Marshie

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Marshie

I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

Memories lost in a head of confusion
Is this real or just an illusion

People I know
But can’t remember
They’re kind to me
But inside is a temper

I see a face I don’t recognize
A worried look a fear behind their eyes

I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

Trying to piece together the missing parts
So many broken memories where do I start

Am I off kilter
Out of sorts
Was it real
Or just thoughts

Am I lost or is this forever
Will it come back never say never

I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

Looking back at me are her eyes
Holding it together I can see she cries

I recognise her
She’s trying desperately
Always reminding me
Of who I used to be

Looking at me anguish on her face
Looking for her man she see’s no trace

I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

Looking in the mirror everythings gone black
The face you know isn’t looking back

Young man to the mirror
Blank behind the eyes
You see an old man
You just don’t recognise

Long ago memories viewed everyday
Life on repeat won’t go away

I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

I'm Not The Man

I couldn’t give you what you need
I stood back and watched you bleed
You were hurting from the inside out
Everyday tears with a silent shout
Kidding myself I was a good friend
Realising now it was just pretend
I should’ve done more should’ve known
Never let you walk that path alone
Those issues will never go away
And you are still suffering today
I admire the cross that you bore
But I know I could’ve done more

It’s easy afterwards to be wise
But to you my friend
I apologise I apologise

I can’t imagine it being any rougher
I stood back and let you suffer
Looking for a chance to make it good
There’s no way back even if I could
So much has happened so much has changed
It’s all back to front totally rearranged
You had a trauma and pushed all aside
Stood up tall, didn’t run and hide
One thing I’ve admired all along
When the chips are down you’re so strong

It’s easy afterwards to be wise
But to you my friend
I apologise I apologise

Should’ve held you in my arms, told you it’d be alright
Instead I was nowhere to be seen, out of sight
I wasn’t there and worst of all I let you down
Right at the time you needed me to be around

It’s easy afterwards to be wise
But to you my friend
I apologise I apologise

I know apologies are just words
They can’t repair the hurt
Should’ve done more
Should’ve been there
Should’ve supported
Showed I cared

It’s easy afterwards to be wise
But to you my friend
I apologise I apologise
To you my friend
I apologise I apologise

I Apologise

This dreadful disease
Started by the chinese
When will it end
Stuck inside without friends
Everyone inside with a frown
We’re in lockdown, lockdown

All over the world people crying
So many family and friends dying
Don’t touch me hold you breath
This nasty virus I don’t wanna get
How it started we don’t get it
Developed into a global pandemic
Stuck in isolation to keep safe
Time is all we have, we have to wait

This dreadful disease
Started by the chinese
When will it end
Stuck inside without friends
Everyone inside with a frown
We’re in lockdown, lockdown

Close down the world
Stop all the boats and planes
After this it’s never gonna be the same
it’s never gonna be the same

No more shaking hands
When we meet
No more hugs
No kissing on the cheek

Close down the world
Stop all the boats and planes
After this it’s never gonna be the same
it’s never gonna be the same

No longer out in our cars
No more restaurants and bars
Whilst we’re in the middle of it
Cinema and theatres off limits
We will come out the other side
It’s will be a difficult ride
But we will end up counting the cost
So many good people lost

This dreadful disease
Started by the chinese
When will it end
Stuck inside without friends
Everyone inside with a frown
We’re in lockdown, lockdown

Close down the world
Stop all the boats and planes
After this it’s never gonna be the same
it’s never gonna be the same

No more shaking hands
When we meet
No more hugs
No kissing on the cheek

Close down the world
Stop all the boats and planes
After this it’s never gonna be the same
it’s never gonna be the same

We’re in lockdown, lockdown

Close Down The World


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I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

Memories lost in a head of confusion
Is this real or just an illusion

People I know
But can’t remember
They’re kind to me
But inside is a temper

I see a face I don’t recognize
A worried look a fear behind their eyes

I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

Trying to piece together the missing parts
So many broken memories where do I start

