Jodi Hamilton

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Jodi Hamilton

The drugs have taken a toll. Instead of looking young. She looks sick and old.


Instead of finding somewhere safe and warm. She's on the hard concrete shooting up getting cold


She's got too much to hide from. No space to run.


Hoping one day she won't be outlined in chalk. Covered in blood.


She's too young too die but she can escape the need to get high.


Addiction. It hurts. It'll kill you on all levels. Watching your family hurt. Or Risking your life for a high. Coffins of lifes half-lived covered in dirt.


Beautiful girl don't forget your worth.


Instead of planning your successes. They start planning your funeral. Because there's danger all around you but you just can't see. If it doesn't begin with drugs and end up with being high. Sold your life to a one track mind.


Let's get it back to the right track. Right now youve got bruises over your bone thin arms. Cuts on your face. Losing weight. Losing faith. I know your life got hard and you want it to end or for the pain and sickness to stop. It's a beatable illness. I know right now it's literally the air you breathe. But take two steps towards me. Two steps towards recovery.


“I want to take my heart back it's mine. I need a miracle. I need all the strength I ever had. And I'm starting with nothing but hope. I won't give up on this life. I'm too young to die. My story begins here. I'm gonna give it my all. The last thing I want is too hurt you beyond repair. By getting a phone call at 2am. She didn't make It out of there. If I go out that way your gonna know I tried tried to survive. And I did it for me but I did it for you. For every tear we both cried”


You've got Two nails in the coffin. You've got two legs which way do you run. Run to Rehab or run to drugs. Only one of those options lead back to us.

no space to run

I was looking for a way out. I couldn’t see the light. Then a trip to emergency saved my life. No more being in so much pain that you pray for god to take you.

My pain is released now. It was a fight you wouldn’t believe. So please don’t look at me like I’m weak. Because you don’t know the strength it took to get here. I went through hell and back and was lucky to survive. Some people don’t come back from this. Some people take their life.

It’s a deadly isolating disease. I won’t be ashamed to say that I beat it. Because there were years that I thought ....I didn’t want to be here. Now I’m healthy and strong. See I was lost and nobody could find me. Times got hard but my family stuck by me. They let me know I wasn’t alone. They reassured me every day. Getting better didn’t happen overnight. They fought for me and took me out of the darkness and brought me to into the light. So if your suffering just know it’ll get better. You just have to keep up the fight.

Depression kills. No more coffins and lives half-lived. Break the silence. No one wants to come home one night to nightmare and sirens. Please ask for help when you need it. Asking for help is vital, it can turn your life around. I believe it. I know you might be feeling lost and all alone. But there are people that will miss you if you’re gone. You just got to be strong. Reach out your hand and ask for help. They can fix you. I know that they can. I’m living proof that’s there’s life after depression you just got to keep pushing through. There’s no shame in asking for help. It will save your life. Maybe your medication is wrong for you. Maybe you need to try something new. But whatever you do don’t give up on YOU.

dont give up

Was stuck in a bad place had to find a way out.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
I had to start from the ground up. With no desire to even get up. In fact I was close to giving up. Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
Thought I'd always feel this way. It took me 5 years to bounce back.
Those were 5 really hard years where I certainly lost myself. Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
Came close to giving up but I never stopped trying even when I wished I was dying.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
Reached out to everyone I knew. But I became too much to take. Too much too tolerate.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
But I remember it felt like someone ripped out my heart and soul and took everything I had that was good and trapped me in a dark hole. With no escape, no way out. On the inside screaming out but no one could hear me. No one dared to come near me. They just listened to my heart wrenching cries and continued to walk. Because I wasn't actually screaming on the outside.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
I woke up every day to relive the same recurring nightmare one that wouldn't go away.
I'm no angel but I'm the one who chose to save me. I took the steps I needed to take to seek help. At first it didn't work out. But then I found the right medicine and I began my journey to feel free. I began to feel like me again.
I lost a lot of 'friends' now I find ways to cope, reasons to smile. And I do it mostly alone. And for once I feel good inside. Like the weight of the world is off my chest. And I actually like me again and enjoy spending time with myself.
Tell me do you know how good that feels?
If you’re battling depression I wish recovery for you. Because it's no place anyone wants to be. I hope you never know how that feels....

looking for a way out


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The drugs have taken a toll. Instead of looking young. She looks sick and old.


