in the corner of my room
It's dark, cold and looks so empty
I'm stuck in the corner of my mind
It's dark, cold and full of regrets

In the corner

I will be always here for you
I will be always loving you
Our love will never fall apart
And I will never break your heart
Ye, these four lies you told me every night
When my life got dark you used to be my light
And even though now I need you the most
On the cold side of my bed I see your ghost
And even though you are no longer here
Your voice like echo I still can hear

I guess I should finally get myself together and move on
But I remember how we used to watch the movies untill dawn
Holding our hands we used to laugh and cry together
We used to hold each other tight just to feel a little better
But these days just wont come back, it's already over
Now I really can't get through the day while being sober
Since you left me on my own my bed feels like a coffin
From that day on suicidal thoughts my mind are crossin'

I will be always here for you
I will be always loving you
Our love will never fall apart
And I will never break your heart
Ye, these four lies you told me every night
When my life got dark you used to be my light
And even though now I need you the most
On the cold side of my bed I see your ghost
And even though you are no longer here
Your voice like echo I still can hear

Four lies

Through all these years I've been feeling like a ghost
Silence is the thing that I really hate the most
Couldn't find a way I have never been so lost
Another fucked up teenage with heart cold like ice age
Through all these years I've been feeling like a ghost
Silence is the thing that I really hate the most
Couldn't find a way I have never been so lost
Another fucked up teenage with heart cold like ice age

Can't get by I still see you
I just wanted to be free
Wanna die I feel so blue
Why it hurts so much to be
Feel like days just pass me by
Gonna write this till I die
Really feel like end is close
Maybe I should overdose
I just really can't move on
I'm aware that I'm not sane
You wont notice when I'm gone
No more sorrow no more pain
In the mirror bloodshot eyes
It's because of all these lies
Please let go don't make me stay
There's no way I'll be okay

Through all these years I've been feeling like a ghost
Silence is the thing that I really hate the most
Couldn't find a way I have never been so lost
Another fucked up teenage with heart cold like ice age
Through all these years I've been feeling like a ghost
Silence is the thing that I really hate the most
Couldn't find a way I have never been so lost
Another fucked up teenage with heart cold like ice age

All this time been on my own
I see snakes under disguise
Can't believe i'm still alone
All these sounds I hear just lies
I feel lost I want to leave
Now it's getting hard to breathe
Crushing down just like a wave
Ima dig up my own grave
I got lost can't find my way
In my back I've got a knife
Didn't think you could betray
Endless nightmare that's my life
Your kind words I don't believe
How could I be so naive
Looking back I see just hate
Suicide looks like my fate

Ice age

Back then I just needed someone to hold
If not you maybe I wouldn't be so cold
I just feel like my life is getting worst
Is it really bad luck or am I cursed
Oh my god back then I felt so lonely
I taught you can be the one and only
I remember sitting under blue skies
You held my hand and looked me in the eyes
I remember your words they were so kind
Turns out you were just playing with my mind

If regrets were made of gold
And all of these pretty lies that she told me
At this point I'd be so rich
I would leave behind this life and just forget her
If regrets were made of gold
And all of these pretty lies that she told me
At this point I'd be so rich
Far away from my past I could just forget her

But I'm not and I'm still stuck in this place
And I'm lost just like comets in the space
Wanted to move on since you left me crushed
But I can't cause I forgot how to trust
My heart is empty you left nothing inside
My hope died and she's waiting for me on the other side
My mind is in pieces and you're the reason
My life's a TV show and I think that's the last season
Soon I'm gonna crack I'm so tired of bending
I guess not every sad story has a happy ending

If regrets were made of gold
And all of these pretty lies that she told me
At this point I'd be so rich
I would leave behind this life and just forget her
Even if regrets were made of gold
And all of these pretty lies that she told me
There's no way I'd be okay
There is just no way I could forget her
No way I could forget her
I really can't forget her
There's no point in pretending
Not every sad story has a happy ending

Made of gold

yet again, another day, my whole life's about the blame
it's too late, i can't change, please let me die, erase the pain
still the same, im insane, where is my mind, it's such a shame
i can't think, i cannot sleep, only dark thoughts inside my brain

there's none you can decive, in your lies i'll never believe
just woke up, where am i at? all your sick games have fucked me up
glass of water and few pills, that's what i need to get relieved
all this hate, its what i got, in my heart, you've made a gap

yet again, another day, my whole life's about the blame
it's too late, i can't change, please let me die, erase the pain
still the same, im insane, where is my mind, it's such a shame
i can't think, i cannot sleep, only dark thoughts inside my brain

happy life, would you believe? everyone is so naive
i'm not hungry, how is that? maybe i'll eat a death cup
hold my hand, do you feel grief? slowly getting harder to breathe
lovely viper, where u at? please make sure i wont wake up

it's finally over, now i can rest
end of anxiety, stone off my chest
after my last breath, i wish you best
at least stop lying, thats my request

happy life

My Uploads

I'm sitting in the corner of my room
It's dark, cold and looks so empty
I'm stuck in the corner of my mind
It's dark, cold and full of regrets

I'm tired and soon I will fall asleep
But now I'm still thinking 'bout how
People sometimes call me a creep
When I'm just trying to live somehow
Not sure why am I even trying
Running out of things that are satisfying
Vision of forever being lonely is terrifying
Am I really trying or just stopping myself from dying?