Am I off kilter
Out of sorts
Was it real
Or just thoughts

Am I lost or is this forever
Will it come back never say never

I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

Looking back at me are her eyes
Holding it together I can see she cries

I recognise her
She’s trying desperately
Always reminding me
Of who I used to be

Looking at me anguish on her face
Looking for her man she see’s no trace

I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

Looking in the mirror everythings gone black
The face you know isn’t looking back

Young man to the mirror
Blank behind the eyes
You see an old man
You just don’t recognise

Long ago memories viewed everyday
Life on repeat won’t go away

I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

I'm Not The Man

I couldn’t give you what you need
I stood back and watched you bleed
You were hurting from the inside out
Everyday tears with a silent shout
Kidding myself I was a good friend
Realising now it was just pretend
I should’ve done more should’ve known
Never let you walk that path alone
Those issues will never go away
And you are still suffering today
I admire the cross that you bore
But I know I could’ve done more

It’s easy afterwards to be wise
But to you my friend
I apologise I apologise

I can’t imagine it being any rougher
I stood back and let you suffer
Looking for a chance to make it good
There’s no way back even if I could
So much has happened so much has changed
It’s all back to front totally rearranged
You had a trauma and pushed all aside
Stood up tall, didn’t run and hide
One thing I’ve admired all along
When the chips are down you’re so strong

It’s easy afterwards to be wise
But to you my friend
I apologise I apologise

Should’ve held you in my arms, told you it’d be alright
Instead I was nowhere to be seen, out of sight
I wasn’t there and worst of all I let you down
Right at the time you needed me to be around

It’s easy afterwards to be wise
But to you my friend
I apologise I apologise

I know apologies are just words
They can’t repair the hurt
Should’ve done more
Should’ve been there
Should’ve supported
Showed I cared

It’s easy afterwards to be wise
But to you my friend
I apologise I apologise
To you my friend
I apologise I apologise

I Apologise

This dreadful disease
Started by the chinese
When will it end
Stuck inside without friends
Everyone inside with a frown
We’re in lockdown, lockdown

All over the world people crying
So many family and friends dying
Don’t touch me hold you breath
This nasty virus I don’t wanna get
How it started we don’t get it
Developed into a global pandemic
Stuck in isolation to keep safe
Time is all we have, we have to wait

This dreadful disease
Started by the chinese
When will it end
Stuck inside without friends
Everyone inside with a frown
We’re in lockdown, lockdown

Close down the world
Stop all the boats and planes
After this it’s never gonna be the same
it’s never gonna be the same

No more shaking hands
When we meet
No more hugs
No kissing on the cheek

Close down the world
Stop all the boats and planes
After this it’s never gonna be the same
it’s never gonna be the same

No longer out in our cars
No more restaurants and bars
Whilst we’re in the middle of it
Cinema and theatres off limits
We will come out the other side
It’s will be a difficult ride
But we will end up counting the cost
So many good people lost

This dreadful disease
Started by the chinese
When will it end
Stuck inside without friends
Everyone inside with a frown
We’re in lockdown, lockdown

Close down the world
Stop all the boats and planes
After this it’s never gonna be the same
it’s never gonna be the same

No more shaking hands
When we meet
No more hugs
No kissing on the cheek

Close down the world
Stop all the boats and planes
After this it’s never gonna be the same
it’s never gonna be the same

We’re in lockdown, lockdown

Close Down The World

Heaven is the place to be
Tranquil and nice
You don’t wanna go down
Don’t think twice
The music’s pleasant and sweet
But we all know well
It aint good down there
But they, they rock in hell
Rock rock rock rock in hell

The girls are so naughty
Show you a good time
They’d kick your asses
If you got outta line
It sounds like fun
But we all know too well
It’s purgatory down there
But they, they rock in hell
Rock rock rock rock in hell

Peaceful days heavenly nights
Angels playing their strings
Floating on clouds
Doing their thing
I’m not ready for that
But we all know to well
It’s more fun down there
Because they rock, rock in hell
Rock rock rock rock in hell

You’ve no control
When it takes your soul
It’s always loud
The party crowd

Tell St Peter to stop
opening the gates
It’s time but you’re not done
He’ll need to wait
Wanna go down and have some fun
We all know well
It’s a party down there
And they, they rock in hell
Rock rock rock rock in hell