Instead of finding somewhere safe and warm. She's on the hard concrete shooting up getting cold


She's got too much to hide from. No space to run.


Hoping one day she won't be outlined in chalk. Covered in blood.


She's too young too die but she can escape the need to get high.


Addiction. It hurts. It'll kill you on all levels. Watching your family hurt. Or Risking your life for a high. Coffins of lifes half-lived covered in dirt.


Beautiful girl don't forget your worth.


Instead of planning your successes. They start planning your funeral. Because there's danger all around you but you just can't see. If it doesn't begin with drugs and end up with being high. Sold your life to a one track mind.


Let's get it back to the right track. Right now youve got bruises over your bone thin arms. Cuts on your face. Losing weight. Losing faith. I know your life got hard and you want it to end or for the pain and sickness to stop. It's a beatable illness. I know right now it's literally the air you breathe. But take two steps towards me. Two steps towards recovery.


“I want to take my heart back it's mine. I need a miracle. I need all the strength I ever had. And I'm starting with nothing but hope. I won't give up on this life. I'm too young to die. My story begins here. I'm gonna give it my all. The last thing I want is too hurt you beyond repair. By getting a phone call at 2am. She didn't make It out of there. If I go out that way your gonna know I tried tried to survive. And I did it for me but I did it for you. For every tear we both cried”


You've got Two nails in the coffin. You've got two legs which way do you run. Run to Rehab or run to drugs. Only one of those options lead back to us.

no space to run

I was looking for a way out. I couldn’t see the light. Then a trip to emergency saved my life. No more being in so much pain that you pray for god to take you.

My pain is released now. It was a fight you wouldn’t believe. So please don’t look at me like I’m weak. Because you don’t know the strength it took to get here. I went through hell and back and was lucky to survive. Some people don’t come back from this. Some people take their life.

It’s a deadly isolating disease. I won’t be ashamed to say that I beat it. Because there were years that I thought ....I didn’t want to be here. Now I’m healthy and strong. See I was lost and nobody could find me. Times got hard but my family stuck by me. They let me know I wasn’t alone. They reassured me every day. Getting better didn’t happen overnight. They fought for me and took me out of the darkness and brought me to into the light. So if your suffering just know it’ll get better. You just have to keep up the fight.

Depression kills. No more coffins and lives half-lived. Break the silence. No one wants to come home one night to nightmare and sirens. Please ask for help when you need it. Asking for help is vital, it can turn your life around. I believe it. I know you might be feeling lost and all alone. But there are people that will miss you if you’re gone. You just got to be strong. Reach out your hand and ask for help. They can fix you. I know that they can. I’m living proof that’s there’s life after depression you just got to keep pushing through. There’s no shame in asking for help. It will save your life. Maybe your medication is wrong for you. Maybe you need to try something new. But whatever you do don’t give up on YOU.

dont give up

Was stuck in a bad place had to find a way out.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
I had to start from the ground up. With no desire to even get up. In fact I was close to giving up. Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
Thought I'd always feel this way. It took me 5 years to bounce back.
Those were 5 really hard years where I certainly lost myself. Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
Came close to giving up but I never stopped trying even when I wished I was dying.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
Reached out to everyone I knew. But I became too much to take. Too much too tolerate.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
But I remember it felt like someone ripped out my heart and soul and took everything I had that was good and trapped me in a dark hole. With no escape, no way out. On the inside screaming out but no one could hear me. No one dared to come near me. They just listened to my heart wrenching cries and continued to walk. Because I wasn't actually screaming on the outside.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
I woke up every day to relive the same recurring nightmare one that wouldn't go away.
I'm no angel but I'm the one who chose to save me. I took the steps I needed to take to seek help. At first it didn't work out. But then I found the right medicine and I began my journey to feel free. I began to feel like me again.
I lost a lot of 'friends' now I find ways to cope, reasons to smile. And I do it mostly alone. And for once I feel good inside. Like the weight of the world is off my chest. And I actually like me again and enjoy spending time with myself.
Tell me do you know how good that feels?
If you’re battling depression I wish recovery for you. Because it's no place anyone wants to be. I hope you never know how that feels....

looking for a way out

To the person who invented drugs. I just wanna turn around and kick you.