I'm sitting in the corner of my room
It's dark, cold and looks so empty
I'm stuck in the corner of my mind
It's dark, cold and full of regrets

Reasons to be alive everyday there is fewer
Everyone saying that it'll get better
I'm just a bit concenred about the future
It doesnt get easier neither better
But yet again I end up in my bed
I'll try to figure out what's going on in my head
Maybe this time I'll succeed instead
If not then I guess soon I'll end up dead

I'm sitting in the corner of my room
It's dark, cold and looks so empty
I'm stuck in the corner of my mind
It's dark, cold and full of regrets

In the corner

I will be always here for you
I will be always loving you
Our love will never fall apart
And I will never break your heart
Ye, these four lies you told me every night
When my life got dark you used to be my light
And even though now I need you the most
On the cold side of my bed I see your ghost
And even though you are no longer here
Your voice like echo I still can hear

I guess I should finally get myself together and move on
But I remember how we used to watch the movies untill dawn
Holding our hands we used to laugh and cry together
We used to hold each other tight just to feel a little better
But these days just wont come back, it's already over
Now I really can't get through the day while being sober
Since you left me on my own my bed feels like a coffin
From that day on suicidal thoughts my mind are crossin'

I will be always here for you
I will be always loving you
Our love will never fall apart
And I will never break your heart
Ye, these four lies you told me every night
When my life got dark you used to be my light
And even though now I need you the most
On the cold side of my bed I see your ghost
And even though you are no longer here
Your voice like echo I still can hear

Four lies

Through all these years I've been feeling like a ghost
Silence is the thing that I really hate the most
Couldn't find a way I have never been so lost
Another fucked up teenage with heart cold like ice age
Through all these years I've been feeling like a ghost
Silence is the thing that I really hate the most
Couldn't find a way I have never been so lost
Another fucked up teenage with heart cold like ice age

Can't get by I still see you
I just wanted to be free
Wanna die I feel so blue
Why it hurts so much to be
Feel like days just pass me by
Gonna write this till I die
Really feel like end is close
Maybe I should overdose
I just really can't move on
I'm aware that I'm not sane
You wont notice when I'm gone
No more sorrow no more pain
In the mirror bloodshot eyes
It's because of all these lies
Please let go don't make me stay
There's no way I'll be okay

Through all these years I've been feeling like a ghost
Silence is the thing that I really hate the most
Couldn't find a way I have never been so lost
Another fucked up teenage with heart cold like ice age
Through all these years I've been feeling like a ghost
Silence is the thing that I really hate the most
Couldn't find a way I have never been so lost
Another fucked up teenage with heart cold like ice age

All this time been on my own
I see snakes under disguise
Can't believe i'm still alone
All these sounds I hear just lies
I feel lost I want to leave
Now it's getting hard to breathe
Crushing down just like a wave
Ima dig up my own grave
I got lost can't find my way
In my back I've got a knife
Didn't think you could betray
Endless nightmare that's my life
Your kind words I don't believe
How could I be so naive
Looking back I see just hate
Suicide looks like my fate

Ice age

Back then I just needed someone to hold
If not you maybe I wouldn't be so cold
I just feel like my life is getting worst
Is it really bad luck or am I cursed
Oh my god back then I felt so lonely
I taught you can be the one and only
I remember sitting under blue skies
You held my hand and looked me in the eyes
I remember your words they were so kind
Turns out you were just playing with my mind

If regrets were made of gold
And all of these pretty lies that she told me
At this point I'd be so rich
I would leave behind this life and just forget her
If regrets were made of gold
And all of these pretty lies that she told me
At this point I'd be so rich
Far away from my past I could just forget her

But I'm not and I'm still stuck in this place
And I'm lost just like comets in the space
Wanted to move on since you left me crushed
But I can't cause I forgot how to trust
My heart is empty you left nothing inside
My hope died and she's waiting for me on the other side
My mind is in pieces and you're the reason
My life's a TV show and I think that's the last season
Soon I'm gonna crack I'm so tired of bending
I guess not every sad story has a happy ending

If regrets were made of gold
And all of these pretty lies that she told me
At this point I'd be so rich
I would leave behind this life and just forget her
Even if regrets were made of gold
And all of these pretty lies that she told me
There's no way I'd be okay
There is just no way I could forget her
No way I could forget her
I really can't forget her
There's no point in pretending
Not every sad story has a happy ending

Made of gold

yet again, another day, my whole life's about the blame
it's too late, i can't change, please let me die, erase the pain
still the same, im insane, where is my mind, it's such a shame
i can't think, i cannot sleep, only dark thoughts inside my brain

there's none you can decive, in your lies i'll never believe
just woke up, where am i at? all your sick games have fucked me up
glass of water and few pills, that's what i need to get relieved
all this hate, its what i got, in my heart, you've made a gap

yet again, another day, my whole life's about the blame
it's too late, i can't change, please let me die, erase the pain
still the same, im insane, where is my mind, it's such a shame
i can't think, i cannot sleep, only dark thoughts inside my brain

happy life, would you believe? everyone is so naive
i'm not hungry, how is that? maybe i'll eat a death cup
hold my hand, do you feel grief? slowly getting harder to breathe
lovely viper, where u at? please make sure i wont wake up

it's finally over, now i can rest
end of anxiety, stone off my chest
after my last breath, i wish you best
at least stop lying, thats my request

happy life


About Me

Bio

Sad worthless weeb that enjoys writing not very happy lyrics ;d If you have any ideas dm me and i can write something for you :D

CV/History

Experience? Basically none, but i want to get better at writing :D i have plenty of ideas based on my ed up life :D

Contact

Do you want to Work with CixiZ?