Looking down it seems such a waste
They’re having a good time
We all just want a little taste
Tell St Peter to close the gate
Heaven is just gonna have to wait
I’m going down but please don’t tell
It’s a party down there
Because they, they rock in hell
Rock rock rock rock in hell


You’ve no control
When it takes your soul
It’s always loud
The party crowd

It’s a party down here
Because they, they rock in hell
Rock rock rock rock in hell

Rock In Hell

Tonight is ours so you can be good tomorrow

You gave me a dark promise
A dark promise, in the dark
It only happens when everything aligns
That a bad woman
Gives a bad man
A good time
A good time

Such a good girl in the day
Daddy wont let anyone take you away
That pure and innocent act
Which there was no way past
But I found the key to your door
And released your inner whore

Took you out somewhere alone
Got you out of your comfort zone
No longer daddy’s little child
your imagination running wild
Threw away your virginity with pride
And took me to your darker side

Tonight is ours so you can be good tomorrow

You gave me a dark promise
A dark promise, in the dark
It only happens when everything aligns
That a bad woman
Gives a bad man
A good time
A good time

Ideas racing through your head
Can’t remember all you said
All that you wanted me to do
Was fuck the life out of you

Hungry hungry for loving
Like a hunter she is coming
Hungry hungry today
No getting away I’m her prey

Like a vampire in the night
You have me in your sights
In the dark she comes to play
Gonna fuck my life away

She’s stalking me ready to pounce
Saving my energy every ounce
In the night she’ll rip into my heart
She comes alive in the dark
She’s always screaming for more
Insatiable slutty dirty whore

I created a monster that wont stop
She loves controlling from on top
Nothing she wants is taboo
She’ll do anything for you
Undoubtedly the best time yet
Eating away the sins of the flesh

Tonight is ours so you can be good tomorrow

You gave me a dark promise
A dark promise, in the dark
It only happens when everything aligns
That a bad woman
Gives a bad man
A good time
A good time

Dark Promise

He’s been out drinking again
Laughing and joking with friends
Good time Charlie to his mates
Turns him into the man she hates

Another night of endurance
Another night of pain
Another night endlessly wishing
She could leave the game

He didn’t mean it or so he said
He just has too many things going on in his head
He promised to change, it won’t happen again
But she’s heard it before, but it stays the same
Begging her not to leave, convincing her to stay
Says he will get help, if that will be the way
She knows he means it,, but he’ll find a way
To get what he wants, say what she wants him to say

Why does she suffer him so, maybe it’s because
Every now and then, she gets a glimpse of who he was
She prays he is in there somewhere
She prays he will come back to her

He’s been out drinking again
Laughing and joking with friends
Good time Charlie to his mates
Turns him into the man she hates

Another night of endurance
Another night of pain
Another night endlessly wishing
She could leave the game

The key turns the lock of the door
The dred fills her heart once more
Always retuning worse for wear
Nobody believes she fell down the stairs
Summoning all her strength to cope
Hanging on to her vision of hope
Constantly battered and bruised
She’s there lonely and confused

He’s been out drinking again
Laughing and joking with friends
Good time Charlie to his mates
Turns him into the man she hates

Another night of endurance
Another night of pain
Another night endlessly wishing
She could leave the game

He hits her till she can take no more
Pushes her till she’s cowering on the floor
Gone are the times when they laughed
Now all that she sees is his wrath
No one believes anymore
That she walked into the cupboard door
She’s tried to leave time and again
But she’s held by his invisible chains


Held by his words and his fists
Even drunk he’s never missed
She knows his lifes a drag
She is just his punching bag
She hates what he has become
He’s fallen apart come undone
Heart full of sadness she cries
Is this the night that she dies

He’s been out drinking again
Laughing and joking with friends
Good time Charlie to his mates
Turns him into the man she hates

Another night of endurance
Another night of pain
Another night endlessly wishing
She could leave the game

Another night of endurance
Another night of pain
Another night endlessly wishing
She could leave the game

Good Time Charlie/ Another Night

He was inside her head
Every thing she did and said
But it wasn’t all bad
He understood every thought she had

Together their joy was proof
Returning that feeling of youth
Every time she ran away
She really wanted to stay and play

It’s living a dream not reality
They both backed off for their sanity
She misses his tenderness and touch
It’s like chocolate can you have too much?
Can you have too much?