Your not my knight and shining armour on a white horse. More like the idea that real love exists ... Do I love you. Do I need you.Of course. I seen a lot of guys and your the best one. Do you have huge problems. We all have some. Your addicted to drugs. I’m addicted to the feeling I get when you give me a hug. When I forget that I belong in your arms. I just go for a hug to remember how it feels and what it feels like is ....love.

I’m in love with an addict and it’s hard.

It’s his life but loving him and watching him. It’s destroying mine. I can’t talk to him about it. We don’t see eye to eye. I’m doing everything I can to not have to say goodbye.

I don’t know if we’re over. I don’t know what we’ve become. But we’re no longer that happy couple. I blame drugs. If Your not in my life. My life gets super sad. I wish you’d pick me over your addiction. It’s not who you are. Though your so wrapped up in it that you can’t tell you and it apart. If I lose you. I lose my heart.

Stand by my side like I stood there for you. I waited for you to get your shit together. Still waiting on you. Now it’s your turn to wait. While I figure things out I let you down once you let me down every time you do drugs. Your numbing your pain. I’m trying to deal with mine. As you do line after line.

We’re both doing the same things. I’m sorting through my emotions your out there partying doing lines. Know that I don’t fit in your world. But I love you so much so I try. If I’m working on my issues. I expect the same. Not a this is me take it or leave it. I’m asking you to grow with me. So we don’t grow apart. Your my whole world that’s the hardest part. I’m better with you. We’re supposed to be a team.

Pick me I whisper. Pick me I scream. If you loved me you’d get clean.

Give him an ultimatum and watch him walk away. That’s my only option. Because he doesn’t love me enough to change.

He loves me. And I love him. But I don’t love drugs. That’s what his life is about. His reason to get up in the morning. It’s not me. He’s my whole being. I come second third or fourth. To me he comes first. To me He’s my world.

But your not trying to hear that...I’m not trying to be near that. So Someone’s gotta give.

I scream

You think there’s something better for you, go on and find it but if you see you had the best in me don’t you dare come back and find me

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The drugs have taken a toll. Instead of looking young. She looks sick and old.


Instead of finding somewhere safe and warm. She's on the hard concrete shooting up getting cold


She's got too much to hide from. No space to run.


Hoping one day she won't be outlined in chalk. Covered in blood.


She's too young too die but she can escape the need to get high.


Addiction. It hurts. It'll kill you on all levels. Watching your family hurt. Or Risking your life for a high. Coffins of lifes half-lived covered in dirt.


Beautiful girl don't forget your worth.


Instead of planning your successes. They start planning your funeral. Because there's danger all around you but you just can't see. If it doesn't begin with drugs and end up with being high. Sold your life to a one track mind.


Let's get it back to the right track. Right now youve got bruises over your bone thin arms. Cuts on your face. Losing weight. Losing faith. I know your life got hard and you want it to end or for the pain and sickness to stop. It's a beatable illness. I know right now it's literally the air you breathe. But take two steps towards me. Two steps towards recovery.


“I want to take my heart back it's mine. I need a miracle. I need all the strength I ever had. And I'm starting with nothing but hope. I won't give up on this life. I'm too young to die. My story begins here. I'm gonna give it my all. The last thing I want is too hurt you beyond repair. By getting a phone call at 2am. She didn't make It out of there. If I go out that way your gonna know I tried tried to survive. And I did it for me but I did it for you. For every tear we both cried”


You've got Two nails in the coffin. You've got two legs which way do you run. Run to Rehab or run to drugs. Only one of those options lead back to us.

no space to run

I was looking for a way out. I couldn’t see the light. Then a trip to emergency saved my life. No more being in so much pain that you pray for god to take you.

My pain is released now. It was a fight you wouldn’t believe. So please don’t look at me like I’m weak. Because you don’t know the strength it took to get here. I went through hell and back and was lucky to survive. Some people don’t come back from this. Some people take their life.

