Leif

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By Leif Weigel
V.1
I thought I outgrew the days that I felt too insecure to raise my hand
I thought I outgrew the days that I felt too much for you to ever understand
I thought it was over, the loneliness, the cold, the sun forgets to shine, your fingers leaving mine
I said that I was fine, I thought that I was fine, I pretend to be just fine

Chorus:
Or am I always gonna be 17 like this
Am I always gonna feel like I’m too big like this
Am I always gonna have these insecurities
Am I always gonna be 17

V.2
I thought my healing would get me to a feeling of total peace and total control
But in the process I accidentally accessed some shit that I can’t work through alone
Even though I’m older, forgiveness gets much harder, and losing love gets harder, I thought that I was stronger
I said that I was fine, I thought that I was fine, I pretended to be just fine

(Chorus)

V.3
I thought I made it, I thought I overcame it, I thought that I had it figured out
But I still am running, I'm scared of overcoming, guess it’s easier to live in my doubt
But I’ll still do my yoga, and smile cause I know the healing is gonna come, the healings gonna come.
I am gonna be just fine, I am gonna be just fine, I believe I’ll be fine

Final Chorus:
Or am I always gonna be 17 like this
Am I always gonna hate my thighs and treat my body like this
Am I always gonna have these insecurities
Am I always gonna be 17
Am I always gonna be 17

Braver, Stronger

She’s got smile lines and wrinkles on her face
She’s got a freshly ironed blouse on, and such sophisticated taste
She drinks her tea to Polka hits as her birds come to play
She’s just the right amount of settled in her ways

I sit and ask about her 20-something years
How she got knocked down then stood back up, even when she had fear
I ask her how made it through and she says “trust what you'll become”
“They said it gets boring when your older,
but so far I am having more fun”

Chorus:
She’s not afraid of getting older
Time made her braver and stronger
She’s got no regret and there is nothing she would change
She just gets more beautiful everyday
Cause she’s not afraid

Verse 3:
She says the only path to peace will come by loving who you are
She says if you don't also love others it won't get you very far
I asked her if she gets afraid of what the future holds
She said “I used to know that feeling, but you’ll see as you grow old”

Chorus:
You won't feel afraid of getting older
Time makes you braver and stronger
Forgive yourself for every little mistake that you’ve made
You’ll understand more as you age
So don’t be afraid

Bridge:
Time takes me everywhere
Then shows up on my face
It’s pulling me through grief and joy
And brought me to today

Final Chorus:
And I’m not afraid of getting older
I get braver and I get stronger
I’ve got no regrets and there is nothing I would change
Even the hardest days make more sense as I age
So I’m not afraid

Outro:
I’m not afraid, oh, I won’t be afraid

"Get To Where I’m Going"
-Leif Weigel

V. 1
All along the border line
Everything I’ve seen and everything that I’ve ever done
Pressing up against me in this southern sun
All along the water line
Everything I feel and everything I’ve been running from
Pressing up against me in this southern sun

Pre-chorus:
I know, I know, I dont grow, don’t grow
Unless the soil is loose
So I picked up and replanted my roots
and landed here
I know, I know, I don’t grow, don’t grow
Until I trust that I will bloom
I believe I’ll get there soon

Chorus:
Cause I am gonna find it
Once I get to where I’m going, get to where I’m going
I am gonna find it
once I get to where I’m going, get to where I’m going

V.2
All this time I numbed myself
Closed the door and forgot that I could ask for help
The way I give to everyone else
I guess the way I learn is pain
Guess it’s hard to find a way out when I love the rain
And think it’s always gotta be that way

Pre-chorus:
I know, I know, I don’t grow, don’t grow
Unless I stretch to the sun
And let my ego come undone, for once
I know, I know, I don’t grow, don’t grow
Until I write this down
So that is what I’m doing now
Trusting that I will somehow

Chorus:
Cause I am gonna find it
Once I get to where I’m going, get to where I’m going
I am gonna find it
once I get to where I’m going, get to where I’m going

Yeah, I, I am gonna find
and I’m gonna get to where I’m going, get to where I’m going
Yeah, I, I am gonna find