They fit each other like a glove
On this carousel of love
Just round and round and round
Step off before it brings them down
They keep jumping on to ride
But not at the same time

it’s up and down
Riding on love’s merry go round

It’s on and off
it’s weak and strong
It’s naughty and nice
it’s right and wrong
It’s coming together
it’s pulling apart
They think it’s over then back to the start

They had a taste and liked it
Two pieces of a puzzle that fit
Had so many twists and turns
Just left with an ache that burns

A private connection no one can see
They wondered if it will ever be
Raging hormones, desire and lust
Deep understanding and trust

It’s living a dream not reality
They both backed off for their sanity
She misses his tenderness and touch
It’s like chocolate can you have too much?
Can you have too much?

They fit each other like a glove
On this carousel of love
Just round and round and round
Step off before it brings them down
They keep jumping on to ride
But not at the same time

it’s up and down
Riding on love’s merry go round

It’s on and off
it’s weak and strong
It’s naughty and nice
it’s right and wrong
It’s coming together
it’s pulling apart
They think it’s over then back to the start

There’s something between them feelings open
But they are apart hurt and broken
The world would condemn if it knew
Living apart is all they can do

They talk and correspond
Keep each other hanging on
The only thing they can see
Is they are destined not to be

Of what once was, there is no trace
Just trying to find their happy place
Both becoming disconnected
Both feeling sad and dejected

It’s living a dream not reality
They both backed off for their sanity
She misses his tenderness and touch
It’s like chocolate can you really have too much?
Can you really have too much?

They fit each other like a glove
On this carousel of love
Just round and round and round
Step off before it brings them down
They keep jumping on to ride
But not at the same time

it’s up and down
Riding on love’s merry go round

It’s on and off
it’s weak and strong
It’s naughty and nice
it’s right and wrong
It’s coming together
it’s pulling apart
They think it’s over then back to the start

Back To The Start

He may not have been a great man
But he was a great man to me
showed discipline and affection
Things that gave my life direction
I didn’t understand he had a plan
To turn me into the man I am

His philosophy and demeanour
The whole reason for me being here
Any problem we would work it out
Always give you the benefit of the doubt
He was calm caring and strong
If you crossed him, you knew you’d done wrong

He wasn’t a great man
But he was a great man to me
Sure we had moments
When we couldn’t agree
One of the best things that he did
Was give his time to my kids

where is it you’ve gone
sometimes I look up and stare
wonder how I got here
cause you’re not there

He definitely had presence
When he was around you felt his essence
He feared nothing and no one
His wit would never be out done
Peaceable and unassuming
Plain spoken unconfusing

He was good but not always right
For his family he’d lay down his life
Gave my life meaning
He made me the best I can be
He wasn’t a great man
But he was great to me

He wasn’t a great man
But he was a great man to me
Sure we had moments
When we couldn’t agree
One of the best things that he did
Was give his time to my kids

where is it you’ve gone
sometimes I look up and stare
wonder how I got here
cause you’re not there

He May Not Have Been A Great Man

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I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

Memories lost in a head of confusion
Is this real or just an illusion

People I know
But can’t remember
They’re kind to me
But inside is a temper

I see a face I don’t recognize
A worried look a fear behind their eyes

I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

Trying to piece together the missing parts
So many broken memories where do I start

Am I off kilter
Out of sorts
Was it real
Or just thoughts

Am I lost or is this forever
Will it come back never say never

I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

Looking back at me are her eyes
Holding it together I can see she cries

I recognise her
She’s trying desperately
Always reminding me
Of who I used to be

Looking at me anguish on her face
Looking for her man she see’s no trace

I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

Looking in the mirror everythings gone black
The face you know isn’t looking back