It’s a deadly isolating disease. I won’t be ashamed to say that I beat it. Because there were years that I thought ....I didn’t want to be here. Now I’m healthy and strong. See I was lost and nobody could find me. Times got hard but my family stuck by me. They let me know I wasn’t alone. They reassured me every day. Getting better didn’t happen overnight. They fought for me and took me out of the darkness and brought me to into the light. So if your suffering just know it’ll get better. You just have to keep up the fight.

Depression kills. No more coffins and lives half-lived. Break the silence. No one wants to come home one night to nightmare and sirens. Please ask for help when you need it. Asking for help is vital, it can turn your life around. I believe it. I know you might be feeling lost and all alone. But there are people that will miss you if you’re gone. You just got to be strong. Reach out your hand and ask for help. They can fix you. I know that they can. I’m living proof that’s there’s life after depression you just got to keep pushing through. There’s no shame in asking for help. It will save your life. Maybe your medication is wrong for you. Maybe you need to try something new. But whatever you do don’t give up on YOU.

dont give up

Was stuck in a bad place had to find a way out.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
I had to start from the ground up. With no desire to even get up. In fact I was close to giving up. Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
Thought I'd always feel this way. It took me 5 years to bounce back.
Those were 5 really hard years where I certainly lost myself. Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
Came close to giving up but I never stopped trying even when I wished I was dying.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
Reached out to everyone I knew. But I became too much to take. Too much too tolerate.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
But I remember it felt like someone ripped out my heart and soul and took everything I had that was good and trapped me in a dark hole. With no escape, no way out. On the inside screaming out but no one could hear me. No one dared to come near me. They just listened to my heart wrenching cries and continued to walk. Because I wasn't actually screaming on the outside.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
I woke up every day to relive the same recurring nightmare one that wouldn't go away.
I'm no angel but I'm the one who chose to save me. I took the steps I needed to take to seek help. At first it didn't work out. But then I found the right medicine and I began my journey to feel free. I began to feel like me again.
I lost a lot of 'friends' now I find ways to cope, reasons to smile. And I do it mostly alone. And for once I feel good inside. Like the weight of the world is off my chest. And I actually like me again and enjoy spending time with myself.
Tell me do you know how good that feels?
If you’re battling depression I wish recovery for you. Because it's no place anyone wants to be. I hope you never know how that feels....

looking for a way out

To the person who invented drugs. I just wanna turn around and kick you.


Your not my knight and shining armour on a white horse. More like the idea that real love exists ... Do I love you. Do I need you.Of course. I seen a lot of guys and your the best one. Do you have huge problems. We all have some. Your addicted to drugs. I’m addicted to the feeling I get when you give me a hug. When I forget that I belong in your arms. I just go for a hug to remember how it feels and what it feels like is ....love.

I’m in love with an addict and it’s hard.

It’s his life but loving him and watching him. It’s destroying mine. I can’t talk to him about it. We don’t see eye to eye. I’m doing everything I can to not have to say goodbye.

I don’t know if we’re over. I don’t know what we’ve become. But we’re no longer that happy couple. I blame drugs. If Your not in my life. My life gets super sad. I wish you’d pick me over your addiction. It’s not who you are. Though your so wrapped up in it that you can’t tell you and it apart. If I lose you. I lose my heart.

Stand by my side like I stood there for you. I waited for you to get your shit together. Still waiting on you. Now it’s your turn to wait. While I figure things out I let you down once you let me down every time you do drugs. Your numbing your pain. I’m trying to deal with mine. As you do line after line.

We’re both doing the same things. I’m sorting through my emotions your out there partying doing lines. Know that I don’t fit in your world. But I love you so much so I try. If I’m working on my issues. I expect the same. Not a this is me take it or leave it. I’m asking you to grow with me. So we don’t grow apart. Your my whole world that’s the hardest part. I’m better with you. We’re supposed to be a team.

Pick me I whisper. Pick me I scream. If you loved me you’d get clean.

Give him an ultimatum and watch him walk away. That’s my only option. Because he doesn’t love me enough to change.

He loves me. And I love him. But I don’t love drugs. That’s what his life is about. His reason to get up in the morning. It’s not me. He’s my whole being. I come second third or fourth. To me he comes first. To me He’s my world.

But your not trying to hear that...I’m not trying to be near that. So Someone’s gotta give.

I scream

You think there’s something better for you, go on and find it but if you see you had the best in me don’t you dare come back and find me

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