Young man to the mirror
Blank behind the eyes
You see an old man
You just don’t recognise

Long ago memories viewed everyday
Life on repeat won’t go away

I’m not the man….. I used to be
I look in the mirror
What’s happened to me

I'm Not The Man

I couldn’t give you what you need
I stood back and watched you bleed
You were hurting from the inside out
Everyday tears with a silent shout
Kidding myself I was a good friend
Realising now it was just pretend
I should’ve done more should’ve known
Never let you walk that path alone
Those issues will never go away
And you are still suffering today
I admire the cross that you bore
But I know I could’ve done more

It’s easy afterwards to be wise
But to you my friend
I apologise I apologise

I can’t imagine it being any rougher
I stood back and let you suffer
Looking for a chance to make it good
There’s no way back even if I could
So much has happened so much has changed
It’s all back to front totally rearranged
You had a trauma and pushed all aside
Stood up tall, didn’t run and hide
One thing I’ve admired all along
When the chips are down you’re so strong

It’s easy afterwards to be wise
But to you my friend
I apologise I apologise

Should’ve held you in my arms, told you it’d be alright
Instead I was nowhere to be seen, out of sight
I wasn’t there and worst of all I let you down
Right at the time you needed me to be around

It’s easy afterwards to be wise
But to you my friend
I apologise I apologise

I know apologies are just words
They can’t repair the hurt
Should’ve done more
Should’ve been there
Should’ve supported
Showed I cared

It’s easy afterwards to be wise
But to you my friend
I apologise I apologise
To you my friend
I apologise I apologise

I Apologise

This dreadful disease
Started by the chinese
When will it end
Stuck inside without friends
Everyone inside with a frown
We’re in lockdown, lockdown

All over the world people crying
So many family and friends dying
Don’t touch me hold you breath
This nasty virus I don’t wanna get
How it started we don’t get it
Developed into a global pandemic
Stuck in isolation to keep safe
Time is all we have, we have to wait

This dreadful disease
Started by the chinese
When will it end
Stuck inside without friends
Everyone inside with a frown
We’re in lockdown, lockdown

Close down the world
Stop all the boats and planes
After this it’s never gonna be the same
it’s never gonna be the same

No more shaking hands
When we meet
No more hugs
No kissing on the cheek

Close down the world
Stop all the boats and planes
After this it’s never gonna be the same
it’s never gonna be the same

No longer out in our cars
No more restaurants and bars
Whilst we’re in the middle of it
Cinema and theatres off limits
We will come out the other side
It’s will be a difficult ride
But we will end up counting the cost
So many good people lost

This dreadful disease
Started by the chinese
When will it end
Stuck inside without friends
Everyone inside with a frown
We’re in lockdown, lockdown

Close down the world
Stop all the boats and planes
After this it’s never gonna be the same
it’s never gonna be the same

No more shaking hands
When we meet
No more hugs
No kissing on the cheek

Close down the world
Stop all the boats and planes
After this it’s never gonna be the same
it’s never gonna be the same

We’re in lockdown, lockdown

Close Down The World

Heaven is the place to be
Tranquil and nice
You don’t wanna go down
Don’t think twice
The music’s pleasant and sweet
But we all know well
It aint good down there
But they, they rock in hell
Rock rock rock rock in hell

The girls are so naughty
Show you a good time
They’d kick your asses
If you got outta line
It sounds like fun
But we all know too well
It’s purgatory down there
But they, they rock in hell
Rock rock rock rock in hell

Peaceful days heavenly nights
Angels playing their strings
Floating on clouds
Doing their thing
I’m not ready for that
But we all know to well
It’s more fun down there
Because they rock, rock in hell
Rock rock rock rock in hell

You’ve no control
When it takes your soul
It’s always loud
The party crowd

Tell St Peter to stop
opening the gates
It’s time but you’re not done
He’ll need to wait
Wanna go down and have some fun
We all know well
It’s a party down there
And they, they rock in hell
Rock rock rock rock in hell


Looking down it seems such a waste
They’re having a good time
We all just want a little taste
Tell St Peter to close the gate
Heaven is just gonna have to wait
I’m going down but please don’t tell
It’s a party down there
Because they, they rock in hell
Rock rock rock rock in hell


You’ve no control
When it takes your soul
It’s always loud
The party crowd

It’s a party down here
Because they, they rock in hell
Rock rock rock rock in hell

Rock In Hell

Tonight is ours so you can be good tomorrow

You gave me a dark promise
A dark promise, in the dark
It only happens when everything aligns
That a bad woman
Gives a bad man
A good time
A good time

Such a good girl in the day
Daddy wont let anyone take you away
That pure and innocent act
Which there was no way past
But I found the key to your door
And released your inner whore

Took you out somewhere alone
Got you out of your comfort zone
No longer daddy’s little child
your imagination running wild
Threw away your virginity with pride
And took me to your darker side

Tonight is ours so you can be good tomorrow

You gave me a dark promise
A dark promise, in the dark
It only happens when everything aligns
That a bad woman
Gives a bad man
A good time
A good time

Ideas racing through your head
Can’t remember all you said
All that you wanted me to do
Was fuck the life out of you

Hungry hungry for loving
Like a hunter she is coming
Hungry hungry today
No getting away I’m her prey

Like a vampire in the night
You have me in your sights
In the dark she comes to play
Gonna fuck my life away

She’s stalking me ready to pounce
Saving my energy every ounce
In the night she’ll rip into my heart
She comes alive in the dark
She’s always screaming for more
Insatiable slutty dirty whore

I created a monster that wont stop
She loves controlling from on top
Nothing she wants is taboo
She’ll do anything for you
Undoubtedly the best time yet
Eating away the sins of the flesh

Tonight is ours so you can be good tomorrow

You gave me a dark promise
A dark promise, in the dark
It only happens when everything aligns
That a bad woman
Gives a bad man
A good time
A good time

Dark Promise

He’s been out drinking again
Laughing and joking with friends
Good time Charlie to his mates
Turns him into the man she hates

Another night of endurance
Another night of pain
Another night endlessly wishing
She could leave the game

He didn’t mean it or so he said
He just has too many things going on in his head
He promised to change, it won’t happen again
But she’s heard it before, but it stays the same
Begging her not to leave, convincing her to stay
Says he will get help, if that will be the way
She knows he means it,, but he’ll find a way
To get what he wants, say what she wants him to say

Why does she suffer him so, maybe it’s because
Every now and then, she gets a glimpse of who he was
She prays he is in there somewhere
She prays he will come back to her

He’s been out drinking again
Laughing and joking with friends
Good time Charlie to his mates
Turns him into the man she hates

Another night of endurance
Another night of pain
Another night endlessly wishing
She could leave the game

The key turns the lock of the door
The dred fills her heart once more
Always retuning worse for wear
Nobody believes she fell down the stairs
Summoning all her strength to cope
Hanging on to her vision of hope
Constantly battered and bruised
She’s there lonely and confused

He’s been out drinking again
Laughing and joking with friends
Good time Charlie to his mates
Turns him into the man she hates

Another night of endurance
Another night of pain
Another night endlessly wishing
She could leave the game

He hits her till she can take no more
Pushes her till she’s cowering on the floor
Gone are the times when they laughed
Now all that she sees is his wrath
No one believes anymore
That she walked into the cupboard door
She’s tried to leave time and again
But she’s held by his invisible chains


Held by his words and his fists
Even drunk he’s never missed
She knows his lifes a drag
She is just his punching bag
She hates what he has become
He’s fallen apart come undone
Heart full of sadness she cries
Is this the night that she dies

He’s been out drinking again
Laughing and joking with friends
Good time Charlie to his mates
Turns him into the man she hates

Another night of endurance
Another night of pain
Another night endlessly wishing
She could leave the game

Another night of endurance
Another night of pain
Another night endlessly wishing
She could leave the game

Good Time Charlie/ Another Night


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My name is Graham Marshall, I have always been into rock music, i'm getting on but not past it yet, I have always written lyrics for my own sanity and for fun, I would love to collaborate with a musician who likes my words.

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